Ch 18; Take it away from him

After leaving the sisters to catch up with each other over anything they had to discuss, Viktor went to find his father, he had tried to avoid him as much as possible since he arrived, just like he has been with everybody else and his supposed mate. He knew that his meetings with his father never ends well, and there were always times when he would compare him to his brother , No it actually happens a lot, he has never missed a chance of throwing it in his face that he is never good enough, or he does not have the fierceness or the bravery of his brother, but he would not call that bravery, especially now that he thinks back at those times he would not call it that, those were too harsh or maybe he would call it a misuse of power. His brother was always jumping on any ideas or whatever their father hinted on and he was more than happy to do it.

Unlike him, Viktor likes to think twice about things before he ventures into them, maybe that was where his weakness had always come from, maybe that was the reason he is not like his brother. But Enzo was not there anymore, although he would agree that it was better with him around, then he could avoid all the issues he was facing now, his older brother took care of everything. Then his father didn't focus too much on him.

Viktor fears his father in many ways so he tries to avoid him when necessary, but he would always would prefer to get his approval over anything else. To him, his father was a friend and his savior in every way before the change, but now he was just someone he would like to respect from afar or seek his approval from afar, It was not always like that until the power raged and Enzo's death, the relationship between him and his father, and his brother were always filled with happiness, laughter and a lot of life lessons.

His father was in every way admirable and strong, Viktor still wants to believe that he is still like that , he only needs to be able to find it in him, there must still be a way to reach his father , a way to reach his already damaged soul.

He has changed so much since Enzo died, things changed around them all , and things have not been the same ever since. The power and rage were all he had to depend on, the war that broke out three years ago was proof of it.

As he greeted the women and men coming towards him, he could see the door to his father's room, he made an excuse to them about him having to go, so he walked as slowly as he could but there was no way he was going to delay any longer, he opened it without knocking and his father, who was sitting behind his desk did not seem surprised at all.

" I have been expecting you, sit down," He said, showing him a couch in the center of the room, as he stood up from behind his desk to join him at the center of the room, Viktor took his seat without saying a word, he just obeyed. His father had definitely been expecting him, or maybe he had even known that he was coming, that was possible, but there is never an end to what his father knows or is capable of.

" I have been meaning to see you, I just haven't had the time, " Viktor said, trying to make excuse for not showing up to see him earlier than now.

" Cut the crap Viktor, I know you are not sorry , I know the thought of you seeing me and having to sit in a space with me is not that appealing to you, I get it "

" Okay ?" Viktor said as he was trying to get up from where he was sitting , his dad was not seated yet " I see you already have what you want to hold on to this time so there is nothing else for me to say to you. There is no reason for me to stay any further, I will be in my room, you can let me know whenever you really want to see me " Viktor was expecting this , he knew his talk with his father has never ended nearly well.

" Sit down, I am not done talking " His father commanded, he could see he was already getting pissed, that reaction was always available all the time they find themselves talking.

" I came here on my own accord, and it seems you are not too happy with my presence " He mentioned , taking his seat once again , but this time his father joined him, sitting opposite to him.

" Enough of the touchy feelings Viktor. I told you to get one thing done , only one thing and you have been unable to do it. If it was your brother , I would not need to say it more than once"

Viktor sat there, his face expressionless, acting like he didn't understand what his father was saying.

" You could have gotten it done before coming back here to the pack, was that not why you didn't come back early in the first place ? I expected you to come here with his head in a sack , but what ? did you come here with nothing but a girl to add to the list of your problems? "

" You do not actually expect me to kill Conri, right ? On what basis ? It is not even a defense, he was not trying to get unto me , what possible explanation would I have made to the council members for killing the Alpha of the pack , He is more powerful and more resourceful " He deliberately ignored the mention of Dani , he was not going to say anything about it.

"Can you hear yourself speak ? He is more powerful ? He is more resourceful ? Get it over with and be the Alpha yourself "

" That is not what I want, I have no desire at all to be Alpha "

" That should be your dream! You should sleep in it , drink in it , eat in it , hell I want you to live in it. . . I want you to be powerful , more powerful, and rule over this pack , with me by your side " His father said.

He looked at him , and he just could not believe that this whole thing was still in his head. He was tired of it all , three years ago was enough. . . " No Father, that is your dream, it is you who wishes to be like Alpha, not me. You just want to use me only because I am highly qualified and your own time is over. And I am sure by now, you would have wished that it was me who died in that battle instead of Enzo " It frightened him that he believed that to be true, and he had even regretted saying it out loud.

" Yes, I wish it was you on the field that night. I wish it is Enzo in front of me right now instead of you, listening to me talk about what I want and what I want him to do. You are just a weakling, that's all you are, a weakling " His father blurted out.

Those words hurt him, hearing those words directly from his father broke his soul into a million pieces. But he somehow knew that he just had not been able to accept it yet, that he was of no use to his father if he does not do as he wants.

" You are my father! How can you confidently sit here in front of me and say that to my face? "

" But that is the truth, you know me to always tell you the truth, you don't expect me to sugar coat anything to you, do you? Your brother would do this ten times faster than you would walk or run back into your room " He was not lenient with his words at all , and he knows his father, he always knew what he was doing, and he always carefully thought of his actions before going through with them, so Viktor knows that his father knows the impact those words were having on him , but he still continued to say it to his face anyway, he did not care about him, he cared about what he would gain from him. When did everything become this bad? He lost his father, he lost his friends whom he would have liked to run to right now to tell them all about how he is feeling and how his head is about to blow off. But No, that would really make him a weakling, what he was afraid of , he would now be.

He needs to get out of that space his father occupied, he could suddenly feel the stress pressed down on his chest, almost choking him, he feels like the air in the room was getting tighter and tighter around him , he held unto his neck as if to release some tension, it was not working, he stood up from his sit and walked out of the room.

He needed a shift, he needed a run in the woods , and he needed to definitely get some air back into his lungs, he was losing it.