Absurd feeling

Ariana was infinitely happy and content with her new life. But a feeling did not let her calm down. Something strange, a little spike poke her more and more, it stabbed her… as if she was missing something.

One day, she was with the young prince, watching the soldiers and the king from the shade of the chestnut tree, as they attended their morning training, a thought occurred to her.

'Maybe I would be ungrateful? After all, the king has given me and my family such a good life…. and I… I am raising his son, which is not in any way burdensome with such an adorable angel… maybe if I could somehow express my gratitude… this feeling would go away… '

"By the way…why is the king's skin so tanned? Norman's skin is like the purest snow. "

She asked Shannon curiously.

"His Highness always trains half naked, as you could see… in addition, he regularly goes out to the surrounding villages to help with the work of peasants, lumberjacks and other commoners."

"I mean ... does he get to hoe the soil and cut wood?"

Ariana asked in disbelief.

"Yes, this way he's able to understand their problems better, and have a closer relationship with his subjects. We are truly fortunate to have him as our Lord. "

Said the headmaid with a proud look.

"Yes, truly…"

She then began to observe Gideon, what his habits were, what he liked, what he might need…

As she studied the king more and more, however, she could not help but compare him with Jerome.

'Jerome and Jürgen were typical model-shaped protagonists… beautiful faces, silky snow-white skin… perfectly elaborate bodies… but Gideon, he is a barbarian… tanned, scarred skin… huge body with lots of muscle… the size of a mountain. I think he would be the love child of a Viking and a weightlifter in the modern world… if we take into account how much of a giant dick Jerome and Jürgen got next to their slightly above average body… and how brutal they were in bed… then a Gideon level alpha male ... '

She shivered as she imagined the horse-sized tool on the man… then the man himself on her body…

'He would crush me immediately.'

That's when she realized what she had just fantasized about. She slapped herself.

'Am I gone completely crazy? I was released from the prison of sex slavery just a few months ago… it is disgusting that I can still think of sex… maybe I am as sickly perverted as those two monsters…? '

She shook her head, and then went to do her business.

Ariana decided she would show her gratitude with small deeds.

When Gideon read the various documents into the night, she brought him tea, coffee, cakes, sandwiches… which the maids would have done anyway, but she thought that if she did this little work instead, the king would notice signs of her sincere effort.

But Gideon did not attach any particular importance to her.

When she handed a hand-sewn handkerchief to a king sweating in the heat of practice, he wiped the sweat from his forehead, and then returned the piece of material, accompanied by a 'thank you'.

It had already hurt her self-esteem a little.

Gideon, in turn, disregarded the small kindnesses, and the girl became more and more disturbed, that she couldn't get the man's attention.

As the days went by, she found herself playing the roughest girl manga clichés in front of Gideon.

She accidentally stumbled and fell into the man's arm… or when she took the evening tea, she spilled it onto the king, and in the midst of a barely transparent blush, wiped the drink from the man's pants… but in the library case she had to admit it herself.

As she awkwardly tried to take a book off the top shelf, in front of the man's eyes… while Gideon stepped behind her, she could feel the vibration of the huge hot body before she turned around. Her ears were already reddened when she heard the king's breath.

"Maybe this is what you want, Lady Violet?"

The man took off a dusty book while she turned. Gideon didn't stand an arm's length away, but as he handed over the book with a smile, the girl's heart suddenly began to beat at an insane speed.

'Ah… that smile… he has never smiled at me like this before…'

She swallowed hard, but could not interrupt eye contact.

"Thank you."

After a timid thank-you, she picked up the book and the king nodded and walked on.

"Ah…"

She sighed as the little stinging feeling… she had been feeling for weeks, now came into her heart like a huge thorn. She was forced to admit that, it was not her ingratitude that bothered her… but the fact that Gideon showed no interest in her as a woman.

"Damn it… I want him."

She laughed bitterly, when she recognized the absurd feeling.