8 Sorry, no chapters for a few days.

I'm sorry folks.

This is not a chapter. Just your poor little author here, ranting about his sad little life.

I just got dumped, because I talked rudely to her ex. I had her IG account on my phone, which was for me to respond to the messages and tell her about them, since for some personal reasons, she couldn't do so.

TBH, I knew and did tell her that it is a bad idea, because it involves her privacy and I won't be able to stop myself from being too curious. To which her reply was, "I give you that right to my privacy". Right at that moment, I had the suspicions, "This relationship is soon gonna be done for." And it happened. Just as I thought. It ended for the very same reason. That's why I suggest, don't dive too deep into anyone's private life or past, you might not like the outcome.

Her Ex messaged on her account. I didn't know it was him.

When he messaged using some unknown account, I was frustrated because he simply won't answer to "Who are you?".

I had to guess his identity from his speech pattern. Which he denied and I took it as it's not him. I went through the conversation with him for over an hour, ofcourse after telling him that it's not her he's talking to.

I even asked that "If not your name, then atleast tell me what I should tell her about why 'someone' messaged her." And again no reply.

All of this was happening after going through just after a whole work-day (14 hours), when I was trying to relax and write the previous chapter. My frustration was over the roof.

Today, I found her messages, scolding me for talking so rudely to 'her first love'. Telling me that she will never forget him even after marrying someone. Scolding me about how much I've ruined her image in his eyes (ofcourse I didn't, I already told him that it was me who talked to him, not her. Doesn't matter, does it?). Telling me to never even try to talk to him or her again. Telling me that if I dared to message her again, she'll block me.

She never really moved on. I was just an emergency lifeboat for her sunken relationship, soon to be left behind.

I told her about my side of explanation, because I didn't want it to stay with me. 'If we're ending things I'm returning all of what's related to her' that was my intention.

I told her that she never really loved me. She never moved on. I was only a timepass to her. She still cares about that guy so much that she didn't even care that her words would hurt me, whom she used to call 'her half-fiancee'.

I also told her that it's nothing new to me. Each time I let my feelings drive, they come back beaten up badly. I am almost used to it.

I loved her, and probably still do, my chest feels awfully cold right now. The more I think about it, the more this feeling grows.

So after last few messages,

"I want to block you myself, but I can't"

"I love you. I wish I didn't, but I do."

I waited for a few minutes to collect myself and make a decision for myself.

"I'm blocking you."

And blocked her.

Does it hurt? I don't know.

My chest still keeps feeling cold, the way it used to be before this relationship began. Pain, there's none of it. I know I'm hurt, but I don't feel the pain I should. It's like, "Yeah, I got cut, so what?"

Maybe my friends were right. I'm indeed 'Simar' (An heartless or stone hearted person). My dreams just shattered and here I am, back to the way I was without even being able to shed a single tear.

I know it's all my personal problems, sorry for laying it on you guys, but I needed to get this out.

I am really sorry guys.

But I'm in no condition to create a chapter right now.