Confused

Since yesterday I have sent a chat message to Bella but it has not been answered or read. Is Bella ilfeel towards me? I don't think so because this is my first time meeting him. Maybe Bella doesn't want to get to know me, when I was at school I wanted to go to the bathroom but from the opposite direction Bella appeared and she saw me from a distance I was nervous, I didn't dare to look her in the eyes back. But this time something was a little different when he saw me, he smiled warmly when he saw me there. I was even more nervous when I saw him smiling at me.

The day at school was over, I took my motorbike and went home hoping that Bella would reply to the chat message I had sent for her. When I got home I showered, ate, and went straight to my bed to rest. And not long ago I was surprised that Bella's message appeared on my cellphone notification, I immediately checked her message and she actually replied to my message.

Bella: "Ohhh yes Ryan, nice to meet you, Bella, yes, I'll save it right away."

Ryan: "Thanks Bella, I'm really sorry to bother you."

Bella: "It's okay, it's okay kwkwkw.

Ryan: "ok bell."

The conversation just stopped there. I really want to chat with him via chat or directly and want to discuss whatever it is. But... I don't have the courage to chat with Bella, it's nice to be able to get Bella's number and be able to reply to messages with her but on the other hand I'm confused about how to chat while I'm always nervous about what other women what I like, I became stiff and even became embarrassing. But yeah I'll try next time to contact him, I hope he replies. at least he responds like that already makes me happy, what's more until he wants to save my contact number on his cellphone, even though it's a little silly but yeah, it's just that the people we like reply to what we want to do. after that I can sleep peacefully thinking about what just happened chat with bella. I've been crazy about Bella for a long time because I just liked her. Does everyone feel the same way when he likes someone to this extent too? Am I the only one who's being lazy like this. I really want to chat with Bella again and again but I don't know what to say and what to talk about, the problem is that I've never chatted with girls that intensely and I'm not good at finding the right topic of conversation for Bella and I to talk later his. I really should study with a more appropriate person who is good at approaching women but I don't have any friends like that. I finally found a way on YouTube, 10 ways to approach women. I've watched all of them but yeeeah I don't think it helps my mentality to get up the courage to chat with Bella.

My days are very colorful when I like Bella. so a lot of things that I learned and that I did and that I thought about him. indeed falling in love is exciting, confusing, fun, etc. maybe all feelings are in falling in love. i thought i would fall in love when i graduated from school and college but in fact no i fell in love too quickly even at the beginning of my study year, i fell in love with someone even to the point of being curious there's no end to it. as usual at curfew I play games but this time no, I don't play games because yeah I'm just bored with playing games that's all I usually watch YouTube channels that I like or listen to songs until I fall asleep. Usually I watch gaming channels that play pubg mobile games. yeaaaah because i don't have any activities soyyyyyyyy i just fill my daily activities by doing that sometimes i play out with my friends but yea it's seldom not often i'm more often at home than playing out.

while I was watching YouTube I fell asleep and suddenly I dreamed of Bella. Bella is in front of me but I can't do anything and talk anything to her, I'm confused why with her. I talked to him, he was silent, there was no response, is this a sign of something about Bella against me? Or is it a picture of the situation where this is currently happening. I suddenly woke up from my sleep to the dream I had just dreamed. I still wonder what the dream means but what is clear is that it really is like what I'm experiencing right now.

rather than me thinking about it I'd better cook noodles at night, not hungry but just want to snack on Santay. while playing pubg games alone with random friends who met on pubg mobile. sometimes I meet funny people who like to be angry and angry who are not serious but once I met a girl on pubg mobile, she is far away from her house, she is a cool person and she is older than me. after the game is over I add him to my pubg friends list so sometimes I invite him to play with me. but lately i rarely play with him because hey he's rarely on pubg mobile too so i can't ask him to play pubg with me. I like women who play games so I can play with her in my spare time, although when we play we rarely win but at least I can fill my spare time by playing games. Besides, I'm not like most other kids who are crazy about playing games, I rarely even play that game when I'm in the mood. If I have a friend to play with, I just want to play PUBG but if I don't have one, I rarely play PUBG a week, I can play 3 to 5 times. but I used to play the mobile legend game but I really didn't understand it, I don't know how to play Hero Hero in the legend mobile game because there are so many different heroes and diverse skills. but does Bella like guys who like to play games huh?.....