CHAPTER 18 (2)

Running towards my Layout Artist - 2.

“Let’s go then! I want to release this damn stress of mine because of that man. It’s on me, don’t worry about paying me.” Fortuna said and I laughed at her, “Come on we’re already done on our work now. We can just drop off being formal towards each other and just talk normally. Plus, we’re both college students right!? And we’re best friends! So don’t be too formal to me.” I said to her and I giggled.

We ended up going to Padis afterward and Fortuna decided to get some beer so that we can drink already. We decided to drink our beer and she looked so irritated., “Honestly, what’s that man problem anyways? He looked so cold! I simply hate his guts. That bastard, he’s getting off my nerves!” She started ranting about Mamoru and I hold my mouth and I can’t help but laugh at her. I relate to that. Because once, I hated Chang Heng too. And we got a similar situation. And we both fall in love with a type of guy that we can never reach too. So I understand why she’s being like that.

I held my cheeks and I shook my head and I started shouting out of the sudden. Hell no, I would never fall in love with that guy. As in never. How can I even fall for someone like that? I hated him. And I’m only attracted to fictional characters and anime characters. Manga and Anime are my life. And I’m just contented to fall in love with someone who’s inside the book or just fall in love with a fictional character. That’s why I don’t want to think about whatever I felt about Chang Heng. And that guy was definitely out of my reach. I know that we just had a deal and that’s why we have this contractual relationship. I know whatever I felt for him will not be the same for him. I shouldn’t be based on this kind of relationship that got will just last when the contractual relationship ended.

Plus, we just had a deal. And that’s it. That’s why I know my position here. That I shouldn’t expect any feelings for him. We didn’t have any label in a relationship anyway. I guess that’s the only thing that I have something in common with him right? That we’re simply using each other for being friends with benefits. Someone like him who was always surrounded by many girls can never fall in love with me. That’s why it’s better this way because when the moment comes that he will leave me I will be ready for it. I drank my beer and I smiled at her, “Come on, you know that he’s a deep person. For sure there’s a reason why Mamoru was like that.”

Now, Satsuki? What a great liar you are. You can heal and help others yet you can’t even help yourself. I just need to become strong. In the end, I wouldn’t know who will leave me again just like my father so I have to prepare myself for this. Something like love will surely break me into pieces. That’s why I never wanted to fall in love with someone. Because I know that I will be left alone and I’ll be crying all alone...

Anyways, I shouldn't be thinking about these things! I'm here with Fortuna to have fun. So I just have fun tonight and drink.

“Ha? Am I hearing this right? Aren’t you mad at him too? Waaaah, give back the old Satsuki Mariangela!”Fortuna shouted and I just shook my head at her, “Why do you hate him that much Fortuna? Come on, you can tell me.”

She decided to drink her beer again and she hissed, “Because he changed a lot! He used to take care of me when we were little kids. We used to be childhood friends in the daycare before. He used to be my childhood friend but when I applied to this publishing company as the Layout artist I didn’t expect that he’d change like that easily. He used to be a gentleman. He used to be a scaredy-cat before, but look at now!” Fortuna shouted and there was a worry in her eyes. I can see why the assistants ship her with him a lot. So they know each other back then.

I guess that’s why I was so close to her. We’re kinda similar in some ways honestly. Falling in love with our childhood friends who turned out to be a red flag and a type of guy who doesn’t put in any labels. Now, we’re in deep trouble. But wait for a second, that Mamoru? He was a crybaby and a scaredy-cat? I couldn’t imagine. He always looked so scary and cold. That he was always so mad at the world and he’s one of the sarcastic people that I know. I didn’t know that this is possible. I was simply surprised on Fortuna just said. But I wanna hear this out! For sure there’s something that I should know here. I crossed my arms at her and I smirked at her. “Tell me more! I’m interested in this.”I told her and I started hitting her slightly and I quickly shouted at it. She raised her eyebrows at me and she suddenly frowned at me, “Oh really? Or is it because you’re gonna use this to blackmail him?” She asked me and she smirks at me.

Oh, shoot! She got me there. Well, I just want that guy to decrease my all-nighter work you know. Is that a bad thing? I guess Fortuna is someone that I can relate with. And it was a great thing that I was able to talk with her like this. For some reason, I almost forgot that I just had a problem earlier.

I gulped a bit and Fortuna got closer to me and she laughed at me. Am I that too obvious? I never thought of that. Fortuna rolled her eyes and she smirked at me, “Don’t worry I feel the same! So if you wanna scare him with that I’m definitely up for it. I can’t believe that I used to be best friends with that jerk. But now, I can feel nothing but hate towards that guy. Didn’t you know that he used to hide in the nun’s skirt when we were little kids? Back then in the daycare, he looked so hilarious haha!” Fortuna shouted and she suddenly started hitting the table and she laughed. I held my mouth and I couldn’t stop laughing because of what she said.

Fortuna smirked at me and she gave me the picture of Mamoru who was hiding in the nun’s skirt and I burst out laughing as soon as she gave me that picture. Is this him? I can’t even imagine this one! That he looked so scared in the picture. Fortuna smirked and she got closer to me, “I bet if he saw this he will lessen your work. So name it. I can assure you that you’re gonna sleep early if you scare him with this.”

I held Fortuna’s hand and I smiled at her, “We’ll get along!” I shouted.

Other than Harumi and Oliver, I never thought that I’ll be able to do this. That I will be enjoying my team. I know that I’m just with them whenever we’re at work and especially when doing our outline and storyboard in my BL but I never thought that we’ll be this even closer. Plus I feel like Fortuna got the same vibe as mine so it will be easy to be friends with her.