1 It Hurts

Angel's pov:

Why does my heart gets pricked whenever my family members neglect me? Why does it hurt when someone call me a bad omen, a devil incarnation? Why I feel worse when I need someone shoulder to cry to let my miseries out but there is no one to rely on...

Whenever happiness reached me there would be one or the other thing which would instantaneously replace it with sadness.

Do I don't have right to feel happy , to feel the warmth of family , to feel joy of being surrounded by friends just for once.

Darkness lumping around me is making me fall into the deep abyss with no point of return. 17 years of my life were spent in making everyone around me happy but what did I got inspite of my efforts disgust, hatred, neglection.Many around me usually talk about being in love is the best thing in the world. Me being the foolish me believed all those words. Started to think that my Prince Charming would come and take me away from all those negativity, he would be my ray of hope, he would give me my much desired happiness.

Then reality struck me. Life thought me a bitter lesson and in the end I came to a conclusion that love and all is just bullshit.

Everyone in the world care for themselves. All they need is the materialistic things no one care about emotions. That day my fairytale world broke. The blow was so hard that the pain was killing me...

It's OK if I am not meant to be happy ,it's OK if my life would be filled with darkness. All I want is answer to one question God will you at least to that for me..

Answer me " What should I do to reduce the pain that's creeping in my heart every moment?" Because it hurts...

It hurts....