POOR ME!

Just after I left his home, I went straight to my home. I rang the doorbell twice but no one came to open the door. I sighed. I rang the doorbell once again, but still, no one.

"Argh ! Today is obviously not my day. " I said as I sat on the floor hopelessly. "Mike! Come on. " I shouted. Then, the door opened.

"Oh! Sis. I didn't know it was you. " He said checking to ensure no one else was there. "You came alone, right?" He asked gazing straight into my eyes, hoping for a positive response.

"Who cares? Get lost! " I shouted at him as I took my handbag, stood up and went inside.

I went to my room and cried over my pillow. What was I to do? My pillow was all what I had and what I could trust. It had been the fourth time I suffered from heartbreak. Guys showed me hell. I wasn't pretty but guys crumpled on me. I planned not to trust love any longer. I had enough of 'i love you' and I didn't wanna fall for that anymore.

The first guy dated was Joel. It was back then in High school. Every of my friends back then, had boyfriends which made me jealous. I had the urge to have one. It fell into the period Joel asked me out. I couldn't say 'no', I accepted.

After a month of dating, unknowingly to me, he was planning to travel overseas to complete his education. He broke up with me, saying that he couldn't manage a long-distance relationship. "Fine", was all what I could say. I cried out my eyes.

Not much longer, I dated Nicexcel. He was someone I could describe as 'perfect'. But, I guess he wasn't. We had crushes on each other and dated. He broke up with me, the words he said that day was what I can never forget.

"Maybe, we aren't meant to be. Lately, I started developing feelings for another girl and I think we should break up. I'm sorry for wasting your time. I hope we meet in the nearest future". He said with no emotions shown.

Was he reciting a poem? I loved him.

The third guy deflowered me, but cheated on me. I broke up with him — not him this time.

The fourth was Jerry. He broke up with me for being deflowered.

Hopeless me!

I was still on my bed crying, then I heard a 'bang!' Sound on my door. "Come in. " I said wiping away my tears.

"Sis, when you were coming home, did you notice any suspicious man?" Mike asked looking troubled.

"What's the matter? Did anyone threaten you again?" I tried to talk.

"No. I borrowed some money from the bank. But, due to some financial issues, I couldn't pay. They've been disturbin' me with unnecessary calls." He said as he sat on the bed.

"What! Again. Get out of my room, infact, get out of this house. You idiot! Nitwit! Out!" I shouted fuming with anger.

"I didn't ask you to pay for me, it's just that..." He said but was cut off by me.

"Shut up and get out. " I shouted again breathing heavily.

My boyfriend broke up with me. Now, another Boomerang! My brother had always been a source of pain to me. Debts over debts! It led to my mum's death. I had to pay for all his debts with my money.

Why was my life like that? Who was my soulmate? Who loved me? That was something I couldn't answer.

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