Chapter 2

Chapter 2

It's been a few days since I woke up and 5 days left before I go back to the academy.

Now that I think about it, before I completely lost my consciousness or died. I finally know who are those people that are keep calling my name and running towards me.

'So, it's them. My father and brothers. On that time I didn't recognized their voice.'

'Maybe, they already found out the truth and come to take me.'

"Haha, they found it out too late. And they came too late."

I really wanted to be with someone at the moment of my death. That's why I was able smile for the last time.

Knowing that a miserable person like me, who thought who died alone. You should've chosen a better person to have this second chance.

Or did you bring me back from dead because you are giving me a chance to change my past? So that I wouldn't die miserably like before?

'Thank you for the giving me a chance, but I'm sorry, this chances only makes me feel miserable.'

It didn't matter what your motive was.

I was going to live now, and I was going to die at 18 years old exactly on my birthday and my mother's death anniversary. Those two things wouldn't change.

I opened my eyes and saw candles and light bulbs, lighting up the room. This made me once again realize that I traveled back in time.

'Why didn't just you bring me back the time when my mom's still alive?'

I had a lot of questions that I want to ask to the God, but I didn't even receive a single answer from him.

"Well, just one time…"

'Let's keep living for now until the day I die.'

***

Nevermind. I canceled my plan. I was, in fact, too lazy after thinking about it.

'What a nuisance.'

After that day, I resolved to get out of bed and try to live a better life in my own way, but everywhere I went, I got unnecessary attention and whispering, and also some worried looks.

'Why are there so many people here? It's crazy.'

"Ah, that's enough. I'm sorry, God or who ever you are."

I laid down on the grass behind the wall of grass that full of roses. Then, I heard footsteps with rustling noises around me. However, I didn't want to open my eyes.

'Let's just pretend to be asleep.'

But the person near me didn't seem to have noticed me sleeping, judging from the rustling noise.

'Alright, you won.' I struggled to get up.

I crawled on my knees and stand up, pushed the bushes of the grass of wall with my hands, and poked my head out. I saw a man there.

His back looks familiar.

He was swinging a sword, his dark blue ponytail hair and his white T-shirt that got wet from his sweat that made his skin and muscle look visible. There was only one thought that came to mind when I saw him.

'I forgot that this guy always practicing his swordsmanship on this area everyday.'

I didn't want to get intertwined with annoying people, so I just quietly moved to another place and released my tangled hair that was in the roses…

But I can't remove my hair.

Sigh.

There was nothing I could do.

"Excuse me…"

The man stopped after hearing my shaky voice and looked around. Soon after, he tilted his head and swung his sword again. Apparently, he hadn't noticed me yet.

'How did he become a knight? he didn't even sensed my presence, what if I was an enemy and took his life.'

"Hey…"

Once again, when I spoke, the man stopped swinging his sword. He was looking around with his fierce eyes, then slowly approached the wall of grass that where I was at.

'Oh my God, it feels like we're characters from the novel where we first encounter! hahaha.'

I said jokingly in my mind.

I had no choice but to look carefully at the man approaching me. Finally, the man who came this way found me.

'Haha, I know it's weird, you don't need to have such an expression.'

"Help me. My hair is stuck."

The man looked at me with wary eyes.

I opened my eyes wide as I realized who that face belonged to.

I put on my big reading glasses properly and cleared my throat.

The man turned around and laughed at me. I couldn't berate him because I knew who this man was.

He was the captain of my father's knights.

'Kav, Kalif, Ba… what's his name again…'

"Excuse me, Lord Kalif?"

"It's Kevin."

Kalif… no, Kevin gave me a dumbfounded look. But what was he going to do?

"Oh, yes, Lord Kevin. Please help me. My hair is tangled and I can't get it out."

Kevin came one step closer. He looked so elegant with his hair tied like a ponytail that I couldn't believe he was the one who laughed like that earlier.

"I'd be happy to help you, Princess Sabrina Zoe Del Emerald."

'Really, you don't have to say my full name. Seriously.'

Kevin didn't say anything while he helped me, and I didn't have anything to say, so I didn't say anything either.

I felt sleepy because it took longer than I thought, and my eyelids slowly went down.

***

Kevin looked at the woman dozing off while leaning at the wall of grass.

Sabrina Zoe Del Emerald, the duke's daughter, was 17 years old this year. She was famous for her bad personality. It's strange because the duke, young masters, and late duchess were all well known for being gentle…

'What a shame, she's the prettiest and elegant woman in the empire when she take off her glasses. But her attitude sucks.'

The princess did a lot of bad things.

There would have been no problem if she secretly acted behind the scenes, but the problem was that she started hurting the people after she got sick before.

[A/n: He didn't know that Sabrina was poisoned and just desperate to find the culprit.]

Adding to that, she picked on her brother's lover, Cassandra. If they got married, Zira's position as successor would be stronger.

It was a childish kind of bullying, but the people of the duchy weren't so stupid that they didn't even notice it. It would be too trivial to say anything, and Cassandra said she didn't want to do anything about it, so she kept her mouth shut.

'I also took a blind eye because Cassandra wants to and because I love her.'

But the emperor found out and imprisoned Sabrina for 2 months.

Kevin glanced at Sabrina's face. But she seemed different now, her way of talking and aura was unlike before now that she lost her memories.

Before, she would yell every single people she would meet in the castle. But now, she seems so cold and pass the the servants as if like a wind.

But how could a person change just because of that?

[A/n: They still misunderstood that she lost her memories.]

Still, even though he had such thoughts, he should respect the duke's daughter, so helping her would be better.

***

"It's done."

I opened my eyes due to the man's voice.

"Ah, thank you."

Kevin smiled. I fixed my eyes on Kevin and thought about what happened before.

When I became 16 years old in winter last year, Kevin fell in love with princess Cassandra. He saved Cassandra, who was deceived by me and had been waiting for a long time for my older brother, Zira, in the snow.

'I did it, because I don't want her to die…'

Therefore, this man had already fall in love with Cassandra.

'This person doesn't know that someone wants to kill Cassandra, and I did it to save her. Well, only the doctor knows the truth.'

Though it was clear that Kevin, the duke's exclusive knight, had a reputation to keep as a knight, so he was the one who put me inside the jail.

'Still, thanks to that I learned a lot during my stay in the jail.'

And for that, I'll make sure he would come to my funeral. Quality over quantity, right?

'Sabrina, are you satisfied?'

I laughed on my own dark joke.

As a thanks, should I make him my friend?

"Excuse me, Lord Kevin."

"Yes, princess?"

"Will you be my friend?"

However, there was a fatal loophole in the plan. Unfortunately, I forgot for a moment that I didn't have that much experience in socializing.

In my previous life, I always had to run into my room as soon as school ended to avoid my brothers, and go to the balcony during the social gathering. I didn't have many friends, because I always got betrayed.

The poor me, who couldn't make friends at the school because of my reputation and the bullies.

I really didn't have any personal relationships except for my 2 childhood friends and the professors. I had no choice but to learn how to date and treat people through books I had read. And so I acted according to that.

'Be my friend! Yes! That kind of feeling…'

"I'm sorry, but I can't."

But again, a book is only a book. As expected, I couldn't learn about the world from books alone.

No wonder I'll die in the future.

I was heartbroken to see Kevin rejecting resolutely but politely.

'Then, there's nothing I can do about it.'

"Oh well, I can't help that."

"You don't want to ask me why?"

Kevin looked at me. But I had already given up, since it was a virtue to give up quickly. Frankly, it was annoying to ask why.

'It is of course I feel embarrassed, and I just realized it right now. Asking you to be my friend even though I know that you hate me, was embarrassing.'

"Yes."

I said so and stood up properly. I went my way without looking back.

The place I went to was the guard abandon tower. While heading to the place, each servant I encountered bowed their heads nervously. I nodded slightly because I was too lazy to react. As I stared blankly at the tower, I remembered my brothers words about my friends.

"You can't meet with them with a dirty reputation. Don't you feel sorry for them? Your going to ruined their life because you are their friend!"

"I'm sorry, brother…"

"Yes, if you want us to call you our sister, do as we ask, okay? Otherwise, we won't help you if you need our help."

"Yes, brother…"

I still used the title 'brother' when I thought of them, even though they abandoned me as soon as I asked them their help.

The stupid idea I had earlier made me laugh.

'Ah, as expected, I need to rest.'

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[A/n: Anyway, This is actually my first time writing English novel. And PLEASE support me by recommending this novel to your friends.]