5 Chapter 5: Last Day
It was a week after my birthday, March 15th. I felt that today was the day that I couldn't continue forward. I knew that when I went to sleep, today I would never wake up and fall into an eternal rest. "Well, that wasn't all that fun, but today shall, we put on the best show we can for our mother," Xander said to the other three with a massive grin.
"Alright. Let's forget all this pain and pretend it doesn't exist. Then shall we start this wonderful day off bright and early." Xander continued to say as he crawled out of bed and climbed into his wheelchair. When he rolled into the kitchen and looked at the clock, it was 4:46 am, so he decided to wait until 6:25 when his mom woke up.
In the meantime, he decided to draw while having a random show playing in the background. What he started to draw with the help of Tom are a few flowers, but not just any type of flowers. There will be a combination of 4 flowers.
There is a meaning for all of these types of flowers. They are all from my different personalities. I ended up choosing the black roses. Zach with some time of thinking, picked the forget me, not flower. Tom couldn't help but go with the snapdragon which is his favorite flower, and Lucas was bland compared to the rest of us and chose a daffodil.
In the image, the black rose was by itself, not touching the other flowers. The snapdragon and daffodils were entangled with each other's stems, with the forget me not flowers scattered surrounding the two.
After about one and a half hours of doing this flower drawing, I almost completed everything that needed to be done with it, and just before my mom woke up, I decided to make breakfast.
I pushed myself towards the kitchen to make omelets that we all agreed to make since mom's favorite food is an omelet. The good thing about omelets is that it's a simple food to make. The hardest part of making them was that I had to get out of my wheelchair to get a full view so that I didn't burn them. While I can stand up and walk around without a wheelchair or crutches, it just hurts to do so and is very hard.
While finishing the omelets, I heard my mom walking down the hallway to get her morning coffee. When she walked into the kitchen, She said, "Oh. Well, someone seems to be better today." "Yeah, who knows? Maybe I'll end up better and be back to normal soon," I replied with a gigantic smile.
"Are you making breakfast this early? It's not even 7 am yet," she said, giving me a weird look. "Yeah, don't you know that the early bird gets the worm? I mean that is what you used to say all the time. Isn't it?" "You remember that? Well. I guess I should pay attention to my words," she said with a stupid smile on her face. "Well, I'm almost done with breakfast, so you better be ready for the best breakfast you ever had."
She didn't say anything and just nodded her head. She then continued making her morning coffee. After making her coffee, she put a little bit of sugar and creamer in her coffee. Then she sat on the couch, turned on the TV, and started to watch a food show.
After calling her over for breakfast, she turned into a kid when she saw the omelets. "What's the special occasion? Did I do something good to have omelets today?" she asked, trying not to run around like a child. "No, there's nothing special. I just thought omelets would be nice to have today."
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Just like that, the day started to fly by, and it was like every day. Mom went to work around 8:15 and came home at 7:47. Throughout the day all I did was finish the drawing, watch anime, and play the guitar. I even saw the white wolf that saved me, while the wolf doesn't stay with us it does come visit us now and then.
It was around 10:30 when we decided to go to bed. Then with a sudden thought, I ask Mom if it's okay if I go sleep with her like when I was a child, and well she thought it would be a great idea since we haven't slept together in a long time. So as we were lying down in bed she asked "Why the sudden urge to sleep together with me?"
"Well there isn't a reason, I just thought It would be nice to feel the same warmth I felt when I was a child." After about 20 minutes of just laying down Mom ended up going to sleep, and it was funny to watch her sleep since she slept like a baby.
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Before I went to sleep, I wanted to make sure that the drawing that I made for her would be in a spot where she could see it. Also to make sure she knew who each flower was from on the back of the drawing, there was who the flowers were from and what the flower meant.
From Xander, The Black Rose - has quite a few meanings, but the main ones are mourning, loss, a significant change, and eternal love.
From Zach, Forget Get Me Not, this means both true love and respect. Giving someone one of these little blossoms is a pledge that you will never forget them and that you will think of them often.
From Tom, Snapdragon - This flower also has many meanings, but the main ones are because it grows in rocky areas, so they are a symbol of strength, and it also has another meaning, protection.
From Lucas, Daffodils - They are the flowers that first bloom during spring after winter giving the meaning of rebirth and a new beginning. Some daffodils even stay in bloom during the winter, giving them a meaning of resilience.
With all these meanings, they all had their notes, "While death may tear us apart, I do hope that you can move on and that I will forever love you. After the mourning of our death, I do hope you can find a new path. Love, Xander."
The next one from Zach said, "I thank you for loving all three of us the same way you loved Xander and accepting us as a person instead. Though, sadly, we have to depart from each other so soon, Zach."
After Zach was Tom, he said, " While I didn't have many conversations with you, I liked it when you listened to the music I played. I loved it when you joined me with your beautiful singing and outstanding violin skills. I also appreciated that you helped me on my drawing journey. So, with all these flowers, I hope they can provide you with resilience and protect you from the weakness that follows our death.
The last one was Lucas, and it read, " I know I'm a troublemaker, and sometimes I like to mess with you. So this part is heartbreaking for me, but with this death, I hope that you can fly high and not fall with the terrible wind that will blow you away - The best one, Lucas."
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I decided to place the drawing on the kitchen table so that she could see it when she got up for her morning coffee. After laying back down, I stared at her silly, drooling, sleeping face with a tremendous smile.
Before closing my eyes, I thought of that night. Although it sucks that it has happened and there isn't anything that I can do about it, I couldn't help but think about the snow that I ended up falling into.
Thinking that even though the snow was supposed to be cold, it was warm and comforting for some odd reason. It felt like when I was a child and being held into my mother's pleasant embrace like nothing could ever hurt me.
As I closed my eyes, I saw every moment I spent with my mother. Her waist-length pitch black hair, her bright glossy diamond blue eyes. Her warm and comforting aura when she hugged me, her foolish and easygoing smile that she gave me all the time. Every single thing she did ended up being burned into my brain.
When my eyes closed, I could feel a tear drop forming in my eyes. Then, I began to drift off into a deep and never-ending abyss.
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