Chapter 464

Majority would expect that I would be babbling apologies from outside the tent, but I would prefer to tell him that face to face, and also be able to guage his expression while doing so, it would let me know if he is lying to me or not. I am sure he did this purposely, because he knows that if he does not answer I will not rest untill I talk to him and this may also include barging into the tent and invading in his privacy like I actually dis earlier. I kept trying my best to suppress any thoughts that would make me want to go into the tent without an express invitation from him,

 But after a while of calling out his name constantly with no response, I shut down all my senses of reasoning and decided to walk in. I may regret it after what happened earlier, but I refused to let him shut me out and keep me in a constant state of agitation while he is at peace inside. While I was entering inside, I placed my hand over my eyes, I kept calling out for him but there was no response, it was not until I twisted my ankle due to the fact that I was walking with my eyes closed that I removed my hand,

I immediately sat on the ground and began to massage the leg while twisting it in different directions, to understand where hurt majorly. I also pressed down on it to ensure that it was only sprained and not twisted, I was assured when I noticed that it was not broken. The pain was also bearable the only issues is that I would not be able to put my entire weight on it and may have to hop on the other leg,

It was then that I actually remembered the reason why I came into the tent. I looked around only to find that he had slept off. I could not believe my eyes at first and thought that he was pretending, so he would catch me unaware if I came close to him but despite all these thoughts, I walked till I got to him. I squatted beside him and began to poke him, I began from his arm and when he did not flinch or respond, I move to his cheeks, but still no response from him,

That was when I knew that he was not pretending but was truly asleep. I have always felt that we are at our most vulnerable when we are asleep, we do not know what is going on and we can be easily ambushed. He must have been tired extremely for him to doze off knowing I am just outside the tent. I could have easily ran away or I would have decided to kill or inflict as much pain as he has done to me, But I could not do any, it was as if I was rooted to the ground