I love being with you
Jiang Ying
"I will be back," I say, looking back at my brother lying on the bed, he just gave me a little nod assuring me everything is fine.
I glanced at Kai and he looked at me with his lips curled up, his smile was beautiful, and the way the few strands fell over his forehead was gorgeous to witness, I always get lost seeing him.
'Snap out!' My brain reminded me, I shook my head trying to get rid of the thoughts walking out of the room, pulling the surgical cap and the white gown.
I took a deep breath looking around, and scanned for Grandpa, but he was gone and his handkerchief was still in my hands, I squeezed it in my palm and turned back to look at Kai.
"Please take care of him," I ask him, and he nods his head agreeing to me.
"Don't stress, everything will be fine, I have already spread the word to other hospitals, you don't have to worry about Jiang Ming, I am sure he will be alright" Kai was confident more than I was, and he always has been supportive, and helpful to me, if not for him, I don't think I would have been able to work in peace leaving my brother.
The money I got after selling the apartment left by our parents was being used for Jiang Ming's hospital bills and for the medicines and other expenses I had to work and make money.
There was no one who wanted to hire someone without experience and I did not have to spend gaining the experience doing the internships, so I did all the work I could from working in the coffee shop to being the designated driver.
I did everything to earn a share of money to keep paying the bills and Kai had always been there, helping me, and maybe that was the reason I started having feelings for him, but I know my place, he is not the one I can get, everyone around here loves, and there are so many women who have a crush on him.
"Thank you Kai" I replied gazing at him, and felt my phone vibrate reminding me about my next shift, I pressed my lips tight seeing my phone, and turned back to walk away but before I could leave, he pulled my hand stopping me.
"I know I should wait but I can't" Kai spoke walking close to me and taking another step, I stared at his closeness, no I am not ready Kai, I wanted to scream but I couldn't.
"I like you, Jiang Ying," He confessed, wait he really confessed to me, I feel like the whole world opened the doors for me, but I did not feel happy, I should have felt happy, right?
Who wouldn't want a man like him? He's every girl's dream guy, 6 feet tall, with gorgeously dark hair, and not to forget his beautiful doe eyes, he's a bundle, a full package, with solid biceps, and a lean body, and I am sure he has abs underneath that white coat he wears every day.
Being in the hospital for all these months I have heard every single rumor and desire about him, how every single nurse gossips about him, and how they want him to see their way, and even if he's ready for a one night they're happy to do that, but he never glanced at any one of them.
I have a crush on him too and I know if not for Jiang Ming he wouldn't have spared a single glance at me, but seeing him confess to me first is making me not feel my feet, it's just a matter of seconds for me to fall flat on the ground.
"Yeah right, you need time to process this, I understand" Kai broke the silence and brought me back to him, I must reply to him right, yes I must. 'Say him you like him too!' I prepared myself to reply to him.
"I- uh-" No matter how much I tried to speak, I couldn't muster the courage to reply to him, but seeing the shine disappear from his eyes, I couldn't stop.
"I love being with you," I admitted to having the mutual feeling. Yes, I said it, one pillar down now I am sure he's not going anywhere, and the only thing I need to concentrate on now is my brother Jiang Ming.
"But right now, my priorities-" I tried to speak, this was important, I had to confess who my first priority was, but seeing Kai walk to me, I forgot what I was trying to say.
He held my shoulders gently pressing them a little pulling me close and trying to calm me down as if he knew what I was about to say to him and smile gazing at me.
"I just wanted to know if we were on the same page, you don't need to rush, I am right here," Kai said his lips curled in a smile I had never seen before and there were butterflies dancing in my stomach, and it quickly turned in nervousness, as he leaned in close and my brain reminded me to move but my body was not listening to any signs and I let him invade my space and take my lips and stamp it.