1 The Irregular Time Skip

After the feeling of pull on my consciousness was gone, I panicked. The hell I can't see? I felt I was submerged in the water too, I tried to fling my limbs, but I can't. The fuck is this!?

For a very long time, I almost got insane, but just almost. I realized that I just reincarnated earlier, this thing made me embarrassed, if other reincarnators will see me. I will be surely criticized by them.

Sigh, I know it's my fault, but, if other average person was in my shoes too. He will surely do what I did.

Well, whatever. I'm sure my consciousness will be put into sleep mode for many months like the other novels said, so I waited.

Waited...

Waited...

Another waited...

In this passed eight months in my mother's womb. The loneliness was so overbearing that any minute and just a slight push, of course it's just a metamorphic phrase. I will be insane! I didn't lost my consciousness! I was fucking awake all this time!

I was irritated at this, novels can't really be trusted, sometimes.

But in the good side, I was happy that I realized my lost emotions from my past life were back again. Mentally, I was crying for whole month.

Who's person wants to feel what I felt in that life? I... I was confused, want to escape reality, ignore all the things, tried to enter some relationships but all were failed, because simply, I was a jerk, and because another simply, I can't feel what should I feel in those moments.

I was down for my whole life. Conscious of my body, my mind, and my soul. There's no rest day for my mind, for not to think to end my life with my own hands. Affecting my body outside, which more added to the fuel of being lazy, and my soul... Slowly crumbling to dusts, there's no redemption at my sake. Hope? Fuck that shit! Faith? I'll be damn!

Even though there are some friends and people who are concerned at me in that life. I'm mad at myself! I can't even feel anything at all! Fuck! I'm fucking acting all my life! In front of them, that I feel them feeling what I'm doing too, that made them slowly walking away from me, from my life. I can't do anything.

I can't even remember what I did to lose those emotions in the first place. I have my own sin, I'm admitting it but everyone does, but what I did wasn't enough to cost me that too much. I didn't even took a life from any living things... But why it was like that?...

I want to use violence, but it's not that I'm a coward to create trouble, but still they are troublesome. I have my rationality not to cause troubles at other people. Even if I want to burst out sometimes, I really can't.

Until I reached the point of thinking how to make those close people at me to lost their attentions at me. Like how to kill my presence and not to remember me anymore, forever. To the point of which I was too much passive or lazy in that life too. I was like that.

But now? I feel complete again! I tried everything to remember my whole past life, and I can feel those emotions again! I feel great which made me cried for whole month, or as I mentally calculated. Well, whatever. I'm just happy that I got them again. Nothing else matters at this time.

And still... Irritated at myself for being awake, not physically but mentally. I didn't fucking lost my consciousness to time skip!

Of course, in this whole eight months. Even though I'm thinking for how I'm dark at my past life, mentally. I still have my rationality now so, I tried everything according to the novels for how to meditate and cultivate the said 'pure energy'~ or whatever fucking it is.

And... I did! I felt the energy, but it's not warm, but not that cold too at the same time, lukewarm? Nah~ No, it's not. Can't explain this shitty feeling.

I guided the said energy at my supposed to be 'meridians' and guess what happened?

Drumrolls! *Drumroll

I felt my consciousness was hit by a fucking cargo truck in the speed of sports car!

Shit! I cursed myself for not thinking the possibility that it might hurt my mother in this life time. It might have a negative or irreversible effect at her. We are still linked by the umbilical cord, for goodness sake!

So, in this eight months, my emotions are like in a roller coaster. I put my crazy mind to think some crazy imaginations and tried to be Albert Einstein next door.

There are some success and failures but since I didn't sleep in these past months, I think I got some improvement at my ability to think, judge, analyze or just add the fucking every words that related to faster thinking and accurately.

So, this failures was covered by me and didn't affect my mother this time. I can feel her emotions, somehow can feel how she thinks, but not to the point of mind reading. Just feeling it. How to scan her body status, if she feel uncomfortable, feeling happy, feeling down. Just... Add those things you might thought in this part.

So, in short. Awesome isn't!? I still fucking explained everything, in a jumble way. So, I was saying again, in short... The energy I was feeling was called by me, tada~ 'Mana', of course, I'm in the fucking World of Mana. What do you expect? And that energy was guided by me to my brain for where it should be in the first place. C'mon, Mana, Mentally, Mind, Brain, Magic... Get it?

I feel the energy that supposed to be inexplicable in the first place, was turned into cool sensation. Not that cold that will make me freeze to death or affect my mother. Just simply cool sensation, improved greatly my abilities related to mind.

And add for me, being crazy, more than in my past life. I guided again the cool sensation to run through my blood to pass-by my whole body and internal organs.

That's where I feel my body and lately noticed, my mother's body turned hot too. Yeah, that's right folks, because of the umbilical cord. The energy ran away through it and pass-by the whole body of my mother and turned her into a horny wife, since I can feel what she thinks and knows a bit for how her body wants, or fucking whatever it is, I got the gist what's the effect at my mother.

I was irritated, I'm cursing at my father every time I need to cultivate my body, and because of the weird after effect of this weird cultivation technique.

I deeply cursed at my father, that the moment I feels something entering in the wrong hole which where I am. I will bite the shit out of him, in the very first moment I was born... Wait, did you just thought... My fucking goodness! You guys are all weird shits! I'm a fucking man! And will always be! Even if my body, this body turned into girl!

Thankfully, I think he felt the dreadful curses of mine and only entered the other one. I'm still irritated because, the fuck!? I can't sleep! I know I can't sleep in the first place, but still it's so fucking disturbing!

No Pain, No Gain.

No Pain, No Gain.

That's what I chanted every time I feel the mother's body rocked at the weird tempo.

Argggg! Who fucking isn't insane man can ignore them? Can someone above hear me pleading!?

Time skip please!

Just fucking one more month, just one more month, and I'll be free! And they can do for whenever they want to be rabbits. In the right place, of course.

And, nothing can hear me, of cours-... Wait, I think my mother felt my uncomfortable feelings and I can hear her loud voice from the outside of her belly... She turned from the sheep into wolf! In what place again? Hahaha, in their own fucking bed!

Haha! Yah, go ge'im mother!

Father, I'm sorry if I cockblocked you now, your baby is a reincarnator. But don't worry that's only the downside of having one, and please endure for more one month, please?... Then I evilly smiled at my mind.

My both mothers are still the best creatures no matter what or when in my lifetime it is... Hahaha!

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"Hahaha! He's so fucking funny, oldie! Hahaha!" The young girl laughed to her hearts, no, stomachs content. She can't breath and her stomach muscles are contracting for laughing that hard and so long.

"C'mon, girl. You can't point faults at him, he was a virgin in his past life."

"That's what makes him so cute and funnier, oldie! Hahaha! Goddammit! Hahaha! Oldie!!! Hahaha! I can't! Hahaha! Stop laughing! Hahaha!" The young girl laughed so hard again after calming her tits.

The young man just shakes his head, but still amused. "But still, old man... Can we do something at his mind? He is just like a... What do you call them again in his past life era?"

"... Streamer?" The young girl answered him after breathing in and out to calm again.

"Yeah, just like them. It affected him too much after suppressing those thoughts. He thinks there's nothing wrong with him, but he still didn't realize it yet..." The young man was concerned, because he knew too what happened in the 'Past'.

"Don't worry, I added something to prevent him from losing his mind anymore than his past life. But still, it's up to him to find it to realize this great illness of him... This will be another test for him..." The old man mumbles softly with restraining his concerns as this is beneficial for the kid too.

The both young girl and man didn't replied anymore and patted the old man's both shoulders at each side.

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Yuhuu! The fucking last month was skipped and I am ready to be born!... Again!

Woooh! It's fucking torture to be inside of my mother's womb... Well, it's really not torture but, with a father like that... So, faithful at his wife that can't even think of getting an affair after my mother, which didn't let him to do it in this whole month. Sooo~ He was a bit pushy, and irritating. Father wants to do it with mother even though I already this big. My goodness!

I don't even know whether to laugh or cry... Laugh to his misfortune or cry... cry at myself for me to decide or not, if I really chose a right family... Having a faithful husband and wife at each other, which is my parents too... Are pain in the ass. Knowing for what I experienced in this whole nine months? Ahhhhhh~ Sigh. But still I'm glad that my father is a one-woman-man. I can't deny that, he got my approve and respect.

Of course, even if I wished to be in a happy family, it's bound to have some mishap. That's called 'Life' folks~ There's no such a perfect life, no matter how happy the family is.

If it's a perfectly perfect life for me? Well, welcome to world of dreams, and that will be the very moment that... I was fucked up.

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(AN: "Metamorphic phrase" Is this right? Fuck I can't find the right word and confused too...)

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