16. The Pain

She brought me inside and I had dinner with them. Oliver barely took his eyes off me. Jessica was so nice to me and so caring over him. She made the food did the dishes she was perfect.

After dinner she said I should come again tomorrow. Which I did. I started spending more time with them which made me start to have feelings for him again which also made me feel like shit because she was amazing. She was as he said sweet smart funny beautiful.

I would come most days even when she wasn't there. Oliver stuck to his promise about not touching me. But it was just like we were when we were kids he would we would play games and talk. I learned all about everything that happened to him since I was gone. He told me he joined an LGBTQ support group at school and Jessica was in there too. She was bisexual. They started hanging out and her parents hated her liking girls so she wanted to be with a man. They were pushing her to be with a man and after they met Oliver they loved him and wanted him to be part of their family.

He told me about school and all the nice people he met. He told me he didn't really talk to his dad much until he told him about the wedding. Olivia was upset when he told her but she came around to the idea.

When the two of them started going to shops and designers for their wedding I started distancing myself from them because I didn't think I could watch him get married. Even though I wanted to be with him he was happy and planning on getting married. Our parents and Liv love Jessica and they wanted this wedding.

After they had been talking to the wedding planner Olivia texted me saying she was maid of honor. I hoped that meant I wouldn't have to be in the wedding. I was crazy to even think that was an option. I had been avoiding them after hearing they asked Olivia to be maid of honor. After about a week of avoiding  them he met me after one of my classes, this never happens because he has classes when I have classes, but he met me after class and said "Hunter" I was walking away from him but then he said "be my best man."

I started at him shaking my head no. I walked away from him as he followed. "What do you mean no?" I just kept walking tears starting to fall "Hunter! You can't do this. You can't tell me you want to be friends then just ignore me."

I turn around and he sees my tear streaked face. His arms come up but he fights it biting his lip "Hunter let me hold you. Please."

I am just sobbing so all I can do is nod my head. His arms instantly wrap around me. I cry into his chest as I feel him pick me up. I felt him put me down after walking for a few minutes "get in the truck." I just get into the truck and still cry. He starts driving then we stop and he gets out opening my door as I feel like he wants me to get out so I do. He picks me back up carrying me inside. I realize we are at his apartment.

He carries me to his couch and hugs me tight. "What's wrong ?"

"I can't be your best man." I say wiping the tears from my eyes.

"Why? Look you were the one who told me to stay with her." He grabbed my chin making me look into his eyes.

"Did you not want to be with her? Did you not want to marry her? If you dont wanna be with her then don't. Don't blame it on me." I say pulling away from him.

"You told me you wanted me to be happy. Hunter I'm in love with you and I always will be but you don't want to be with me so I need to be with someone else. She makes me happy and you said that's what you wanted. Be my best man. You are my best friend please."

I knew at that point I couldn't tell him how I felt. He was right all I wanted in life was for him to be happy and our family to be happy. I never told him what happened to me but I knew he wouldn't want me after I had sex with all those women. If I told him that he would hate me.

He asked me to marry him before I left his aunt's house he had a ring and everything. He kept the ring because he didn't want our parents to see it. I grabbed his hand and looked at his ring and it wasn't the same one he purposed to me with so I have no idea where he put it.

I love him and I knew he would hate me if he found out what I did. Therefore I just had to be a good friend now and be his best man.

"Fine. I will be your best man." He picked me up hugging me.

I missed feeling him between my legs like this. I missed having him hold me and tell me it was gonna be ok because it was always me and him. He couldn't do that anymore.

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