8 I'm always by your side
At that moment, I acted by saving my daughter who suddenly fainted. That's when I started cursing myself for my stupidity.
"Rithya, stay with me child, police officers, take us to the hospital now" I shouted to the two officers.
They quickly took us to the hospital
"My dear, please stay with me, father will treat you, please stay by your father's side" I tried to be strong with my condition now.
I'm criticizing the system too, it's impossible because it only gives me wishes.
The only one to blame is me, why did I brag that I was a proper father to my daughter.
I was naive, really naive. I regret it, I want to kill myself, I want to go back in time to fix all this.
I prayed to all the gods in the world to give me time to accept this.
The two officers calmed me down and they were willing to stay with me in the emergency room. I thank them. they did help me with something I needed at this crucial time. they deserve a place in my heart.
A good friend is always there when it is most crucial, even if we didn't know each other yesterday.
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When we arrived at the hospital, I went to the front desk and didn't forget to thank the two officers.
Fortunately, all the hospital staff acted quickly, immediately saving my daughter.
I took care of all my daughter's administration, I didn't need to think about the cost. I just wanted my daughter to survive, that's all that mattered.
I was scared, I was trembling, I tried to be as calm as possible not to faint and so on.
I waited and waited, minute to minute, hour to hour. the doctor came out of the operating room, I approached the doctor and asked
"how doctor, please save my daughter"
"I'm truly sorry sir, we tried our best to prolong her life, but the disease that your daughter carries is beyond our ability to cure her" he sighed and looked at me with a sad gaze
"If you want to say goodbye for the last time, please do so immediately. And once again we apologize for your daughter's condition"
I was in despair, why did fate give me this. I was confused, I was devastated.
The doctor and nurse took me to the room where my daughter was.
I saw my daughter there, dying. I tried to stay strong in front of my daughter.
words cannot explain what my daughter is going through, not even the blasphemy I deserve for my daughter's calamity.
She was in critical condition, I went to her side, and I held her hand and stroked her head.
I blame myself every second, I'm a disappointing father, I'm an unsuitable father.
I wish to erase my daughter's current condition. I can definitely control my ego.
Wake up dear, please wake up, your father wants to apologize to you.
I keep praying for her to wake up, wake up.
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"Daddy"
That little voice made me happy, I cried and welcomed her with warmth.
"yes dear, daddy is here, daddy is here, daddy is here." I stroked his hand and was happy with her current condition.
"father, forgive rithya, rithya makes Daddy sad, rithya makes Daddy suffer, rithya is not suitable to be a father's child" she cried, she regretted it.
"no my dear, it's my fault. dad didn't watch you, dad is to blame here" I wipe her tears with my hand
"Dad is not wrong, Rithya happy to be with dad, Rithya happy to spend time with dad. Rithya .." she cried
"Rithya afraid, rithya afraid that daddy leave rithya. like other rithya family. rithya afraid daddy hate rithya. rithya afraid daddy will be sad when rithya go" she cried and clutched my hand tightly.
"daddy is here dear, daddy is always by your side rithya, daddy is always by your side. daddy promised to be by your side" I cried and continued to stroke my hand into her little hand
I was touched by her words. I continued to stroke her little hand to calm myself down
"Dad...Thank you for your time with me, I love you" her little voice began to fade and the sound that made me unsteady began to sound.
"no rithya, don't leave me here, please rithya, daddy loves you. please come back. please stay with me" I cried and begged but all that sounded was the sound of her heartbeat which did not beat at all.
I cried regretfully because my love was not conveyed in her final moments.
The health worker began to remove all the health aids attached to my daughter. I was just sad to see my daughter there motionless and voiceless with her laughter.
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My daughter's funeral was only attended by a few people. and the two officers who accompanied me at the park also attended the funeral.
They sympathized with me, then they left me alone.
"Rithya, daddy is here, daddy is lonely without you, daddy is guilty of you. forgive daddy, forgive daddy, forgive daddy. .... forgive daddy" I apologized over my daughter's grave until I sat in front of my daughter's gravestone. putting my head on the gravestone I kept apologizing.
I remained sad about my daughter's death until I returned to my apartment, many of my neighbors asked where my daughter was.
I told them what happened today. They condoled with me and tried to comfort me. I refused their offer and told them, I need time alone now.
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I'm depressed, I'm stressed, the world is empty without her here. I can't sleep for the past four days. The nightmare of my daughter's fall terrified me.
I feel regret that I never had. I want to die to join her.
[Your wish has been granted. Double barrel shotgun placed on the table]
It's now or never.
