DONT KNOW A THING

I dont know what is wrong now i mean there is nothing wrong but i just feel like i was not being prepared for everything is going on and i just didnt realize what is happens around me i mean like i should known what is going on but its seems like i was getting blind of what everything is happening around me.

I mean so far we going now i feel like i always holding you up just call or sending you a messages in the wrong time and i feel bad about it because i shouldnt do that but even how bad i want to do that.

I never can predicted what is he is doing or where he was when i was called him and i just feel bad and i am regret because sometimes i called him in the wrong time which i really hoping that i didnt do that.

Because you there is almost always something which i didnt expected and i just cant take it when its already happened all the things that i can do is just suck it up and ready to regret everything and trying to forgot everything.

Well i mean i should get used to it by now but its just still needed a time i guess to manage and to really got used to this soon and i mean i dont really think about it for now because i ever said to him that i never force a things.