Obsessed

OBSESSION

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P.E.R.K.S. /MVM COPYRIGHT. Cover photo by owner

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My mama said that dad had two families, and she didn't know that but just happen to pass by a wedding one time, and even asked to sing with a choir, that happened in a small church at our town. Mama added that dad had two identities, one, a handsome fellow who is a playboy that clicks with any girl he talks to or dates with like he has this power, magnet for attractive and young gals. Then, another side of my dad, was someone who sells ice cream and simple, shy and reserved, why he got married to a woman who already had three kids or so mom says! I don't know what mama felt when he saw dad with other women but I guess she was sad for a while but none of it mattered when she made herself busy taking care of me. I swore not to marry or have babies, ever. Yet mama never said anything about dad in a bad way, she still wanted me to see him or spend time with him to get to know him, maybe like a father and daughter bond which is great and I couldn't ask for anything than to be with him even for a little while. Mama was all that I want and she always makes sure that I eat and be well at home, in school and even now that I reached adulthood.

 Mom found her true love and that is her books, a person who accepts her for who she is and her job at a local city company which pays decent salary. Grandfather and grandmother are all too well yet they have been aging so fast I want to grow old fast too so I can help mom and take care of myself so she won't worry about me.

 Dad was maybe obsessed of the idea that mom won't change and she would always love him no matter what and vice versa. But growing up I realized that we all have obsessions and desires that we want to meet and when we expect too much we always get disappointed. So I don't expect anymore and maybe all of us have a someone we want to call as our own, our pet, friend, best friend, buddy or just someone we are fascinated about, or something! It's bad enough that we call a person our slave, puppy or kitty or whatever? But it is more evil when we don't stop on craving for more such as getting richer though we are already filthy rich, getting surgeries to enhance or cut out some body parts that are overly excessive like fats or saggy breasts or neck, buying shoes or stuff we already have a lot of or obsessing to hook up with our best friend's boyfriend or her brother or maybe her sister, hi hi! I am hopeless! But if you are like this and feel this then I am not wrong, so maybe you are hopeless or just too obsessive, like me but I am just into music and drawings so not really, or any other person reading this. 

 How about you? What's your story? You and I aren't the same and though maybe we have similar taste in food, movie, bag, dress, boyfriend or girlfriend, job or likes and dislikes in life, we can never separate the fact that we too obsess on something, or someone. I bet you have and you don't even disclose it to anyone not even your mother or friend or family? Right? Hi, hi!

 I am Ericka by the way and growing up with only my working mom and grandparents made me who I am now, careful, observant, quiet but strong and intelligent. I am sweet and all but I think I am closer to my guy friends than girls. I grew up with markers and Goth doodles, drawings of anime characters, My best friend Sarah and I are buddies for the rest of our elementary days, I hope for life but I guess we all change. I needed to study in a far off university and she needed to stay in our local college which is old but still provides good curriculums for students why she preferred to go there than outside of the village. Though I love her so much I wanted to venture to somewhere I can experience things far more than just our city which is more of a country than a suburban town. Yet, our mountains, trees, fields and fresh air are what still brings me back home over and over again so I won't exchange living in our village than in a smoky but digitalized city called Digi-0001. Mom was assigned at a company a few blocks away from my university so I get to visit her there. I never wanted to go to a girl's dormitory but it's better that way since I can walk to school and save fare for food and lodging expenses. By the way it's year 8000 and if there are cities that are still preserved like their forests and the wild my beloved town in the country Belvedere is one of them and I love it so much I really missed it when I left for college. Cities that preserved their rainforests and animal reserves kept the same town names so as to be distinguished as Green Reservoir. Reservoirs are cities that remained clean, green, non-toxic and metal free lands. Unlike the Digi cities that lost their greens and trees, they were able to plant artificial trees and cloned every little vegetation and meat so as to avoid lack of these essentials for future consumptions. There are cities that has surpassed vegetation age and now living on Artificial Intelligence, that trees, plants and animals are cloned, most likely than not humans too whom we call Humanoids. Climates can now be controlled and manipulated to protect and maintain balance in cities and countries that need sun, rain or snow. 

 Ahhhh…you silly boy, you?, you like me don't you?.., I overheard when I wasn't actually trying to listen to a woman's remark when a guy tried to peep through her breasts while escorting her to his car, so I hurriedly walked towards the Digibus station to wait under the capsule like shed made out of metal and glass for the scheduled ride to my dorm. Her chakra is a strong bright green that her aura is in a luminous form then suddenly loosened her long and slimy tongue to lick the man (though it's just a luminous vibe that can't be seen or touched by the naked eye) it was so lusty I covered my eyes, went on my way walking faster than usual then placed my ear pods to listen to my favorite rock band to take off the crazy, dirty thoughts away. I don't see every digital chakra of people just those obsessive ones that couldn't control their lust, urges or desires for another human.