22 The Truth Finale

"It looks like you're happy dear." Mom chuckled after a good couple of minutes of me smiling like an idiot from having Toga, or I guess I should say Himiko now since you guys know my 'real' name now, bound to me. Which, still felt surreal, after all one of the (once) fictional girls I had a crush on is now bound to a system that is most likely also had bound to my soul.

Her chuckle actually startled me out of my thoughts of the warmth that I was feeling from Himiko integrating with the system. I was definitely not blushing, especially not when I heard Himiko's cute laugh from the system.

Though it's a good thing that she did break me from my thoughts, because I don't know how much longer I'll have to talk with mom, and I still have a couple of questions for her.

"Hey mom, this probably should've been my first question, but why every time I look back at my past do I not feel as strongly about what I went through?"

This was a valid question, because after everything (even if I was technically reborn) I shouldn't have just been able to brush off all the trauma I went through. Especially since I only ignored my trauma with escapism while watching anime, I couldn't afford to go to therapy and I didn't really have any friends to talk about that stuff with.

Even if I consider myself to be more interesting (insane) I was never able to get past being kidnapped in the middle of the night, tortured/experimented on for several years, seeing people killed in front of me, and killing people on multiple occasions. I may be okay with some of those things now, but the memories of those events did cause me to also have night terrors, yet I have been sleeping soundly since I was placed in Himiko's body.

"Well, I believed it would be best to numb those less favorable memories of yours until you entered a safe environment. After all you and I both know that you would've had a panic attack at being placed into a completely new environment."

While I wish I could disagree, she's right I would've had an immediate panic attack, especially with how the wrong memories were erased because of Loki. After all, even if I didn't fully describe how it felt getting hit by that damn truck, I still died in a very painful way and (from my point of view) I was just suddenly in the body of Himiko with a system.

That would've caused my brain to go on high alert, especially with some of the people in the world who could just kill me in one attack, and it probably would've caused me to be even angrier at the one who reincarnated me. Because from how I saw it, it would mean that in some form God exist, and they just let me and the others experience all that pain, if reincarnating me was their way of apologizing you could bet that I would go on a war path.

Hell, the only reason I'm not angry at mom is because of her domain and her explanation. She is the goddess of stories, which most likely means that she can only view stories and send proxies (like an apostle) to a variation of that story to interact with it. Also, the way she looked when she was saying how she wanted a family, it was a look I recognized too well, it was a look of longing and a lack of purpose. I doubt that she even gets to hang out with her wives that much since they belong to other pantheons which gives them responsibilities in them.

She even said it herself, she can't belong to any of those pantheons because when all is said and done they will eventually become myths, they will become stories. This actually has more downsides though, which explains the lack of purpose in her eyes, her domain may be that of stories, but I don't think it gives her much to do other than view all those stories. No pantheon, no true purpose, and not being able to always interact with those she loves would mix into her wanting to feel needed.

The way she has chosen to get that makes sense too, by having a family, by having a child she can help them grow stronger and help them get what they always desired. This would make said children become dependent on her and the gifts that she gave to help them grow, thus giving her that exact feeling of being needed. She even went through the effort of getting other powerful being's to add their own powers and boons to my system, which I doubt was an easy feat.

I think I'm even seeing a pattern here, since these seem like things that Himiko or I might do to keep the one we love from ever leaving us, I think my new mom may be a yandere. But, she isn't the regular type of yandere, since she wants to feel needed by her children not a love target, though I doubt she won't ever kill for me or one of my future siblings since she wouldn't be a yandere if she didn't. Either way I guess what they say is true, like mother like daughter.

Eventually she may even gain the title of the Mother of Yanderes, if my other siblings are just like us. Which would definitely make family reunions a hell of a lot more fun, even if I don't know if they're actually fun what with my past and all.

"Well you are definitely not wrong about it, by the way mom, what was that other reason you made me your child? It's had me curious for a while now." She did say she would explain it later, and it is later now.

"I almost forgot about that, thank you for reminding me dear! Well, you may have figured out already, but, I wanted to feel like someone needed me for once. Even though I do have my loving wives it doesn't feel like they need me, after all they themselves are goddesses. 

I also, technically, have no followers or a religion, even if people do pray to me subconsciously while making stories. So, I lack the one thing a deity needs to truly live, a purpose."

Well, fuck I called it and I think I made her a bit sad now, shit I need to change the subject I don't like seeing my new mom sad.

"Hey, you don't have to worry about any of that now mom, because you have me and soon I'll have plenty of siblings that will need you too!" I said this in a happy tone while flashing a smile that was filled with genuine care for her.

"Hahahaha, I suppose you're right my little Eve, I don't need to worry about those things now since I now get to start my own little family. I wonder what you and your siblings will be able to accomplish, will you become gods yourselves, or will you choose to control your respective worlds? I can't wait to see what you all will do!" She said with a warm loving smile that only a true mother could give.

Wait, did she say become a god.....IS THAT ACTUALLY POSSIBLE!!!!

"Wait wait, woah, mom did you say me and my siblings could potentially become gods?!" I almost yelled my question, but it seemed the increase in volume didn't discourage her, in fact she seemed happier because of my question.

"Yes, you and your siblings could become gods just like many demigods before you. Though there are conditions to it, you would have to gain followers, gain incredible power, and finally you would have to face off against multiple apostles to earn the right of ascending to godhood."

Okay, two of those seem easy enough because of my plans and the system, but the last one may prove difficult. Fighting other apostles that have also, probably, gained certain gifts bestowed on them by their gods could be difficult, especially if they completed that power condition too. Wait, why does it feel like I'm forgetting something here?

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DID SHE CALL ME A DEMIGOD?!

I was extremely shocked by this, even if all this other shit was surprising before, this was just the icing on that motherfucking cake! After all, in one day I've learned that I'm an apostle, I have a new mom who's a goddess, some of the quirks in my system are from gods or god-like people, Himiko loves me, my mom may end up becoming the goddess of yanderes, Himiko fucking loves ME, and fina-fucking-lly I'm apparently also a demigod.

"Hehehe, I can see you finally noticed that tidbit about being a demigod and don't worry you didn't mishear. You are in fact a demigod and that's because you are my apostle, by becoming my apostle you have a fraction of my power intertwined with your soul making us more family than those that share the same blood as you. This is also the reason why I consider an apostle the child of the god that makes them such."

Well damn, Julius Caesar eat your heart out, I am actually the child of a god. I wonder if that's a small part of the reason why I feel inclined to see her as my mother?