chapter one

l am the gift child of my father not to my parents because I was a total stranger in the hands of my own biological mother,my soldier father died when I was just 10, one would think my miseries came to an end when I was adopted by my own blood , but where on earth could that happen? but sadly to my own mother I was doing fine, surprising to me it was just like from fire to fry pan on the cooking site of my loving grandma who always makes sure that fire don't quench in her cooking site, the bullying was in the hands of the apprentice that are ten years above to my age, what can a little girl of my age do? l managed to protect myself most especially my mental health,I believed that sorry lasted for the night but joy in the morning as a teenage carries in a secret places mostly at night, calling on my dead father for protection, I believed someday that all the tortures will be no more because it most surly come to an end that might after having a great thought of myself,I dosed having tick general Note I said I must finish revision on but failed due to stress and tiredness with my eyes closed ,I noticed something moving all over me sensitive part all over my body,I slightly opened my eyes,my observations wasn't different because it was weekend, leave me alone , that was the passcode I can't forget,I saw that handsome fair man that had changed himself into a beast,I have turned 14 and gradually becoming a woman despite I over heard my mummy telling my youngest sister that we likely to have late maturity changes.

I have started having beautiful standing breasts that the beast always put his mouth on rubbing his big dick on my private areas, there was nothing new about it, the mistreating was part of my daily like but it didn't stop me from fighting back the little ways that I can.i always reminds him if am his child how he will feel having someone done the same thing how he will feel , immediately he stood up off me and want back to his room,tears rolled, which my mouth closed steering at a distance without having anything looking at. stay away from me! I shouted in my heart as tears continue rolling, I couldn't shout it because my sister is sleeping in her room and my little niece who also sleeps in my room, what is it ?a voice asked, aunty! Aunty!! I want to urinate,I cleaned my face and smiled at a beautiful daughter ,my cousin as I walked her way to the bathroom.

it was one Saturday morning , are you still on bed is here your Father's house? it was a moment of disgust and humiliation by my own blood sister,I wasn't surprised but because it was still 4:am and wasn't schooling day, which I have already done some of the house chores on Friday because is always a half day in our school, central school z,at that moment I had two choices either I stand from that bed immediately and work straight to the corridor that everywhere where dark or I remain in that room for the next two seconds to receive my break fast from her that early Morning that will leave scars all over my body , I don't have to yell at her but my heart was displaying extreme emotional of discomfort and agony.

I kept cleaning my cheeks from the tears breathing profusely as the tears wake my up.

at this point,I was remembering my night experiences with the husband while I believed that joy cometh in the morning but why sadness why my morning sorrowful again today? at this point,I knew I was not able to breathe properly so I zipped around my room where I dropped on the bed and began to breathe in and out audibly. my hands were wrapped the bedsheet and turned into a fist,my eyes were filled with an enormous amount of tears after a fewer second I word came " life is a stage with no respect for age,I went out to face the river of responsibilities that flows around me each day.

we all are in the setting room watching super national TV program,lover boy as so called him Basil is focusing on me instead the television, it was just on my face,in my heart " I will deal with you today if you try sheets"after all my warnings to you, after some minutes entered my room,I remembered that I forget to lock the kitchen as It is a new instruction that I must always look the kitchen at night, as I head to the kitchen direction, lover boy again," after all my warnings to him? as my heart was panicking, "give me a chance and I will make it up to you", you know I love you".. please " NO" I shook my head and rushed to the door in order to get out of there, the instant I unlocked the door he grabbed my hands from behind and pushed me to the wall,I struggled and screamed in pains but not to the noticed of anyone because I will be blamed just the way things had already be , everyone wants to take take advantage of me ranging from my step sister, mother, inlaw and apprentice there is no way he is going to me free ,so what I did next was my only best just to be free from him,I slapped him I needed to teach him a lesson of his life that present situation made me aggressive,I grabbed his balls,"Ahhh" he screamed in pain what are you doing to me? he screamed at the top of his lungs now he was in a serious pain now that he is hurting,his grips on me over my arms started to fade away as I didn't hold back and pressed them even more harder " let me go" he shouted in agony that was the moment that I let him go. l arranged my clothes and sprinted to the exit, when I went into my room. my step sister doesn't like me or defend me so who will I complain to? my mother mother who doesn't took me as her child? or my in-law who will only feel jealous and punished him not because he sexually abusive but because he will likely to win me over him or to my sister who now thinks am a problem to her without considering how I feel or what maybe the result of all that maltreatment in my later life,my presence and smiles even a mere sight of me makes her gouge her eyeballs out ,but what can poor girl like me do? someone who likes and appreciate her education which was only reason to remain,my father is late,if I leave now who will train me? if I quit without gotten my education my previous endurance will be invain ,I accepted to be the cun bucket which I knew it wasn't my name but a name that nature have given me,so this night I won't sleep?as tears ran d my cheeks.

grace!! a voice called,it was my sister,I quickly cleaned my usual tears and pretended I was fine,I rushed out to her in the room,I meet her seating on her bed as usually, get me a class of water! she commanded I reached out to a mini refrigerator right behind her bed and brought a glass of water and served, she drank and her eyes balls falls on me ranging from the crown of my head to the feet, what is wrong with you? she asked, with a terrified voice,I panicked as usual, nothing I quickly responded, eeeeeh she said lamentably,I moved back to my room to continue with my endless thoughts,o God! when will this pass me? I asked my God,soon I slightly voice answered within me,I smiled my confidence increased,in my heart,I knew that I was in my process,I opened my eyes when I started hearing the horns of moving vehicles,I immediately opened my eyes and fall them on a wall clock opposite to my bed it was 5:Am I stretched my long legs and hands.

Grace! someone called out from outside,are you awake? happy birthday my future wife,it was lover boy's voice wishing a happy birthday,I appreciated it because despite all his irresponsible attitudes towards me he still have a good heart but I never showed it but gently opened the door and went outside, thanks,I said with a dull voice,am never showed my excitement