12 Chapter twelve

Kamaria's POV

I quickly went up stairs to get changed, I wore a two piece grey short and light sweater.

I took my phone and stared playing (first position of khelani) and I started cutting the onions and the rest.

James POV

Today was really stressful for me, with Kamaria and my dad, they were on my neck and it's so annoying. I'm still trying to understand the purpose of me still caring for her, it has been a long time since I did all this caring shit, and I'm not about to start it because I know where it will take me too, but I don't know, there's something about her that drags me towards her, she was a bitch to me from the very beginning and I know she is hiding something from me and I know it's something big, I always try to make conversation with her but at the end this topic she's avoiding always comes out and she'll get quiet or we'll start arguing, it's so funny because we don't really know each other, but she's something different.

When she came to class today, I was having a terrible headache from me and my father's conversation of this morning, me seeing her made it even worst, she apologises but it's always like that, we argue then she'll apologize, the point is that I can't know anything real about her now if I don't know anything about her past, it feels so incomplete, her today's apology was different, it was as if she really, really meant it. Seeing her with those teary eyes made me angry, I never want to see her cry ever again and I'll try to keep it that way even when she pushes me away.

After classes I headed to Jude's house to just chill a bit there.

Is it me or is Kamaria's best friend getting closer to him? because I know damn well Jude doesn't do this relationships stuff, I spoke to him about it and warned him, I don't want him to play that girl like that, she's too innocent to have a broken heart caused by my him, he then told me about her past with her ex boyfriend and how he saw her the first time and he really liked her, I believed him because I have never heard him talk so much about a girl like this before so I guess that with them it's going to be fine.

It was evening time and I was almost home. I'm really tired so I'll go straight to my bedroom, take a bath cook something and then go to bed.

I got home and I parked my car in the garage, went straight to the front door ready to head to my room but the music that was playing and Kamaria singing stopped me, I walked towards the kitchen and then I heard a nice aroma that got my stomach growling loud, I went further into the kitchen wanting to ask Kamaria what was she doing,but then I saw her on shorts and a crop sweater dancing and using a spatula as a microphone, I stood there bewildered, I never knew she could cook, I think I'll change my mind about going to my room, she was a pretty good entertainer so I leaned against the kitchen door frame and watched her, she had her back towards me, she was doing all sort of sexy moves and I was getting hard, she was so perfect, I could get use to it and I mean it.

After a while she turned around and screamed,

" James what is wrong with you? You scared the shit out of me!!" I laughed and walked closer,

" I'm sorry for scaring you but that was so wow!" i said in amusment,

" you sound like a creep right now", she turned the gas off and started preparing the dishes,

" I never thought you could cook, it smells so nice! And I'm hungry can I just take..." I wanted to have a taste of the spaghetti she was cooking but before I could do that she smacked my hand away,

" boy! Get out of here and go take a shower, you're not allowed to touch anything here so leave!" She said pointing her finger towards the kitchen door,

" c'mon just a..." i tried again,

"Boy get your ass out of here!" she said,

I groaned and left the kitchen quickly walking to my bedroom.

Kamaria's POV

Omg! I'm so embarrassed, he was watching me and I the stupid one didn't even notice or hear the front door close.

I prepared the dishes and arranged the table for the two of us and I sat there waiting for him to come down stares.

James POV

I was done taking a shower and I got dressed up with only sweatpants, I walked into the kitchen and saw Kamaria on her phone typing away,

"Why haven't you eaten?" I said frowning,

She was about to answer me but she stopped and stared at my face then my body looking at me up and down,

"Like what you see?" I said smirking,

" what? Me ppphhfff no I'm good, very fine, wait I need some water"I walked towards where she was and whispered in her ear,

" you didn't answer my question" i whispered,

She turned around and smiled and cleared her throat acting as if nothing just happened,

" I was waiting for you, I cooked this for you specifically not for me" she said smiling,

I walked back to the table,

"Why this in the first place?" I sat down ready to devour the meal,

" just eat before it'll get cold!" She said waiting for me to taste the food, I think she was more anxious about me eating her food than the reason for this dinner.

I took a bit and I think I was in a trans because Kamaria had a weird facial expression, I chewed and closed my eyes, it was so delicious,

" so how is it?" She asked nervously,

"Mmmmh" I was enjoying the food and I couldn't speak so I gestured to tell her saying it was exquisite,

" Really? You like it?" I finish to chew and answered her,

" hell yeah! it is wonderfully made this is now my favorite food, what's the name?" i asked,

" it's called spaghetti alla carbonara" she said laughing,

" it's so good!"

"I'm happy you like it!" She said then started eating her food too.

We were done eating and she started washing the dishes and I stood beside her helping her on drying the dishes, I sometimes caught Kamaria staring at my abs, I smiled,

"Can you tell me now what was all this dinner about?" I said drying the last plate, she turned towards me and I stared at her waiting for her to explain,

" emm so...." she said anxious and it's not helping me either, the way she's acting means that there's something bad she wants to tell me,

" it's a way of apologizing for my behaviour towards you, since I came here it's always me making you angry or annoyed," she said,

"Kamaria!?" i said wanting to reassure her that it was fine,

" it's not my fault, I'm trying to be more open towards people but it's really hard for me," she said sounding as if she was about to cry,

"Kamaria wait just..." i said,

" I know you always study or do other things and i feel like I'm disturbing you. I'm sorry, I'm a burden to you I know so and I though about it very well it's my choice so....." she was talking so fast and she looked like she was about to have a panic attack, I stared at her lips and the her eyes, I tried to speak but she keeps interrupting me, I don't know what she's trying to say or why but I just ignored it and kissed her, since the first time I kissed her I always longed to kiss those lips, every time she talks I stare at those lips, It took everything in me not to kiss her since then but now I couldn't hold myself, I was already hard because of her and now this.

I kissed her slow, she responded to my kiss and wrapped her hands around my neck and kept pulling at my hair trying to bring me closer, I held her waist tight,I raised her from the ground and she wrapped her legs around my waist,

we were fighting for dominance, I squeezed her ass and she moaned and she opened her mouth, our tongue moved in sync,

I pushed her to the the wall beside me and I started grinding on her, I know she could feel my friend down there because she gasped and she kept on moaning and kissed me deeper, I bit her lower lip and pulled at it, I love the way she's on my arms, we kissed till we needed air. I didn't stop there I wanted her more than anything right now, I started trailing kisses from her ear lobe to her neck sucking hard on it to leave my mark, I cupped her left breast squeezing it, she was not wearing a bra, I teased her hard nipple,

"James" she moaned and that even turned me on more, I don't know how but we ended up in the living room, we fell on the cough and I was on top of her, I kept grinding on her core,

" mmmh James" I sat up and made her sit on my laps, I was squeezing her ass, she started grinding on me and I groaned, my voice became huskier and deep,

"Fuck baby" our foreheads were now touching, I held her waist as she kept grinding on me, I stared at her in the eyes then she kissed me and bit my lips,

" I need to tell you something James" I sucked on her neck again,

" ok" i said,

" I'm going home" I stopped on my track and I raised my head staring at her with confusion,

" what?" I stared at those eyes filled with lust and then at her swollen lips, I don't want her to leave now,

" why are you leaving? do you feel uncomfortable with me being around you or is it because of what we just did?" i asked confused and a bit hurt,

"No James, this is what I was trying to tell you before" she whispered,

" that's the real reason you made dinner right?" i asked irritated with her now,

" not just that James I told you before, I feel like I'm a burden" I held her face and kissed her,

" I never told you you were a burden Kamaria, I want you to stay, If you are running out of clothes we'll go to the mall and I'll buy anything you need, I want your company, I'm not letting you go now." I want her to be mine.