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>>Rave

The things is, I was terrified.

The moment I was told to leave and never come back, my feet started taking me out on their own.

At first I had no idea where to go but when pain shot up in my stomach, I decided the hospital was the best place to turn to.

Not wanting to waste any money on a cab, I walked to the nearest hospital and that still took me about half an hour on foot.

I went to the reception and explained my problem and was told to wait with a ticket.

It was when I sat on a seat with several other people waiting for their turns did reality began to dawn on me.

My hate for the elite class rekindled and I was reminded once again why I hated it.

The time Jayce's parents belittled me came back while the fresh wound replayed in my memory.

I clutched onto the ticket tightly as tears began to roll down my cheeks. I didn't want to cause a scene and wanted to wipe my tears away when I noticed something.

There were many parents here in the OTP with their kids and somehow, I was the only one alone.

It was one of those moments where where I missed my mother that I never had...

I couldn't stop the tears and they kept rolling down my face.

In the moment of agony. I felt so alone and terrified, I wanted to leave everything and run away.

I took a deep breath in order to calm myself but my gaze would keep catching glimpses of families and my heart would just break again and again.

I was miserable.

I had no one to support me. No one to hold me and no one to tell me that it was going to be alright.

My mind wandered around and I thought about Calix.

Did he reach the apartment? Did he find out what happened?

It's been a lot of time since then, I looked at my phone, isn't he going to call me?

Is he not worried?

Maybe he's not. I mean, what can he do if his family is against me.

They didn't even consider that I might really be his fated pair. I'm something that can never be a part of them.

I gulped and licked my dry lips as I felt myself go weak became of the dehydration and I closed my eyes tightly to bring myself to calmness.

With nothing in view, I thought I'd be able to do it yet the only thing that persisted in my mind was the rejection and hate I received.

Fated pair my foot.

This is all my fault.

I went through worse humiliation this time and it was due to my own decisions.

I want to disappear so badly!!!

I sniffled and wiped my tears off my cheeks as I opened my eyes.

This was all so bad!! I had no idea what to do at the moment.

I have finals next week too... I can't afford to flunk them. I have to go to college!

Just then my ticket number was announced and I went to see the doctor.

She saw my injury and prescribed me some pain killers and told me it was nothing to worry about.

I thanked her and then left the hospital.

Right at the exit. I looked at my phone again and stayed still while I made a decision in my head.

There was a lot going on in my thoughts.

Like, why wasn't Calix calling?

Why did I had to go through such bad treatment?

Why was I left an orphan?

Why didn't I have a family? someone to rely on? someone to hug me and tell me it's all gonna be okay?

Tears began to stream down my face once again as painful memories, realities and feelings began to surface again.

Just what did I do wrong, that I have to suffer like this???

I stared at my phone screen through blurry visions but the screen remained black.