1 1st Day Part 1

I step on the bus look around, spot a free place and sit down. >> Well this was an interesting day<< I think to myself. I put in my headphones put on some music and look through the bus window.

BIP BIP, I hear the alarm go off. I get up still tired since I couldn't sleep last night. How could I? I was so nervous. I decide to head downstairs. As you d expect I almost died on the way down. With my dangerous journey completed I sit down and try to make myself some breakfast. I open the milk

>> Ahhh fresh milk<<I think trying to cheer myself up. But since I am a clunky idiot I pour the milk first witch, as well as being impractical, it is basically sacrilege in if you do it you'll go to hell. And of course when I put in the cereal I spill everything.

>>Idiot<< I think to myself. And because I m a horrible human being I leave the mess for my mother to clean later. When I m done with what should have been breakfast I make the a bit less tricky journey back upstairs. I put in my contacts. And now the hardest part. I step in front of my closet. That dark dark cold place. When I open it and look around I confirm my suspicions. I don t have any clothes.

>>Well fuck my life what did I expect<< I think giving up on looking good that day. I just put on a hoody that covers up as much as possible. Not that I m fat or anything like that I m just an insecure little bitch. I go back to the bathroom and brush my teeth. I know exciting stuff. And then comes another hard moment. MY HAIR. Let s not get into this too much because I could rant all day. Suffice to say I tried and failed. Look whatever I do I just look horrible I don t know if it s my complete inability to style hair or am I just ugly. At the end of the whole ordeal it was all for nothing. To be honest before I started I kinda liked my whole e-boy cute look but I think I just made it worse now. I looked at myself again and sighed:

>> Whatever<< And messed up my hair to have it look like before. That gave me a bit more self-confidence if you can call it that. Now that I've spent a bit too long for a boy on my hair it s time to get to the bus. I again go down. I know I m a fucking hiker at this point go to the dressing room. I put on my average looking but comfortable sneakers and my black jacket. It isn t what d you call a leather jacket that d make me all cool and everything. I think it was made of something that resembled plastic. Cheap shit basically. I m not fancy as you ve probably noticed. And now the moment of truth I look at myself in the mirror we have in our dressing room. I take in a deep breath and say quietly:>>And so it begins<<

I step outside and am instantly hit in the face with a sharp cold wind. It s still dark witch makes the whole thing more unexpected.

>>Great just what I needed<<I think smiling at my own negativity.

If I am totally honest I kinda enjoy this in a sick way. It allows me not to take life and myself to seriously. Is that healthy? Does it matter? We'll all die because of ww3 or some pandemic anyway. So who cares.

Done thinking about my mental health I have time to be nervous. Well, I probably should be. I m going to a completely new school for fucks sake. You know what makes the whole school even better? It s a bloody Christian school. The only reason my stupid ass decided to enroll in It was that it had ancient Greek and Latin the only one in my country. You know I m something of a history nerd. I know a very attractive quality. I m fun at parties trust me.

You wanna hear a joke? You know the Greeks invented orgies but the Romans added woman. I know I m hilarious.

Putting my talents aside I continued my walk to the bus stop. I was deep in thought when a slightly familiar voice snapped me out of it.

>>OMG is this Adam!! Hey dude<<I hear from a boy my age I didn't instantly recognize.

When I came closer it took me a bit but I realized it was my now ex-classmate Alex. Well his actual name was Aleksander but we all called him Alex. Looking back I never hung out much with him. It s not that I didn't like him it was just that we were in different groups of friends.

>>Oh hey Alex<< I returned the greeting taking his hand witch was odd since I didn't remember him doing any bro handshakes. The feeling that I got the instant we touched should have been a red flag before but I guess I just blocked it out. His hand was warm and kinda strong. I looked into his eyes. I realized they were deep blue the kind of eyes you could get lost in. He also had short well-styled brown hair all together he had a very nice face he just looked kind and fun. He was also a bit taller than me which made me look up at him.

I noticed I was staring at him and slightly blushed.

He smiled :>> long time no see right?<<

>>Quite how was your summer<< I said trying to distract from my awkwardness.

>> It was alright boring at some times tho<< He said.

>>How was yours? Did you do anything noteworthy or was it like mine?<< He asked looking at me.

>>If you must know I was mentally preparing for suicide you see I decided to enroll in Vicery<<

>>VICERY!!?<< He asked excitedly.

>>Yea I didn't t know you were such a fan of self-harm<< I said trying to continue my suicide themed attitude.

>>It s not that you asshole.<<He smiled.

>>We re going to the same school dude<<He said still smiling.

That made me very excited. I was going to have a friend someone I knew from before even if not that well. At the same time I did feel slight anxiety but I pushed it down.

I was very late because of my whole hair adventure so it wasn t ten seconds when the bus arrived.

>>That was close<< I said to Alex.

>>Yes I see you re a risk taker<<he replied jokingly.

>>Oh that s nothing remember in school where I d come in class a second before the teachger<<I said while entering the bus which was a lot warmer than the outside.

>>I bet you get some kind of sick thrill out of it<< Said Alex sitting on the bus next to me.

>>Oh I do I m a sick person<< I said prolonging the sarcastic exchange.

Alex laughed:>> I knew it! Don t worry tho I m not much better we re both going to this ironically godforsaken school. Right?<<

>> I can t believe I forgot to ask what class are you in?<< I said with hidden hope in my eyes. I don t know why but I really wanted him to be in the same one as me. If he was we could sit together and become good friends. That makes sense right?

>>1st B. You?<<

>>Dude I m in the same one!!<<I almost screamed.

>>That s great.<< He said genuinely meaning it.

We continued talking about the past times and our feeling about the future in the school. Something that stuck out to me was that our knees were touching the whole ride. I know that sounds like nothing but I feel like it meant something since when the road got bumpy and his knee moved he d move it back very subtly. I guess I just remembered it because it made me feel so warm inside

We arrived at the school. And before we went in Alex said:

>> And so it begins<<

What made me almost have a heart attack.

>>Dude is that from Lord of the Rings?!<< I asked.

>>I see you re a fellow dork<< Alex said getting off the bus with me by his side.

>>DORK!?<< I said slightly pushing him playfully.

>> I am no dork for your information I m just a highly cultured individual unlike some people<< I said acting all high and mighty for the sake of the joke.

>>Adam you re hilarious<< Said Alex turned and entered the school.

I was left alone in front of the huge new school and had a quick moment for myself. I took a deep breath in looking at the sky entertaining the idea of asking God for good luck. But I scratched that and entered the school. And for the second time that day I said to myself>> Now it really begins<<