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Big sister is gone, and it's all because of me.

It's all because of my stupid sickness.

It's all because I can't do things on my own.

Why am I like this?

I just want to live normally, with Big sister.

We could have gone to school together.

We could have made so many friends together.

But just because of me, it was no longer a possibility.

I should have just killed myself, and let Big sister live a normal life for herself.

I should have died a long time ago because of this sickness.

But Big sister has saved me so many times.

I... I'm sorry... Big sister.

But there's no way you'd forgive me, though.

You probably secretly hated me so much.

You were able to hide your true feelings so well

So well that I didn't realize until now, how much of a pain I am to you.

I'm sorry.

Please forgive me.

I wish that you were still here.

It should have been me.

"If I can't be with Big sister, there is no point in living anymore."

I thought to myself as the blood poured out of my gut.

I wish papa could have seen how much you cared for me.

I pulled the knife out and stared at my reflection through the bloody stains.