102 You Were My World

The rain was coming down in sheets, making it nearly impossible to see more than a few feet in front of her. But she didn't care. She somehow caught up to him because she knew she had to make things right.

She dragged her feet through the ground as she approached him. She looked like a mess with her wet hair plastered to her face, but she didn't care about that either. All that mattered was begging him for his forgiveness.

She let out a sob as she stretched her arms and hugged him from behind, "Please…" She gasped, her voice raw with emotion, "Please, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you like that…I never wanted you to know about it. Not until you were able to stand on your own feet…"

Lucas continued to stand still with his back turned towards her, "Why…Why did you do it…" He asked in a broken tone, his teary eyes lifelessly gazing towards the horizon. He wanted to know how someone he loved so much and who he thought loved him as well would betray his heart like this.

Nadia's lips uncontrollably quivered upon hearing his words, and she said feebly, "B-Because I…I wanted to protect you. I wanted to shield you from harm and any danger till you could get strong. Yiman was going to kill you if I…I didn't agree to become his wife. I would never be able to live with myself if something happened to you."

"You weren't fucking Yiman in that place…were you?" He asked, his tone growing colder.

Nadia's eyes trembled as she said, "Jiang blackmailed me into doing dirty things…again I did to protect you from him…This kingdom is filled with these filthy, dangerous people who would take advantage of those weaker than them. I can endure anything as long as I get to keep you safe from them…I promise you…It was never my intention to break your heart, nor did I ever want this. Our circumstances forced us into this."

Lucas clenched his fists so hard till he cut his own skin. He never realized she had done all this for him. But his anger wasn't satiated at all, "If you truly loved me, why would you hide all this from me? I asked you every day if everything was alright for you…But all this time, you were making me a fool, weren't you?"

Nadia sobbed even more as she shook her head, "No…I didn't want you to get hurt. I knew you would react like this, and I was scared…scared that you would hate me and never forgive me for what I did. Please…I love you more than anything."

Lucas closed his eyes shut as he remembered the scene where she was begging those villains for their dicks. This only made him feel repulsed by her words, "If you truly love me as you say, then come with me now...Let's leave this goddamned kingdom. Even if they come after us, we will just keep running since what matters is us being there for each other."

Nadia blinked her eyes as her expression became taut. She felt conflicted and worried as she said with a deep breath, "Lucas, no…You know that we won't even last a few days till they find and kill us. I can't let you get killed. I don't want your life to end like that. Just…trust me that I will use bastards like Yiman and Jiang to gain power and help you. I will understand if you hate me, but please…do not leave my side, at least not until I help you become strong enough."

"Hahaha…hahahaha…" Lucas suddenly began to laugh like a maniac that, made Nadia feel unsettled, wondering why he was laughing like this, "L-Lucas, stop…please…you are making me worry," She had never seen such a side of him, and he was making her heart tense up.

With a dark expression, he pushed away her hands, making her gasp. He then slowly turned around and looked at him with cold eyes, "Even after all this, you are still thick-skinned to tell me that you will continue being a whore to all the men in this kingdom?"

Nadia's eyes widened, feeling as if she couldn't recognize whom she was looking at. The Lucas she knew would never speak to her like this, "Lucas, don't speak like this, please. I am not saying this for my sake, but I am saying this for you. Please forgive me for not telling the truth before. I will never hide anything from you from now on."

"Forgive you?" He spat out, "That's the last thing I would do after seeing how gaining more power is more important to you than coming with me, even if it means we are going to die. All people eventually die. It doesn't matter to me as long as I get to die without losing my dignity and honor. But you…You can't even do that for me, can you? You care more about yourself and power. You always loved power. That is why you became a matriarch in the first place. You loved to be in a high position and look down at everything from above. You never loved me for real…did you?"

Nadia flinched at the anger in his voice, tears streaming down her face, "No…don't say that. You are misunderstanding me. I love you more than anything—"

"Stop it, you bitch!" Lucas lashed out as he slapped her, making her fall to her knees with a shocked expression. She looked so shaken she placed her palm on her face, though instead of feeling angry, all she felt was pain and sadness.

"How can you keep lying and lying to my face again and again? Anybody can say they love someone else with words but proving it is another matter which you miserably failed at," He cynically scoffed and went on, "I was a fool to fall in love with you. I loved you more than just as my mother…You were my world, Nadia, but now…you have broken it…you have broken me. You have hurt me in a way that I will never be the same. Now go and rot for all I care. I don't want to see your face anymore," Lucas said in a low, cold voice as he slowly turned around and walked away, leaving her alone in the rain to face the heartbreak she had caused.

"Lucas no…" Nadia let out a choked cry of despair as she stretched her arms to grab onto him. But her legs gave away as she fell on the ground, the rain mixing with her tears as she continued to mumble his name.