A hope

After yesterday's incident, I became vigilant and grateful as much as possible.

I don't want to get that punishment again, just once.

But I still can't get a job or an education.

What should I do? The whole world or rather the system of this society is money in motion.

I can't get any of the things I mentioned earlier.

I'm lost in this life, so I'd better find some refreshment.

I went to the park with my food.

Looking at the scenery and people, I honestly couldn't keep my eyes open.

Because I always see beautiful women here.

My young soul is itching to find a partner, to accompany my youth.

I'm afraid that the punishment from the system will be triggered and my history will be over.

I tried my hardest not to get aroused or glare here and there.

Sitting on a park bench by the pond, I watched the fish swimming beautifully.

I shared some of my food with them.

I just realized the plate prohibiting feeding the fish.

The park attendant advised me, I was self-conscious and apologized to him.

A mistake due to my negligence, how embarrassing.

I sat on a park bench accompanied by an old man.

"Young man how is life" the old man started talking to me, I was surprised and tried to be as polite as possible to him.

"So far so good, grandpa. But lately a lot of problems have caused excessive pressure in my life" I answered him honestly, he chuckled.

"It's okay, don't be too burdened. Young people like you should study more" he gave me advice, I nodded in respect.

"Thank you for your advice grandfather" gratitude is all I can give at the moment.

He went back to his family, I sat sighing and looking at the sky.

"I want to be free" I said that quietly.

[Polite to the Elderly: Good Karma]

(Gift: Formula of Youth)

What? The Formula of Youth? My brain came up with a formula and the ingredients needed for the Formula of Youth.

I got up and tried to buy all the ingredients.

After I got to the apartment, I realized that I wanted to make medicine. Not a food recipe.

My God, how stupid I was.

I couldn't have made an illegal drug without a procedure supervised by a health organization.

This is my bad luck.

I saved the ingredients for now.

I wrote down the formula in my notebook, in case anything happened to me.

I hid the formula behind my pillow.

Now what?

I've got a formula that everyone in the world will be looking for.

But it will be useless if I'm a nobody. And surely the greedy people up there will force or exploit my formula.

Am I chasing a name? A name that is recognized by the whole world as the creator of this medicine? That's an attractive offer, but it will make my life chaotic because of a human ego.

I should be a scientist, at least a scientist who lives in peace, not like those bullshit people over there. For science, sacrifices need to be made.

Bullshit.

I check the money I have now, it's certainly enough to feed me for 3 days.

My deadline is running out, I need to find a day job soon but where?

Begging? I want to but I doubt it.

Being a street musician? Oh my god, my voice is worse than an angry goose.

Cleaning car windows at red lights? I'm afraid some drivers will take offense.

I don't know what to do.