Chapter 2

I officially had one day before I would finally have the ability to find someone who would, hopefully, not hate me like everyone else. I don’t care, I have one day before I can find my soulmate. I’m going to ride this next day and hope nothing goes wrong.

I was wrong. Today was not going to be easy. Jacob wasn’t letting me off that easily. He and his buddies cornered me before school even started and beat me to a pulp. I’m stuck limping from class to class with a black eye, fat lip, and plenty of bruises everywhere else. I’m sure they sprained my wrist but at least they left my dominant hand alone. I was not going to have a fun time.

Tonight. I think to myself.

Do it tonight. I refuse to turn 18. I don’t need this anymore.

After school let out I avoided Jacob and his goons as I rapidly limped home. I lay down in my bed and carefully wipe my face. I look at my nightstand. It’s lined with 3 bottles of antidepressants. I stopped taking them a while ago but my mother is never around to notice and my father keeps getting the refills.

I look at the clock and it reads 11:55 pm with a low tick filling the room. I’ve been laying in bed for 9 hours.

Do it. Take them. Take them all. I think. I grab the first bottle but I pause. I wanted to say goodbye to the soulmate I’d never meet. I set the bottle back on the nightstand with a clink. I get up and walk to the bathroom. My long sleeves roll up as I lean onto the counter.

A quick shower. I wanna look ok when I leave.

I hop out of the shower and check my phone. It’s midnight. I sit on my bed and dress in my pajamas. Suddenly I hear it.

Don’t do it! It was him.

Why not? I ask him through our shared thoughts.

I don’t want to lose you. I scoffed allowed.

Why do you even care?

I’ve always been alone too. I was waiting for the moment I could finally meet the one person who’s supposed to care. I let out a sigh and think one last thought to him.

You wouldn’t care about me even if you met me. With that, I set the full bottle and antidepressants down and take melatonin. Trying not to think of anything else. I pull up my playlist and decided to put on Bullet by HollywoodUndead.