120 Just Be Here

KIM

The picture that is appearing before my eyes are something that I really do not want to see. I do not want to see him so weak. There are tubes coming out of his arms and out of his chest. I know the meaning of each and every tube but I do not want to know it now.

I hold on tight to Nick's hand and I know that he is here for me. I feel my knees growing weak. My body is reacting to what I am seeing. The deep sorrow is filling my heart. Sadness is indescribable as I step closer to him.

I can see that he is struggling to breathe. I leave Nick's hand as I take a seat next to my dad. Then I put my hand in my dad's hand just staring at his face.

"Dad, can you hear me?"

"Hmm"

"You do not have to speak. Just rest and know that I am hereby your side"

I quickly look at Nick because panic is overtaking me. I need to look at my other pillar of strength because I know that the one I've trusted for almost my entire life, is now sinking away.