Mean Nothing

AMY

I just stare at the Captain for a while because my mind is going crazy. I wish I was one of those normal people that can just make a decision and not be unsure of my decision. I see his chest moving up and down and his perfect hair falling over his face. I can see the built of him through the covers and I remember how his hands were all over me.

I remember how it felt like I was the only person in the world for him at that moment. I remember those piercing green eyes looking at me with so much compassion. I just have heard so many things about him and when I told him about all the women he acted like he had no idea.

I do not know what to believe. I can either go and jump into this relationship that might not even be a relationship or I can make a clean break and I know, for sure, that my heart will not be broken. I close the door and walk back to my counter.