2 Insistent Deaths
Huh?... Was that a voice? It sounded female yet, not female. Am I hallucinating due to me dying?
[Child you are already dead]
I'm dead? So that's why everything seemed....hmm what's the word exactly, gone? I feel like my existence itself is hanging by a thread. Like I would fade away if this conversation was ended.
[You are very unique child. I've never met anyone who could properly talk with me, let alone feel the void]
The void? Is that what this feeling is? It's very unnerving. Aren't you scared Angela?
[I am not, but are you referring to me with that name?]
Oh sorry, I don't mean any disrespect, I read in a book about an angel named Angela, being the messenger of God or something like that.
[Dont worry, I know already. You are very intelligent for a 15-year-old boy]
Wait…So can you like....read my mind?
[You can say that. You harbor quite a complex personality.]
...I said nothing. She probably can tell that I hate my parents and even attempt to kill my father.
[ There is no need to worry I'm not mad with you. So you said before that you would like to go to a fantasy world is that correct?]
The angel said with a bit of amusement in her(?) voice. If possible, yes. My last life was very uneventful and even torturing to endure.
[Is that right? ...I see, you are a unique human. You've surprised me a lot within this conversation alone.]
O-oh... But I haven't really done much.
[Oh but you have. You just don't understand it. Due to these surprises, I've decided to make your dream a reality. I'll also allow you to have a certain boost but nothing to truly change the universe you will be sent to. Everything else will be up to you.]
Hearing this I got excited. I would love to become a different race if possible, maybe a vampire, a golem, or even an undead skeleton. My choices can be limitless.
'Okay thank you Ms. Angela if I'm having a boost would you allow me to also choose my race?'
My heart starts to beat faster as I await the answer from the angel. However, 2 minutes passes as I still don't hear anything. As I was about to call out to the angle once again, I realize that my heart is actually beating. Does this mean that I'm not in my conscious yet unconscious state anymore? I can't talk to the angel anymore?
Seeing as I'm not dead anymore I try using my brain, I try to force myself awake from my sleep-like state. Opening my eyes a bit sluggish I look around at my unknown surroundings. The cool yet thick air fogged up the environment. The trees that grew in this area were naked and had no leaves like something withered them away.
I got to my feet to get a better view of my location. I tried to analyze my location but failed as I'd never seen this place before. Soon a bunch of information overran my brain. My eyes widened and my pupils vibrated quickly to process this information. I grabbed my head tightly and grunted loudly, the pain from this brain overload was comparable to a brain freeze with 2x the pain.
I finally release the tight grip from my head as I start to massage my temples. The information I received told me many things. It stated my location and situation. Apparently, I am inside of the YGGDRASIL game itself, in the world of Niflheim. Based on the information, the current year is 2126 in the real world of this universe. This means that YGGDRASIL has just been released, with only 1000 players in the game who are allowed to play in advance for two weeks. My breaths started to get heavier with my excitement increasing.
However my excitement was immediately killed once I seen what my race is. The race that the angel chose for me is human. I'm human, this means I get no cool lore or background, not to mention racial abilities or immunities. Just plain old human. My face was pretty similar to my last life, only my hair is a different color, as it's silver white. This caused me to get annoyed and ball up my fist peeling back the skin on my palms. I didn't feel any pain in my hands, just a sharp sensation but no pain.
My anger starts to slowly deflate as I come to accept the fact that I am human and there is nothing I can do about it right now. I mean yeah, there are ways to change my race later on in game, however right this moment there is no way that I know of. As I come to terms with my current predicament another wave of information is injected into my brain. This information gave me hope and even piqued my interest.
The late information I received stated that there is a way to get a hidden/secret race that is available even at the start game. This race is called Ghost, it has a very mysterious lore and even has multiple immunities and racial traits. This race has physical attack immunity, Mind-affecting Immunity, Paralysis Immunity, Poisoning Immunity, Sleep immunity etc. In conclusion it is pretty overpowered for start and post game. The way to unlock this hidden class is where it gets hard.
Any player with any race can unlock the class, the player has to personally kill him/herself 100 times. At level 0, resulting in the player losing 10 levels starting at level -10 instead of 0. This means that having another player kill you is out of the question. You have to personally do the deed yourself, 100 times at that. And starting from level -10 is pretty hard as it's hard to even kill the easiest monsters in YGGDRASIL. It would make sense as to why no one in the novel, web novel, or the anime found out about this race as it would most likely get revealed post game by a random player who stumbled upon it or by a Dev. Most players would have already been and joined a guild, created their own build, and spent money on cash items to customize their character. No one would want to start over around that time and restart at level zero. This race required very specific conditions.
However this was worth it in my mind as it was only 10 levels in the negatives and the game has just launched and is only in the early access stage so I have plenty of time to earn my levels and exceed others easily. Since I am apart of the game itself instead of a actual player the game time is moving much faster then the real world time which also boosts my time to catch up. I immediately make my decision and choose to take this chance.
The first time killing myself was terrifying and painful. I had thought due to the sharp feeling I felt in my hands before that I wouldn't feel pain but I was highly mistaken. It was very painful since the way I ended myself was with my nails. I clawed at my neck, scratching my neck with all my strength until my esophagus was revealed then I yanked at it, killing myself immediately.
When I died I was left in an unconscious state with my consciousness being enveloped in darkness like before with the angel. However, there was no one to talk to this time I was alone with the abyss as my partner. After some unknown time, I awoke in the same spot, the blood from before when I clawed out my esophagus was still there under my feet.
This time I wanted to end things more quickly, so looked into my inventory for something and found a small dagger. I'm sure it would do the job much easier them my nails. I grab the dagger and stab it directly into my stomach. Well at least I thought I did... Actually, I stabbed my lungs. Blood coughed up out of my mouth fall onto my white shirt.
The blood in my lungs started to fill up, this made breathing impossible and I started to drown on my own blood. I didn't want to die from drowning as it was a hard way to go out, so I used what little strength I had left and stabbed my torso over and over. Let me remind you this was very painful, a normal person definitely wouldn't be able to withstand doing this 100 times, ….well a normal person probably wouldn't feel any pain since they wouldn't be inside of the game like me. After stabbing myself (I don't know how many times) I found myself back in the limitless abyss again.
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I've now killed myself over 42 times....i think? I've been trying to keep count however, between the horrible pain and the unknown abyss that keeps my company I've been losing count. I've started a habit of counting the amount of seconds it takes for me to die each time.
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At this point I'm starting to think that I live in this abyss of darkness. I've now completely lost count of how many times I've died. Recently I've been testing out the quickest ways to kill myself. You'd be surprised at how many way a human can die. Recently it has taken me 1 minute 26 seconds for me to die with my latest method.
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Hmm….why was I doing this again? It completely eludes me now. I don't even remember what's supposed to happen once I reach my goal now. But my brain continues to not allow me to stop. Maybe I'm almost there? As the blood from me stabbing myself fall touches the ground I look down to see a huge puddle of blood around me. How many times have I died exactly?
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My precision with this dagger has gotten pretty good and even my human understandings for lethal and fast ways to end a human's life with a knife. For instance most people would think slitting the throat would be a fast way to end a life however it's pretty messy. A more efficient way is stabbing through the back of the neck into the brain stem. This is as painless as it can get. If you want more of a work out you could try stabbing into the kidneys multiple times, quickly, Kinda like a machine. This will definitely make you feel the burn.
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[Hidden Quest Complete]
Hm? What's this mean? My dull eyes look at the window in front of me trying to process whatshappening. Soon the glint returns to my eyes as they widen. It's…..it's done. FINALLY IM FINISHED!
