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In order to gain her parents' attention, Gu Ci had a slight tendency for self-infliction since childhood. She would hurt herself, hoping her parents would come to care for her. But they never did. Later on, her self-infliction turned into fights with her sister, Gu Chuyun.

Every time she fought with Gu Chuyun, it would at least capture the attention of her stepmother, Lu Man, and her stepfather, Gu Wenliang. It made them realize that there was another daughter at home besides Gu Chuyun.

From childhood to adulthood, Gu Ci never learned how to love herself.

So when Lu Zhiyuan proposed, she thought of it as giving up on herself. "Whatever, he can have me. I'm already like a walking corpse." If he wanted her, he could take her.

Afterward, whenever she angered Lu Zhiyuan, she would habitually resort to self-infliction.