Chapter 5
I lean against the dirt wall behind me, taking a deep breath while Cizi jumps out of the burrow. Now that I have a moment alone for the first time since arriving here, I need to process my situation. That bitch of an entity referenced taking my memories, which would explain why my name is basically all I can remember of my supposed prior life. Who knows, she could have implanted the name if she really has the power to alter my memories and reincarnate me to another world. I'm inclined to believe her though, as it makes this whole situation make more sense. Unless I'm an amnesiac and someone really powerful is just fucking with me, her story is viable.
I mean, I had an inherent belief that goblins were creatures of fantasy, yet I just fucked one. This gives credibility to the transmigration story. Cizi took my entire cock and told me her body changed, so there's credibility to my dick having the ability to alter a beings anatomy. On top of that, my cum is apparently her sustenance now. I guess time will either prove or disprove that one. I didn't fuck her mouth, so I find it strange that this may be the result. Incomprehensible powers have incomprehensible effects I guess. I'm actually excited by the idea of Cizi living off my cum, so the story of me being a pervert is also credible... Accepting yourself is important, so fuck it, I guess...
Being referenced as a toy for entertainment is quite troublesome though. I don't know what that strange entities game is, but I don't imagine she has pure intentions. She seems to have a thing for me corrupting women, so she'll probably be discontent if I don't do so. I can already feel an internal desire to start going out and conquering various women, but I don't think she caused that. I'm pretty sure that's just me...
Part of me wants to go on an adventure and fuck anyone I deem worth banging. After seeing what happened to Cizi though, I don't want to do that to anyone. Cizi seems happy about this situation, but I don't imagine that to be normal. Though I don't know much yet, I might not be able to fuck someone without them becoming physically dependent on me. Talk about an unhealthy power dynamic. I could kill someone if I hit it and quit it. I'll have to put more thought into that later. Speaking of Cizi... That little bitch raped me!
Not that I'm complaining, the sex was incredible. Now I get what that sadistic entity meant when she said many races don't understand what consent is. Am I going to have to watch my back for psycho rapists from now on? I don't seem to have a way to defend myself at this point. Cizi has a dagger, so she must have some experience with combat. If this world is as dangerous as my limited experience is telling me, learning to protect myself should be my first priority.
As I finish that last thought, Cizi returns to the burrow with what looks like a few peaches in her hands. They're a little bigger than peaches, but have the same coloration. Wait... She's even shorter than I had guessed before. Seeing her standing, without my attention on her ass, I can actually try an gauge her height. She's probably around 3 and 1/2 feet tall. Goblins really are short... With the same stoic look she's had, virtually the entire time since we met, she walks up to me and holds the food out to me.
"Peach Cizi old favorite... Atlas eat Cizi peach." She says as I take one from her.
I know what she meant by that, but I will definitely be taking her up on her unintended idea later. I'm assuming my cum is her new favorite food. Whether it's because she believes she needs it ore truly wants it, I don't know. Now that I think about it, I should probably fuck her face later. That entity said my strange wiener sorcery works on any hole. As for the peach itself, the name is quite convenient for me. I thank Cizi before taking a bite. It tastes and smells just like her, interesting. As I continue eating the extra sweet fruit, she starts trying to take off my pants.
"Cizi, what are you doing?" I ask, wondering whether she wants food or sex. I grab her hands to stop her and get her attention.
"Cizi want Atlas cock?" She says in a confused tone, seemingly bewildered that I actually stopped her. "Atlas mad at Cizi?"
"I'm not mad at you Cizi. I just wanted to know what you were doing. You said you wanted my cock, so I take it you wanted sex, not food?" I ask.
"Not hungry... Just want Atlas cock." She replies, seeming to wait for my permission.
I'm currently having mixed thoughts and emotions. Though it's obvious she doesn't understand consent, she is still waiting for permission since I stopped her. I already know she's placed herself under me in the power dynamic of our relationship because she asked me to keep her. Aside from that, the idea of her randomly jumping on my cock out of nowhere turns me on... A lot... But I want her to understand that I can refuse her. I don't really want her to think she needs permission first though. A spontaneous and horny partner seems ideal for me.
"Now isn't the time Cizi. I have some things I need to figure out. You can have my dick later. For now, can you please tell me about this area?" I ask, hoping she will understand. I'm a little worried about learning from her, but I understand her pretty well. I continue eating the peaches she brought me while she speaks.
"No Atlas cock." She says quietly, pausing for a moment like she is trying to cope with the situation at hand. After a moment, she returns her gaze back to me. "Many mean things... Try eat Cizi... Ate mommy... Ate daddy."
She said that without any emotion... Is she over it, or really good at hiding it now that the initial shock is over? Wait... Ate mommy and daddy... Oh no... She's a child! I got raped by a child! I need to figure this out. I have some knowledge of goblins from fantasy, but this isn't fantasy, this is real life. Goblins are small according to fantasy. Also, she doesn't have the same communications skills I do. Please tell me she's an adult...
"Cizi, you're a goblin, right? I've never met a goblin before. Are you an adult?" I ask, somehow keeping my composure.
"Cizi adult goblin." She replies, her ever stoic expression unchanging.
Thank god... I'm assuming most of my thoughts and values come from my past life, though I don't have any memories attached to my ideas and beliefs. It actually feels weird, now that I think about it. It feels somewhat uncomfortable... Like my whole mental and emotional foundation has been implanted into me. Logic tells me, based on what I've learned, that they're my own thoughts, beliefs and emotions. Things I grew and developed in my last life. That doesn't change my current situation, but I think it'll fade with time. As I start developing new memories here, I'll probably start feeling comfortable with my own existence. Should I adapt to beliefs and values here as I learn them? Or should I hold strong to what surfaces as I experience new things here? I guess I'll have to figure it out as I go. For now, I need to ensure our safety. I get the inexplicable feeling that this place is very dangerous. Outside of the warthog and whatever was chasing Cizi last night, I haven't encountered anything else. It seems like this area might be mostly uninhabited. Possibly due to those predators.
"Cizi, what was chasing you last night?" I ask.
"Orc chase Cizi... Try eat Cizi... Orc ate old family." She replies.
"Old family?" I ask, a little confused.
Cizi walks over to me and places a hand on my stomach, looking up at me with a very slight smile. "Atlas new family... Atlas Cizi mate... Cizi love Atlas."
"Cizi, why do you love me?"
"Atlas kind to Cizi... Everyone hate goblin... Atlas good human... Save Cizi... Comfort Cizi... Keep Cizi safe."
I get it a little more now. Also, she said human. So there are other humans... I would like to meet one. Maybe I'll find some answers if I do. Cizi said everyone hates goblins though. I might need to be careful around other species to keep her safe. It's too late because I already feel attached to her, but saving her may cause me problems down the road. It is what it is at this point though.
"Thank you Cizi, you make me happy. I would like to explore the area, but I don't know how safe it is." I say.
"Cizi help Atlas... Cizi good with dagger... Sneak and hide... Cut enemy throat... Cizi kill bad things." She replies like it's normal, but maybe it's just her mostly unchanging emotions.
"So you can be stealthy and are used to combat. That's good to know. What if the enemy sees you and you can't sneak?"
"Cizi run and hide... Stay if Atlas hurt... Cizi fight to death."