Self Control

Ian Pov

I am confused and worried about Jad. As far I know the story he is the first child of the moon goddess then why did she didn't send Jade for Jad? I can't accept the fact that he doesn't have a mate but I do so I decided don't want one. I can't sleep well yesterday because of the information I got from my pack members. I am happy to know that they were the first pack ever in the world.

I wish my delta find his mate to complete our family so we will get our memories fully. I slowly got up from my bed with stretch. Today gonna be a long day I have many meetings to attend but I don't have my personal secretary to assist me cause she found her mate. The guy from the south came here for vacation so she left with him. We can't recruit anyone for my secretary post cause it comes with so many responsibilities.

Nobody can learn so soon too. Kev went to Rome to delt with the council for the rescued wolves from the rouge King. So no one is here to help me through my business work. I sighed and walked to my bathroom, did my morning routine, showered. When I turned off my shower head, I hopped out, grabbed a fluffy black towel from the self, and wrapped it around my waist. grabbed a short towel to dry my damp hair.  I walked to my walk-in closet, picked a black Armani suit.

After getting ready, I sprayed my cologne to finish my dressing. I stepped down from the stairs to the kitchen, had some sandwiches with fresh orange juice. After I did with my breakfast, I heard a honk I guess Xy is here to pick me up. In absence of Kev, he is the one gonna drive me to the office. I locked the door behind me and hopped into the passenger's seat. Once I turned to see him, he bowed his head and greeted "Good morning Alpha".

Xylus is in his navy blue suit, he looks so professional unlike in the picture he was in just a night suit. Now I see why my gamma is head over heels to his mate. I smiled at him and asked, "How was your weekend Xy?" By hearing me his face lit up, I know he is happy even I can't see his face which is directed to the road. He turned to see me for seconds with a bright smile and said, "It's fantastic. We had so much fun. Glen is such a sweet, and wonderful girl. So pure". By hearing about her my face crept with a small smile.

When my mind registered his information I made a slight frown and asked, "What you mean by pure Xy?" He cleared his throat, moved uncomfortably with red cheeks, and replied, "I mean, um virgin". Without thinking much I yelled, "Really?". By hearing my curious yell he chuckled and joined in my curious amused talk by answering, "Yep, Can you believe a beautiful girl like Glen in the human world without even getting her first kiss and staying pure is possible? but she managed to stay so"

By hearing him somewhat my heart filled with pride, I felt giddy. He continued, "But she is sad, I can't pinpoint anything particular. Her eyes tell a different story, she said she was a lonely child, I don't think that's the only reason for her sadness, her eyes tell that she is missing something or someone terribly, I can't figure out what or who. Whenever we talk about our village or forest her light brown orbs darken with fear, she trembled visibly for seconds. What may be the reason for her fears about the forest? Whatever may be it, I gonna help her to overcome that fear cause whenever I saw her or was around her I felt warm and safe like I felt with my mate. To be exact the feeling we get being beside our mother, the love and the trust that she will save us even her life is at stake. I wanted her to be happy with soul. I wish she will find the right person."

I was listening to his entire speech carefully with many questions running through my mind and the last thing he said is not to my liking so I growled lowly. By hearing me he shivered visibly and voiced slowly, "Alpha". I closed my eyes to calm myself for seconds with a sigh and asked, "Didn't your mate tell you what we talked about last week?" He licked his lips and said, "Yep he informed me, I am aware of the little information that all others except you guessing Glen is your mate? Then he also told me about the ancient story of us being the first pack in the world."

I took a deep breath and asked, "What do you think about it Xy? Do you think I am her mate? If I am then do you think I will be the right person for her?" He parked the car in the sideway of the road, he sighed, turned to me, and asked, "Do you want me to answer you honestly or should I sugarcoat cause you are my alpha?" Xylus has always been a strong omega, and straightforward. I don't know is it the right thing to hear the suggestion from him? So I closed my eyes and asked Jad I am doing the right thing Jad? He scoffed and replied Your stubborn ass didn't hear my advice maybe this omega can stuff some sense into your think shit skull. I didn't reply to him so he disappeared in the back of my mind.

I turned to him and said, "I want you to be honest with me Xy" He narrowed his eyes at me and said, "As you wanted I will be honest. I think you are a jerk for not accepting the fact that Glen is your mate. I heard even alpha Jad is ready to accept her then why don't you? As I already told she is one pure soul so she doesn't deserve jerks. She deserves a man who will give the world to her. If it is not you then sorry to say I will support her to find the best guy out there"

By hearing him my heart ached with immersed pain, I questioned myself can I see her with another man. I know the answer that I can't but why? I met her just once, I don't know anything about her. Is it possible to fall for a person who you don't know better? Is it mate bond? I can't dwell on this matter. I can't pull a mere human into our world where we gonna fight with demons and evil just by guessing she is my mate. I should control my newfound feelings for this little girl.

I sighed and turned to Xylus and said, "You are right Xy she doesn't deserve me, she deserves a much more gentle guy who gonna protect her from this sinful world and the people like us." By hearing me his eyes went wide with parted lips. Didn't he expect me to answer him like this? I was confused so I cleared my throat and said, "Let's go Xy we were getting late". He got out of his trance and drove to our office with a silence which is killing me with inner thoughts of Glen being with another human guy.

Before my heart eat my mind we reached, we hopped out, he parts from me and went to his block. I walked into the big hallway where all bow their head, I didn't mind returning their greetings to say better I was not in the mood. I pressed the elevator button, waited for a minute. Once the golden doors opened I hopped in the empty space and pressed the top floor to reach my cabin. I never felt an elevator ride be this suffocating, I can't pinpoint the certain feeling I am getting now is like I feel something is not right.

My turmoil got to an end when the elevator dinged indicating that the ride came to end. I don't know why but I feel like I wanted to run to my cabin, without thinking much I sprinted out from the small closed pace to my cabin. When I reached enough distance I heard a loud thud from my cabin, I rushed to the door, pushed, and walked in to see trembling Glen in my manager Vincent's arms in his coat crying and sobbing. I felt someone stab my heart a thousand times with sharp knives.

That's when I heard a wince, I turned to see the source I met with a grunting human holding his ribs with bloody lips. I know him he is working as department head for the technical team. I got the picture of what happened here. Before I voice something Vincent voiced, "This piece of shit tried to abuse this girl" By hearing him Glen stuffed her face more into Vincent's unbuttoned bare chest. I felt my blood boil by these two human men for one tried to assault her and another holding her in his embrace. I took a deep breath and consoled myself that I will deal with a shitty one first so, I beckoned Vincent to take her out.

After they both closed the door behind us. I concentrated on their footsteps. Once I confirmed they went enough distance I closed my eyes and let Jad take control but what surprised me is he allowed me to stay with him. When we lowered our gaze to the human he was trembling like a dead leaf in a storm. I know why though. I took slow steps towards him, he crawled back. When I reached him, I gripped his throat and hang him high in the air. His face turned pale with blood drain, he was suffocating to get air, his legs were wobbling the air to get a life. I stare into his eyes and voiced with both mine and Jad's voice which is deep as ocean and dark as night, "How dare you to touch what's mine?"

Without thinking much I sucked out the little life out from him by gripping his throat with more pressure. When he fell limp I dropped his dirty dead body on the floor. Without any remorse, I called my gamma. When he attended my call I voiced, "Gamma I need you to dispose a filthy body" With a concerned tone, he asked, "What happen alpha?" I sighed and replied, "He touched your Luna in a bad way" with a little pause he said, "I am on my way". Now I get that I can't escape from fate or my mate bond.

To Be Continued