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My body is getting warm , my heart is beating faster and faster , it's like it's gonna jump out . my legs are weak . i'm out of breathe . i can feel my vison blurring , i can't take it anymore . the feeling in my mouth , the gentle yet harsh movements . uh aaaah huh ah uh ... uuuuuuuh nooo.... uhhhh... ah .... . i.... i.... i don't want this . but ..... this is too much . please just stop . i fall on the knees , but the warm touch on my waist going up my shirt still remains . nooo...uhh....pls.....f*** .... . stop this . i should have run away if i knew this was gonna happen . why is that i have to feel this when it's my friend that is being kissed ?????? why should i fall in love with your lover THAT TOO OUR PROFESSOR ????

that's right , the one being kissed and caressed is not me but my friend who is being kissed by our professor aka his secret lover . so what's going on with me ?? why am i being touched and why is my heart racing? well this is because of my gift or talent or blessing ???? I'm not sure this is a blessing or curse , but i had this ability since childhood .i knew something was weird , when i cried and felt my heart ache when i saw my classmate cry who i had no relation with . and when i felt pain in my neck when i saw someone being chocked and the time when my legs went weak when my friend was being kissed . and i fell in love when my friend had fallen in love . my heart , my mind , my tears , my feelings , it was shared with others .we call it MTS . we can feel someone's emotion , touch or feeling . most mts feel pain , and touch when we see someone else in pain , we experience it ourselves , or when someone else is being touched we feel like we are being touched in the same spot . it's a weird ability . some people can feel the feeling , touch everything exactly as the person who we are mirroring , like even anxiousness, stress , headache , stomache ache , fear etc. . and there are some who feel something is weird , a sudden feeling that something is weird . and my ability level is on the intermediate low level . i can't feel touch for most cases , only in uncomfortable cases will i feel touch and that too only if i see exactly were they are being touched as well as their expression . like when a girl was being assaulted in the train station , when the guy moved his hand inside her shirt and up her back , i felt it his hand on my body , it was faint but it was there . it was gross , uncomfortable and weird , i had goosebumps , and i looked away , the girl was saved by someone , but that experience was bad . same goes for when someone is being chocked or murdered slowly . as long as i see the movement clearly and slowly i can feel it too in a faint manner . the strength of pain is not exact , i can only feel a the pain and feelings . but it was not everyday you see things like that .

my ability strength is small , so my ability doesn't activate at most times , so I'm safe or so i thought . but things got real bad when sometimes i watch a movie or read a comic , where the scene is shown slowly , sometimes , there are situations were some characters are being forced to kiss or do something against their will , and this is when my ability suddenly activates . this makes watching movies and especially 18+ scenes bad for my health . and to top it off , I'm on the receiving end !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and the latest was when someone's heart beat raised when they embraced their lover , and my heart beat too . like what am i supposed to do ? fall in love with your boyfriend too?