11 Palace Matriarch
My vision suddenly disoriented, and I suddenly realised that where I currently stood had changed.
That wasn't just a memory. It was… 'trauma'.
Something the person who owned this body would never forget. Not until even the day she died...
I could feel her memories becoming my own…
A cold household with people that only saw her as a tool, tragedy from being kidnapped by a Incubus Sect and having her virginity sold off. Finally, she was turned into nothing more than a pleasure tool.
False virtues among Demonic Practitioners made them think they were better than animals because they gave her 'Choices'. She could either be sold off to people who'd ignore her human rights, or she could abide by the rules of the Incubus Sect.
Her first time was given away through blackmail…
Gradually, she was painted in the colours of evil that were in her environment. As if to externalise this, her eyes went from a deep cyan colour to a Sakura Petal pink. Her life was never happy.
Others would have broken from the trauma…
I knew the feeling of having no emotional outlets for stress. It was a feeling that drove me crazy.
Sometimes, I'd even hit my head on a wall to cope with the stress 'Robert Hawkin' would always feel.
However, Crystal Frost was different.
It was many times worse than my circumstances.
She grew up with the 'Cold Heart' Innate Gift and matured quickly into a rational person as a result.
When her Ice Dao Immortal Physique finally awakened, her mind became even more stable.
'Frozen Heart' was a great Innate Gift indeed…
But that only made her more aware of her feelings.
The others who had been kidnapped just like her had stopped reflecting over time. They were consumed with physical pleasures and gave up their hearts to shame. A clear defence mechanism.
Crystal was different from them…
She had never forgotten her grudge no matter how much they humiliated her. It gave her strength.
Reflection on herself kept her mind clear…
She realised that the techniques of the Incubus Sect corrupted the mind, and 'pink eyes' were the sign of successful erosion of their mentality. This lowered their guards towards her true intentions.
It's true that she accepted the corruption. She too had begun to enjoy the pleasures of the body a lot.
On top of that, after her virginity was taken, she found out that her Immortal Physique had a quality that was fragile in front of sexual acts. The one who took her first time would gain part of her Gift.
Her 'Frozen Heart' was broken. Thus, it became the imperfect Innate Gift called 'Shattered Heart'.
The mental barriers she had weakened greatly…
Anyone else with the Ice Dao Immortal Physique would have had their minds broken from shame.
The only difference between her and others…
…between her and 'me', was her mental fortitude.
Despite losing freedom and human rights, she was a 'strong' person who never feared adversity.
Not even if others slowly destroyed her body…
Rather than rejecting the abyss, she used the darkness she'd been taught to her own advantage.
They taught her how to seduce people, so she did just that, but hid her true intentions pretty deeply.
Not even the Sect Leader himself suspected that the passive and obedient girl sucking him off had cruel intentions. It was a fatal mistake and blind ignorance that came from only looking externally.
While she wasn't physically strong, her greatest strength came from within. It was through the acceptance of lust and the ugliest parts of herself that she had eventually 'reformed' her Innate Gift.
The Sect Leader of the Incubus Sect didn't notice the change within her. He only cared for pleasures.
That was… until the day of reckoning finally came.
Laying on top of a bed, the infamous and cruel man with handsome features watched his slave arrive.
Wearing nothing but a veil- No, even though she should have been in lingerie, today was different.
She wore a full set of clothes this time…
It didn't make her look less sexy, but only made the man lick his lips more upon seeing this change.
"Are you trying to seduce me?" He laughed. It was then he gestured her to come closer to the bed.
He was already naked and ready to take her once more. However, something felt 'off' for a moment.
He couldn't put his finger on what it was…
The lust that was always taking pleasure in was dying down inside him; blood was becoming cold.
His Qi started to become slower and frigid…
In moments, it got worse to the point he started to cough out blood. His danger senses were roaring.
"P-poison…?!" His voice was so hoarse that he could barely say anything. Only looking at the girl.
The Sect Leader finally started to look at Crystal's face, which he never really noticed in the past.
"Hehe… Did you always look so emotionless?" He could only see her eyes, but it was enough for him.
He wondered how she managed to poison him…
However, he was wrong from the beginning.
"You want me to come closer to you?" As if she didn't notice his condition, Crystal asked blandly.
But as her body got closer to him, the chill the Sect Leader felt started to become even more unbearable. Snow started to form on the bedsheets, and sweat was freezing into icicles.
"S-stop…" He spoke up weakly, which she ignored without feeling any guilt or remorse whatsoever.
His pitiful figure didn't move her heart at all…
The man finally realised the truth far too late.
It wasn't poison affecting him. The girl herself was releasing really strong Ice Qi with great finesse.
Crystal sat in front of the man. Rather than brutally punching him or releasing her pent up anger, she started to strip one piece of clothing at a time. The frosty energy around her started to become milder.
She removed her robe, underwear, and the veil covering her face, and returned it all to normal.
The snow in the room started to vanish with her Qi.
But the Sect Leader didn't feel relieved. In fact, he found that she was a lot more dangerous right now.
In her hand was a blade she managed to attain…
"…!" A silent scream engulfed the room. The rest of the story was as anyone could have expected.
That night, the pleasure slave of the Incubus Sect vanished, and a great figure appeared in the Absolute Heavenly Ice Palace. A platinum blonde woman with a 'Transcendent Gift' had matured.
She was known as the 'Permafrost Ice Dragon Empress'. A swordsman with immeasurable power.
Eventually, she even became the new Matriarch of the Heavenly Ice Palace. As for the Incubus Sect, it was destroyed not long after due to the combined efforts of several 'Immortals' she had gathered.
Her happy future was set in stone…
This was when I'd 'dived' into her character.
When she was at her highest point…
"Who are you exactly?" The woman asked me within the dreamworld we both seemed to share.
"You should already know." After all, our memories were slowly blending together after I entered her.
She suddenly sighed in understanding…
I expected her ego to fight back against me, but she didn't seem to mind the prospect of 'dying'.
"Take care of my Sect."
"I will… but… Why do you trust me?"
"You're not a malevolent soul."
"Well… Any advice you'd like to give me?" I was interested in what she wanted out of me in return.
"…You should open up to the kids here. They have clear and pure hearts, unlike the two of us."
"Then why aren't you resisting? Don't you want to see them again yourself? Aren't you… 'strong'?"
"I'm tired…" Her eyes held nothing while speaking this. She wasn't afraid of leaving the world at all.
"You're stronger than I'll ever be. I really admire you… for being able to make a life for yourself."
"That's nothing. I just stopped fighting against the flow and instead floated on the river of choices."
"But you still rebelled…?"
"In the past, everything was small steps to a wider vision. Now, I've already achieved all I wanted to do. Unlike you, who still has regrets." She seemed to see through my act and everything of my past.
"You're strong… but I can't be like you."
"Then don't. Just be yourself from this point on." It felt like I had gotten her permission to run wild.
"It's your turn now." She continued.
It was at that point my vision came back. I was sitting on a seat meant for the Palace Matriarch.
In front of me were documents that I somehow understand at a glance. This was not just basic knowledge, but I even understood the implications of political situations inside and out the palace.
It made me sigh…
She was a strong woman, but I was unable to deal with the darkness she always dealt with in her head. The anarchic feelings of wanting to destroy the world and bitterness added with my feelings.
This was added to how I'd come here without having a choice. It made me want to 'die' with her.
I started to rest to regain my strength…
