Sad Goodbye

I was so lost as I cradled his blood stained body into my lap. Watching him like this was so painfully impossible to put into words. 

When I almost thought that I could be with him for the rest of my life then this tragedy suddenly struck. I don't even know if I will be able to see him again after this. 

I held him tightly into my arms as I whispered his name over and over again. My tears abundantly flow like an endless waterfall down my cheeks. 

There was a sudden piercing pain in my chest and I just ignored it and continued staring at Ace's face in fear he would be gone if I ceased looking at him. 

It pains me so much to see him like this. While I held him, I couldn't help but wonder if he would be alright. If I lose him, I don't know how I will continue my life again. How would I accept the fact that he died instead of me? The thought filled me with so much anguish and I began sobbing once more.