5 Weird attitude

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 "Here, drink!"  Ryo handed me an opened soda can.  Spontaneously I looked up towards his standing position.

 "Thanks."  I grabbed the drink, along with Ryo who threw his ass on the same sofa as me and leaned his back.

 I slightly shifted my sitting position even though the sofa was long enough for two people to sit on, but I just felt awkward.  Apparently, so did he.

 There was only me and Ryo in this studio, while the others were in the living room.  Maybe taking a break for coffee and a smoke.  I'd rather stay in here studying the songs Ryo made, besides that I really don't like cigarette smoke.  Without realizing it, Ryo was still in this room.

 "How is it? Isn't it comfortable here?"  he asked breaking the momentary silence between us.

 "Huh? Eh, that's… yes, it's convenient."  I stuttered a little, then immediately neutralized it.  "Hem, so far no problem. It's cool."

 "Good," he replied, his lips curled up slightly.  Am I not seeing it wrong?  Ryo smile at me?  It turns out that the refrigerator can smile too.

 "If anyone wants to be asked or wants to give input, just say so. Don't hesitate."  Ryo spoke again.  His tone of voice was completely different from usual.  If yesterday it was flat and tended to be bitchy, now it's even softer.

 "Yes," I answered simply.

 How come I die like this in front of him.  Besides, what's the wind when Ryo's attitude suddenly changes to be sweeter towards me.  Did he get hit by the wall, or maybe he regretted being a little mean to a girl as beautiful as me.  A little narcissism is okay.

 "Sorry, yes. Yesterday my attitude might make you uncomfortable."  I, who was watching the sheet of paper containing the lyrics of the song, immediately turned to look at him.

 "You're fine, right?"  I asked somewhat surprised.

 "It means?"  Ryo asked back, the look on his face was no less surprised.

 "Yeah... that's just weird. Suddenly you're being nice to me. You're not sick anymore, right?"  I put my palm to his forehead while putting on a worried face.

 Ryo was a little surprised.  "Tsk, it's wrong, it's wrong, it's wrong. You girl!"  he babbled as he got up from the couch, picked up an acoustic guitar, then went out to mingle with the others on the terrace.

 I burst out laughing at the sight of his expression.  Her face suddenly turned red, either because of embarrassment or what I don't know.  However, I could see he was smiling as he passed me earlier.

 Since then, our relationship has thawed more.  He often invites me to talk, whether it's discussing songs or just small talk.  Turns out he wasn't as annoying as I thought he was, in fact, it was a lot of fun.  Although his curt attitude sometimes relapses.  Maybe it's innate.

 I can talk a lot with Ryo.  His insight is quite broad and I feel we are on the same frequency.  More importantly he is a good listener.  Not just listening, but he really listened when I spoke.  Not while doing other things, let alone busy with gadgets.

 I feel very appreciated because of that and gradually a sense of comfort emerges.  Very different from Bang Reno.  I can't get all that from him.

You don't need anything extravagant or extravagant to appreciate other people.  Sometimes a person just needs to be heard to make him feel that he is there.

 I don't know how many times I looked at the clock on the wall.  It's past midnight and Bang Reno hasn't come home yet.  Many times I changed the television channel to divert the anxiety in my heart.  However, in vain, my thoughts were on Bang Reno.  Where is he currently?

 I've tried calling the repair shop, but he's not there.  According to his employee, Bang Reno had left the workshop since this afternoon.  I tried calling the number but it's not working.  The row of messages I sent also only ticked one.

 All the bad thoughts crammed into my head.  Afraid that something bad would happen to him.  There was a feeling of anger mixed with worry in his chest.  Actually, I'm not that surprised by a situation like this because it's not the first time that Bang Reno has come home late at night and hasn't given any news.  However, as a wife I can't just stay calm while the husband is somewhere else.  It feels like being indifferent, but still feeling of despondency predominates.  Besides, I'm alone at home.

 I went into the bedroom, lay down weak body and chose to sleep.  Maybe Bang Reno will be home soon.  Usually it's like that, he arrives home while I'm already asleep.

 I tried to close my eyes, but still failed.  I'm still awake.  Though these eyes already feel heavy.  Instead, in order to sleep, I grabbed my phone, opened the blue social media app and scrolled down the timeline.

 Then, stop at the status of one of the accounts that caught my attention.  Ryo is still online, you can see a green dot on his profile photo.

 'Love you in silence.'

 I started typing something in the comments.

 [If you love, tell me!]

 [What if someone already has it?] Ryo replied.

 [Try it!] I replied with a sticking-tongue emoticon.

 Suddenly there was an inbox from Ryo.  I immediately switched to messenger.

 [Not sleeping at this hour?]

 [Can not sleep.  Waiting for people.]

 [Who?]

 [Husband.]

 [Ooh… where are you?]

 [Do not know.  No news.]

 [Poor thing.]

 [Ish, that sucks.  You haven't slept yet?]

 [Waiting for someone who can't sleep.]

 [Who?]

 [Here, the one chatting with me.]

 I replied with a laughing emoticon.  I unconsciously laughed to myself reading the message from Ryo.  Instantly my heart felt warm, the anxiety that had previously reigned slowly evaporated.  I don't know why he always makes me feel better.

 Then we were engrossed in small talk, making me forget a little about Bang Reno's worries.  The clock didn't feel like it was two o'clock in the morning.  The drowsiness is getting worse.  It was like there was a heavy weight hanging over my eyes until I finally closed my eyes and drifted off into a dream.  Without having time to reply to messages from Ryo.

The sound of the dawn call to prayer reverberated me awake.  My reflex looked to the side looking for the figure of Bang Reno, the man I had been waiting for all night for his arrival.  However, there was no one but me on this king size bed.  I went to the bathroom to clean myself and perform ablution.  When the heart is in doubt, the best place to complain and complain is only to the Creator.

After the last greeting, I raised my hand while reciting the prayers.  Asking forgiveness for all my sins and grateful for everything I have.  Don't forget to wish the best for the people I care about, including Bang Reno.  I never get bored I always ask for goodness in my household to the Almighty

 Without realizing it, warm tears rolled from my eyelids.  I can't hold it anymore.  My tears broke, my shoulders shook, I poured out all the tightness in my chest on the prayer rug.  Bang Reno, why love you this much?

 Continued