25 Update

Hey guys, I know its been a long time but I come with some news. I have been thinking all day on how to say this and all I wanted to say but in the end I feel like it is all excuses. That being said I will give a brief summary of what happen. Class went from 0 to 100 real quick with difficulty that I needed to take a step back from writing for a little bit so I didn't fail any of my classes but I ended up doing that anyways. I failed my calculus 3 class and ended up having to retake it in the summer but thats besides the point.

During my brake I lost motivation and went into self deprecation mode about my writing. I knew as a new author I knew my writing wasn't going to be the best but as time past the more I hated this novel, I felt the more I write the better I got but there was so many plot holes in the beginning it didn't even matter. I had this whole thing planned out but I couldn't get my self to write due to not being happy with the beginning chapters. In the end I was feeling that it would be better to drop this even though that was the whole point of me starting to write because I was sick of authors dropping their work without a word and I ended up doing the same.

Now the reason why I decided to post something after all this time. I was reading a novel that had like 8 chapter posted in a span of 1-2 days but then the author said he was dropping. I felt so mad that this author was dropping before they even got anywhere. I was even questioning why they even posted it in the first place, then it hit me. I was being a huge hypocrite, why was I getting mad at some other author when I basically did the same thing. Even though I kept saying I was coming back I eventually felt there was no point but I just didn't want to say anything.

Now after understanding why I was feeling this way was because I was self projecting on this author that had done nothing wrong and in reality I was just mad at myself for not finishing what I have started. So in the end, I am rewriting. I am going to fix all the plot holes, write a whole knew beginning an everything. Now this doesn't mean that I am giving up on the idea and rewriting the plot. I realized that when I was writing I was rushing and this caused me to miss very easy things that I could have easily catch if I just slowed down.

With this said I am still busy with classes so my posting schedule is going to be different then last time since I don't have as much time as I originally did, but I will also make the chapters longer. Now somethings I will change is getting rid of the OC that I made but keeping the mc. The Mc was supposed to be the symbiote but I know that went over most peoples heads and that was my fault for not communicating that clearly. There will be more pov changes and more in depth character development and seeing the reasons for their actions.

Thanks for to those who have waited and sticked with my for all this time, I appreciate it. For those new here welcome and I hope you give this new rewrite a chance. I don't know when I will post again with the chapters but I will post the first 5 together and I will work on it right away because I am feeling my creative juices running on full drive already. Thanks again for sticking with me and see you guys later.