Declined the contract

"I will not accept the contract. No matter what you say, I will not accept it. " I finally went out from the office and I was even surprised when I came out, there were employees scattered in the hallway and they seemed to be busy with what they were doing.

'Gossips.'

I continued walking and took the elevator. I can't stop punching the elevator because of the amount of money that in the blink of an eye I declined.

I just f*cking declined a one-billion peso! Sh*t!

"Gosh, that's a big money Demetria!" I whispered softly to myself and the elevator rang, signaling that I was rated on the ground floor.

After I left the company, I went straight home and cooked my food and went to sleep. I'm not on my own, it's a good thing I still have money left to pay my Mom's bills.

****

"What time is it?" none of my own mention and even drowsily reached for my old watch on the side of my bed.

Ten o'clock? I've only been asleep for so long.

I got up and went straight to the sink and got my drinking water from there. It's tiring to live… I put on my black jacket again and even at night I still went for a walk outside.

I like to go for a walk at such times, I don't know, I'm not afraid of what could happen to me. I stop walking and closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Feeling the cold air caressing my skin. While both my hands were in the pocket of my shirt I was wearing loose pants.

"The hardships of life…"

"Life is really hard," I was immediately aware of my soroundings when suddenly someone answered me and moved away a little from him.

"Gasper?" he turned to me with a smile and waved his hand in the air.

"Hi?" as if he was still embarrassed when he spoke to me. I just ignored him and continued walking that I myself did not know where the destination is.

"Stop following me around, Gasper." I seriously pointed at him and turned the other corner. I could still feel his presence so I violently turned my gaze to him.

"What do you need, huh?"

"I'm sorry, I just want to apologize for what I told you in the past. A-And I hear you already quit at the club? " I averted my eyes from him.

"You're not involve with that decision of mine, Gasper. It'smy business to take care off. I'll be ahead of you. Go home safe. " I stepped away from him but he was still like a dog following me. I just let him go until I got back to my rented house and without saying a word went inside right away.

I was caught in my own chest. 'Fuck. I really hate his guts. ' I have my own reasons why I choose to avoid Gasper and I don't want to get to the point where my point of view is really different when it comes to men's. He's the only one man I trusted the most.

"Sh*t this life!" I reluctantly threw my jacket on the couch. Chaotic apartment, no sensible food and the dish is always dry.

'Am I still human?'

I didn't even bother to cook anything even though I am hungry. I doesn't have the energy to cook for myself, now. I save myself because I waste more money when I buy more food. My dinner and breakfast are just one. I also need to find a job tomorrow, hey.

****

Tomorrow morning…

"Demetria!" I was immediately grabbed by my head and narrowed my eyes to get up from my sleeping bed.

Gosh!

"Gosh! I am still asleep, okay? Can't she even wait just for a minute!? " I complained here while still going to the door and immediately opened it. I couldn't even speak when all sorts of papers flew away right in front of my face.

I just close my eyes because of annoyance I felt. Relax Dem, chill.

"See? Look at all of that! Don't you really intend to pay your Father's debt— "

"I don't have a Father!" my eyes glazed over and I turned to Mrs. Karolina, "I don't have an animal father." my whole muscle was shaking because of the extreme hatred and anger I was feeling in my whole being.

I slowly bent down and picked up those papers one by one and handed them again to the woman in front of me today.

"My father has been dead for a long time now. You want me to pay his bulsh*t bills with my own money? " I smiled bitterly and looked at Mrs. Karolina directly into her eyes. "Even if he dies, I will never recognize him as my Father. I'll rather choose to die." I was about to close the door when Mrs. Karolina suddenly spoke.

"Someday Demetria, you will also bark on the ground and return to your Father," I automatically turned my back and glared at Mrs. Karolina direction.

I laugh.

"Really, Mrs. Karolina? Well, if that happens to me, I'll make sure we both bark at the ground and not just me. " I said that emphatically and slammed the door shut.

I found out just last week that Dad had a family of his own. What a freak. What does he want my reaction to be? That I'll accept him again and kiss his foot? I laughed softly. That's not in my vocabulary.

I ate first before taking a shower and getting dressed. I plan to visit my Mom.

As soon as I came out of my door, the papers that were just in front of my door opened up to me. Without hesitation I kicked it because it blocked my path and stepped away.

****

"Here's the payment." I politely handed it to the woman. She immediately accepted it, typed it on the computer and smiled brightly in front of me.

"Don't worry Ma'am, Dem. I know the hardship you are going through so we will do everything to make your Mom's condition okay," I just smiled in response and thanked her.

I first wore PPE and put on a facemask and put alcohol on my hand before going inside. I can see how soundly she is sleeping now. I slowly stepped into her direction and sat on her bed and pinned her hair behind her ear.

"I'm sorry Mom, I'm not a perfect daughter… I-If only I were a man in the first place, this will not happen to you, to us." I couldn't help but shake my voice because of the emotions I was feeling. I gently stroked her right cheek.

"You will be fine too Mom. I will not give up until I see you happy again, "I took both of her hands and placed them near my cheeks and kissed her forehead. Tears welled up in both my eyes.

"You'll get well from this pain, Mom… I p-promise,"