chapter 8:

Life as we know it is vague. I don't particularly know if that word describes it properly because as at the moment, I write, I am a twenty five years old woman with no idea what vague means. Funny as it may, I am clueless as to what a lot of words mean but I have a keen way of making it work. Of making it blend in, is it my writing skills or my ability to seem aloof and vain. Ermmm.

The journal of a thousand hungry women is my personal biography which makes no sense because the story is about me and I am not hungry nor a thousand. It took me months to think of that title and it appealed to me because although I am not hungry in the sense of the word. I lack the food of thought. I lack the food for my heart and soul. I am indeed hungry but not for pizza and chicken pie.

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The sound of Bridgit mendler's soothing voice as she belts out the lyrics of hurricane seems to knock Bella out of whatever trance she was in as she wrote. Her hunched position on the counter top straightens and her eyes snap to her phone which sat on the dark mahogany table she uses to dine.

At that very moment Bella regrets having being forgetful and not taking her phone with her to the counter top. Now the phone suddenly seems too faraway.

With a small huff she hops off the tall counter and slowly stride towards her phone which goes off as she picks it up but flashes instantly as the person calls again. Chloe's name flashes on the screen of her iPhone and she grins, her wariness of the phone call long gone.

Just as she places the answered phone on her ear a small knock is heard from the door. Bella concludes it's Alexander as she has no friend to call her own. Patrick hardly visits, by hardly its never.

"come innnnnn"

she yells at the door.

"Summer you need to learn to always close the door. How many times do I tell you this?"

Bella's eyes roll and she walks towards the living room as she hears the door open to welcome her visitor but stood shocked when she comes eye to eye with familiar dark green eyes. Her eyes instantly narrows at the sight of her runaway ex.

"I made a freaking big mistake and the person who just entered proves it"

"who?"

Bella doesn't break eye contact as she answers.

"Eric"

Chloe let's out an animalistic growl,

"put me on speaker"

Bella does as she is told,

"done"

"listen here prick. Get the duck out of our apartment before I fly back there and chop of your tiny popsicle stick"

Chloe sounded agitated and it was affecting Bella. Eric rolls his eyes

"shut up Chloe I didn't come to speak to you"

his eyes turn to Bella,

"I came to talk to you"

The non confrontational part of Bella Summer Rains sits in and she sighs softly.

"b...but I don't want to speak to you"

Eric smirks at the Bella he knows that didn't change a tad bit, he roughly pulls out the phone from her arm and hangs up on a ranting Chloe. He turns the phone off as it starts ringing again but Bella noticed it was Alexander and not Chloe.

"Bella baby. How are you love?"

Bella looks away in frustration.

"I don't want to talk to you Eric"

Her voice is small and shaky as he stalks towards her trapping her against her kitchen counter.

"baby I have missed you"

he whispers bringing his lips to her ears and breathing in her scent. She cowers even further, Eric has always been a tad bit sadistic and wouldn't mind hitting her if she doesn't comply. Bella looks up into his dark green eyes that she used to love and wonders why she fell in love with such an ass.

"I...I can't say the same"

she whispers and his eyes darken making her regret her words. She internally regret not dropping all her shit and flying to London with Chloe who always keeps her protected since the very first day they met. Chloe was bold and vivacious and her confidence sometimes made Bella jealous. she wished she could stand up for herself like her friend could.

Chloe never once complained about being the protector in their friendship, but often enough Bella felt like a massive burden.

A small gasp leaves her thin pink lips as Eric grope are hips. She whimpers silently as his hands starts to caress her - everywhere.

"Eric s...stop"

she wanted to start firm but it came out as a whisper which annoyed her. she wanted to cry, loudly. Eric smiles, the smile she used to adore once but now it only repulsed her to the core.

"I have missed you so much Bella dear"

he grips her harder as she tries to leave his arm.

"what is wrong with you?"

he growls as she avoids a kiss. Bella wonders why he stood her up if he is here now.

"why didn't you come for your own wedding Eric?''

She had to ask, she needed to know. He grips her breasts making a silent tear fall from her eyes.

"I was busy with something."

"something that couldn't wait till after your wedding?"

she didn't sound bitter much to her surprise. she sounds defeated and sad. Eric wasn't given an opportunity to answer as a small knock is heard on the door. He tenses.

"its that bitch Chloe"

"don't insult my friend"

Bella growls pushing him backwards with a friend she didn't know she possessed. Eric stumbled back with a glare and hits her hard across the face with the back of his palm.

"watch your tone girly. who is at the door? its obviously not Chloe she won't knock"

Pained tears fills her eyes. She doesn't answer. The knock gets louder and more frantic. The person obviously doesn't know the door is open. And then they hear it.

"flower! flower open the door"

he sounded worried. About her. Eric's eyes narrow.

"who's that?"

he growls gripping her upper arm, his fingers digging into her smooth flesh

"I am coming in"

was the last thing he said before the door is smashed open. Alexander's bright eyes darken as he sees Bella's horrified state. Tear stained cheeks, bleeding arm and a bruised cheek.

Alexander growls loudly and rips Eric off of her and fling him across the room. He runs towards him and lays punch upon punch on the Canadian actor.

"Alexander stop. stop it"

She pulls him forcefully towards her and he sighs his chest heaving dramatically. She pulls him in for a hug and then looks down at Eric's body. passed out and bloody. Bella faints.

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April 2009. El Sereno, Los Angeles county California.

El sereno elementary school.

Sad tears run down full cheeks as two tall girls stare at the brunette with amused expressions.

"Awwn look Sandy she is crying"

The blonde of the two girls says in hilarity, pushing the tiny brunette slightly making her stumble onto her open locker, she whimpers and sniffs.

Bullying is a part of this school or any school in the area really as no one cares about anything. Gangs and drug dealers are a prominent factor of the environment and at school if you have an older sibling who is notoriously vicious you can get away with almost anything, except good grades for colleges. That one is something they take quite seriously.

The blonde girl Natasha Evans is quite popular in the elementary school. Her older brothers Jacob and Peter are in a pretty notorious gang so the spoiled little girl pushes others around. Her right hand or "bag holder" as Natasha would prefer to call her Sandra Pedro has not one gang member as she is an only child and a daughter of a struggling single mother but the redhead was smart enough to stick with the right crowd - Natasha Evans.

She gets picked on but not as much as the other student body who have lesser ranked gang family or no gang families like Bella summer Rains. The ten years old brunette had no family who was in the gang, she is an only child who lives with her father a teacher at the El sereno middle school.

Bella couldn't wait to finally go to middle school and cowardly hide under the bosom of her father. She didn't mind being a coward if it meant less bullying.

"You look even uglier when you cry braces girl. Why you so ugly"

Spite. Spite was the only emotion Bella sensed in Natasha's tone and she couldn't tell why. The girl has hated her since third grade were the blonde had poured ink in her lunch. She wasn't spiteful towards Natasha so why was she?

Bella cowers backwards in fear. Confrontation has never been her strong point. She was more of the quietly hope it stops but it never does kinda girl and she doesn't know if she minds.

Natasha pulls at the brunette's hair - hard.

"Bitch"

Bella's eyes widen at the curse word. Its no surprise a ten years old utters such word in El sereno, the area is urban on a whole different level. Gangs and prostitutes litters the streets, the government school was hardly full as boys went into drugs and gangs and girls went into prostitution. Few wanted to study.

The curse word wasn't the surprise it was that it was uttered to her. Natasha has made it a life mission to make Bella's life hell by making her slip, pushing her down a couple steps, pouring juice on her, throwing her lunch away and so much more but calling her such hurtful name wasn't one of their agenda.

"Why would you say that?"

Bella was surprised and hurt at the word but she didn't have the guts to open her mouth so she was sure that didn't come from her. The tall blonde turns to a small blonde girl with bright blue eyes, a pink bag pack and a map. If the girl hadn't been with a map anyone still knew she was new, she questioned the queen of the school.

Natasha raises a brow.

"Are you speaking to me newbie?"

The blonde shakes her head and walks closer to the trembling brunette

"Aren't you the only bitch here?"

Bella's eyes snaps up in shock and so does Sandra's.

"Who do you think you are?"

Natasha seethes, Bella just stares at the small blonde in awe. The blonde flips her long hair over her shoulders and smiles.

"I am..."

"Chloe"

All four girls turn to the round middle aged woman. The principal. The small blonde girl turns to principal with a wide smile.

"Hello Mrs Jules"

The sweet smile the blonde handed the principal shocked all three girls. The principal walked closer to them eyeing Natasha wearily.

"Hello dear. Anything wrong?"

Chloe turns to the group with a kind smile,

"Pfft no. Right girls?"

Natasha scowls,

"Everything is wrong. This thing..."

"Is the senators daughter. Watch your damn tongue, she already went through so much and is spending just a year here. Don't mess with her"

The woman cuts sharply. All eyes widen. Chloe sighs with a sad smile and turns to walk away. She walks a few steps before turning back around to stare at Bella.

"You coming?"

She grins, Bella nods

"Y...yes"

The two girls walk away a swing to Bella's steps at the excitement of a new friend that just saved her but what she didn't know was that she was the one doing the saving not Chloe.