1 Ch. 1

Have you ever been out shined by anyone before? I have. Multiple times by my little brother. He was even loved more by our parents. Especially my father. He loved him more. Praised him more. Talked about him more to anyone who would lend an ear.

"What about young Chris? How's he fairing in school?"

He took a small galnce at me, then turned away. "B's. What can I expect from a beta like him."

The words he spoke crushed me. And the small laughter from that woman twisted my stomach inside. 'a beta like him'? He spoke of me like I was nothing but a pest to him. It hurts so much.

"Husband, it's noon." My mother said softly to his ear. "The children has studies and work is waiting." My father gently touched her hand and dismissed his family to leave the party.

I hated family parties. And I hate attending. Always the same. Why a beta son? "It's a shame. If only he was born an alpha."

Those were horrible memories.

♦

As I was getting ready for bed, mother entered my room. I turned away so she wouldn't see me.

"It's no use turning away, Chrisy. I could still see you." I cursed under my breath. Hoping she wouldn't hear me either.

She aprouched me and sat next to me. She gently put her arm around my shoulders and gave me a light hug.

"Chrisy, what's wrong? You haven't been yourself since the party. You can tell Mommy." I didn't wanted to tell her what I feel. But she always find a way to poke it out.

"Why?" I said.

"Why what, honey?"

"Why doesn't Daddy love me? I studied hard. I worked hard. I did whatever I could to pleased daddy. But why? Why doesn't Daddy love me??"

She hugged me tightly in her arms. I could hear her heart beat. So nice and warm. And her smell. So nice.

"Chrisy~ honey no. Your father loves you. He just has his own way showing it." Tears run down my face. I didn't believing her. "Have I ever told you how he acted when I was pregnant with you?" I looked up at her curiously. "He was excited. So excited that he wanted to dress you up like a businessman. Hehe I had to stop him from buying the suit. Heheh." I laughed a little and couldn't believe it at all. She wipped the tears from my face. "Every night when you were still in my belly, your father would tell me what he would like to do with you. He planned the future with you."

"What changed?" Asked said her. "Was it because I became a beta instead of an alpha?" She wouldn't tell me. But I could see it in her eyes. That made it clear to me. Father tolarated me. He just doesn't like the fact that I'm a beta.

I hugged mom really tight and kissed her goodnight. She did the same.

All night I keep thinking what I can do for father to see me as me. Not beta. I wanted father to be proud of me and talk about me. And of course, I wanted him to love me...but it never will be what I wanted. I kept being second best in all subjects and in life. Father still loved my little brother more and so does mom. Father praised him and proud of him more. Then I finally knew.

Father tolerates me. He just doesn't love me.

[Many years later]

"Chris, why are you doing this to yourself?"

"Butt out, James. It's my life and I can do whatever the hell I want to. God. You sound just like mom."

"Maybe it's because you keep bringing more Alphas to dinner. And not even one came twice."

"Ha! I'll say." I winked to gesture something dirty. James only rolled his eyes. "Ugh, why do you care so much about it anyway? What? Feeling uncomfortable that your big brother starts to dress up pretty?" I dramatically gasped. "Are you jealous?"

"Hardly." He replied coldly.

"Then butt out. And don't you have a business meeting with Dad and his colleagues? Oh! Wonder if he's bringing them to dinner tonight? Oh! What should I wear?" I went to my closet but James closed it in front of me.

"Look, Chris. I know your still upset about me taking over the family business and becoming the head of the family once dad retires, but I know your only doing this to make dad angry."

I sighed. "Your right." I looked at James with a serious face. "I am doing this to make him angry." I pushed him out of my way and headed out the door. "By the way, you can keep the family or whatever you fucking call it. The family is shit. And dad's the biggest of them all. Oh and I'm having fun. I like to see the look on his face when I get all lovey dovey with every alpha male out their. It's satisfying."

"All your going to end up in is in dad's bad side. Please, Christopher. Think about what your doing." James pleaded. But I never listen.

"I am. And I'm begging for a sex lover right now. Josh just texted me. He's taking me to the mall today. See you at dinner, Jamesy~"