51 How do you feel?

"Huh? Why?" 

"It's okay. Just promise me." 

"Well, I won't tell him." Yuu nodded after hearing his words and made a promise that she wouldn't tell her male friend what she did when she rejected him. 

While Mizuto sighed in relief, he felt that a woman was such a cruel being since they could do something so wicked without even thinking that they had done one.

Yet, this was the price of love, right?

It was like when one was doing a business. If they were successful, they would gain immense wealth, but if they failed, they would lose their money or even become homeless. 

Love was like that. If one was successful, they would gain happiness, but if they lost it, then they would be in pain. 

Was this the reason why he never fell in love?

Probably not. 

He knew that he was kind of egoistic and selfish since he only thought about himself, and it was impossible for him to give his entire heart to someone. 

Moreover, in his case, love was like a passive income. He didn't need to do anything, and the love kept coming.

"But thank you. If it isn't because of you, then I might not be able to say that, Mizuto." 

"It's okay, Yuu. You don't need to worry about this." 

"But... you really haven't fallen in love with someone?"

"That's probably the case." 

"Really? You haven't been?"

"I have dated, but I guess I haven't fallen in love." 

"You have dated, yet you don't fall in love with the girls?" Yuu was dumbfounded and asked, "Then, why did you date them?" Frankly, she wouldn't feel surprised if Mizuto had dated so many women, but after he had dated so many, why had he never felt anything? 

Moreover, why did he decide to date them?

Mizuto hesitated since he was afraid to scare this pure girl, who had such a cute expectation of love. 

Still, what was this misunderstanding where he dated many girls?

He only dated once, though it can't be denied that he had many ambiguous relationships that led to deeper exchanges.

"Tell me, Mizuto, or do you think that I am someone who will change my opinion of you because you tell me your problem?" 

"...is this a payback?" 

Yuu laughed, hearing his answer. 

Mizuto sighed and said, "Lust." 

"...." 

Watching Yuu dumbfounded expression, he said calmly, "It's because I feel lust that I date them." 

"L-Lust?" 

"I want to have sex with them." Mizuto's voice was plain. "That's why I date them." 

"....." 

"Sorry, I guess this is a bit too much for you." 

"No, no! I won't judge you! But... weren't you just using them?" Yuu asked with a frown. 

"Yuu..." Mizuto looked at Yuu calmly even if she clearly showed her discomfort, yet this was a normal reaction when they heard about such an experience, right? Nevertheless, he asked, "Do you think that it is only a guy who is a pervert? Isn't the shoujo manga that you usually read quite raunchy? Don't you ever imagine that you are being kissed, held, then have sex with a guy?" 

"Th-that's..."

Yuu couldn't give an argument, nor did she deny it since she knew that Mizuto was correct. While the shoujo manga might appear all fluffy, she knew that many scenes were quite raunchy that the sex scene was even shown. She also couldn't deny that she had thought of having sex with someone she loved, and it was also because he was correct that she couldn't say anything. 

Moreover, Yuu couldn't deny that she could imagine that the girls would give him their most precious things as they felt lust toward him. 

"That's why I don't want to say this." 

"...so I am the only one you have told this to?" 

"I guess..." He nodded. "You are the only one." 

"..." 

Yuu fell in silence as she stared at him, but—

"But you also imagined a pervy thing, huh, Yuu?" 

Watching his mischievous smile, Yuu blushed and became panicked. "I... I..." 

"Then..." His voice was slightly hoarse as he looked at her. "Do you want to try it?" 

Yuu widened her eyes as her breathing grew rapid. She knew that she might have noticed it before, but she pretended that she didn't see it. The middle school was different from how he was in high school. He grew, and he became a man. Though it felt so strange that she didn't hate his advances, and she even teased him. "So... you feel a lust toward me, huh? Your friend?" 

"Is it strange?" 

"...no, it's just unexpected. I just never thought that we would have this type of conversation between us." 

"Me too." 

"Then, why?" 

"Probably, after I saw you troubled and told me about your trouble. When you rejected him before, I somehow had an urge to kiss you." 

"Pervert!" Yuu blushed as she admonished him

"I know." Mizuto sighed and apologized. "Sorry, I feel that this is weird. I should go home." However, Yuu held his hand tightly.

"Yuu?" 

"I..." Yuu gulped, then said, "While sex is impossible, how about a kiss?" Hearing his chuckle, she became angry. "Why did you laugh?!" 

"No, I just didn't expect you to be such a pervert, too, Yuu." 

"Go back, then!" Yuu grew angry and looked away annoyedly.

"Sorry, sorry." He moved closer as if he was about to kiss her. "I will take the offer." 

Her breathing grew rapid as he heart beat so fast. While she wasn't sure how she appeared right now, she was sure that her face was as red as a tomato as she was unable to look away from him. She could see that he was moving closer and closer and was about to kiss her lips. 

"A-Are we really going to do this?" 

"If you don't want to, please push me." 

He moved slowly as if waiting for her decision. 

Yet, hearing his answer, she grew resentful since it felt like she was the one who wished to kiss him. Even though he was the one who initiated all of this, biting her lower lip, hesitating, she let out a helpless sigh, then closed her eyes, letting him do whatever he wished with her. 

Hot and lewd.

Those were her thoughts when they kissed for the first time. 

Unlike the fluffy and light feelings she imagined, it was more intense, burning her entire body in a fire. She felt her body become so hot that it was unbearable, yet at the same time, she didn't hate this feeling, especially when she could feel his strong arms tightly wrapped around her small waist, gently as if he was afraid to break her, yet also forcefully as if he wouldn't let her go. 

"How is it?" 

"I-I don't know." Yuu became annoyed when he asked her opinion, but she couldn't escape from his grasp and could only look away from him as she could tell that he was smiling when he asked her opinion

"You don't feel anything?" 

"I-It feels weird..." 

"Weird?"

"I-I just don't know!" 

"Hmm..."

"Wh-What is it?" Yuu grew nervous, wondering whether he felt their kiss was weird. 

"No, it's just your lips are delicious, Yuu." 

"...."

Yuu probably wouldn't forget this face of his for her entire life. 

His smile was just so animalistic, like something that could never be seen in a human, yet even if she knew how dangerous he was, she couldn't grow to hate him, so when he approached her again, she let him kiss her lips again. 

Hot, hot, hot! 

You knew that he was dangerous, something that shouldn't be touched, yet she grew closer to him, letting him slowly taste her lips, tongue, and body before taking the initiative to cling onto his neck intimately. 

---

"Yuu, I heard that Mizuto is here?" 

Suddenly, the door opened, and Rei Koito, Yuu's older sister, saw Mizuto and Yuu inside, sitting side by side. 

"Nee-chan, how many times have I told you to knock on the door before you enter?" Yuu let out a helpless sigh. 

"Geez, you are so unlovable." Rei shook her head at Yuu, then looked at Mizuto with a smile. "Why didn't you tell me when you came?" 

"I just came to take my books, Rei-nee." Mizuto then stood up and said, "But I will go back now." 

"Huh? Aren't you going to stay for dinner?" 

"I promise to go back early." 

"So, how is it? Your family? Is it okay?" 

"They are okay." As he talked with Rei, Mizuto turned to Yuu and said, "Yuu, I will go back first." 

"Um." 

As they left and closed the door, Yuu sighed in relief, but then, she could feel her heartbeat still moving so fast before she felt slightly uncomfortable as she realized her panties were wet.