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My Truest Identity

"You're God's beloved!" That's how Princess's mom used to remind her. But how could she believe it nor accept the fact that she's beloved by God if one day she woke up her beloved mommy was already lying on the floor with her blood and was killed by her atheist dad? Will she hold on to those words? Or will she harbor hatred for God? Well, that horrific situation turned her to live a life far different from what she desired. A life without knowing God. It's a story of a lady, a prodigal daughter of God who struggled to find her truest identity by battling over all the dark forces dwelling inside of her.

Godsbeloved1012 · Teen
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I’m here

The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.

-Zephaniah 3:17

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Having not found the savior she was looking for,

her foot led her in the park.

From afar, she oversaw the street children she once encountered and had played with. They were sitting on the green ground forming a half-moon under the shade of tall trees while happily listening to Acqua and Sangue who were teaching them how to play the guitar. Then a girl suddenly said,

" Can we rest for a while? My fingers are already painful."

Acqua: Sure Sweetheart.

Boy: Mss. Aqua and Sangue can you sing a song for us? Please.

Sangue: Alright! What song do you like?

Girl: Can you please sing ' Blessings' by Laura Story. I often heard my elder sister sang that song. It's very meaningful.

Acqua: Yeah, it's a wonderful song.

Then Sangue started to strum the guitar beautifully.

Sangue: We pray for blessings

We pray for peace

Acqua: Comfort for family, protection while we sleep

Together: We pray for healing, for prosperity

Sangue: We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering

Acqua: All the while, You hear each spoken need

Sangue: Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Together: Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops

What if Your healing comes through tears

What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near

What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

The angelic soft voices of the twin captivated the heart of Princess and even the children were awed at them. For they were like angels.

Sangue: We pray for wisdom

Your voice to hear

Acqua: We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near

Together: We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love

As if every promise from Your Word is not enough

All the while, You hear each desperate plea

Sangue: And long that we'd have faith to believe

This time she found herself as the person in the song who got angry because she didn't feel His presence. A lady who continuously doubted God's goodness and love.

As the song goes on, big drops of tears were now racing down her cheeks. She felt so guilty that continuously bitted her chest. Then she started to run away from them but the more she ran farther the louder their voices became.

Together: When friends betray us

When darkness seems to win

We know that pain reminds this heart

That this is not our home

But what caused her heart to ache was the last stanza of the song that repeatedly echoed in her heart and mind and became the last song syndrome for her.

Acqua: What if my greatest disappointments

Or the aching of this life

Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy

What if trials of this life

The rain, the storms, the hardest nights

Are your mercies in disguise?

The song was already finished but it still re-echoing in her. With bended knees, she cried out.

" JESUS! WHERE ARE YOU? Please, show yourself to me."

From here back a soft familiar voice responded.

" I'm here."

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A/N: For those who wish to hear how the twin sang the song,

then you may check this https://youtu.be/A3vZ_fTy1eM.

God bless you all!😇🙏