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When I woke up, I was in bed with Cera. She was completely knocked out and still covered in blood. I quickly reached for her stomach and didn't feel the hole that was there before.

I felt relieved and hugged her. She didn't protest and was limp.

If it wasn't for her steady breathing, I wouldn't have guessed that she was actually sleeping.

It felt like someone tore out a piece of my body when I saw her with a hole in her body. When I touched that hot, bloodied hole, I felt so much anger and sadness. So much hatred and love. A lot of conflicting emotions that didn't make sense. That was the first time I've seen her get hurt since the day I met her and she had cuts all over. I didn't like it. I really hated it.

Even now, I feel like I let her and myself down for allowing someone to hurt her like that. I know I've been hurt in the past, but is this how Cera felt when she saw me?

I held her body close to mine and cried in the dark.