The Punishment

"Honey.... Are you ok?" Kitsoma asked as she looked over me with hesitation and slight fear. Hearing her voice was the thing that brought me back to the present, I was so lost in the back and forth in my mind that I didn't even sense her or hear her approach. I shook my head a little as I raised up and stood in front of her.

"No darling... I'm not ok. The weight of what I've done combined with my own self doubt and hatred is becoming a constant battle the last week or so. My head is filled with the idea that I'm not doing the best I can and today, well today proved that voice right... I could have done so many more things.... So many better choices were available but I was to stupid to think of them."