1 Prologue

(WARNING!!! CHAPTER CONTAINS VIOLENCE!)

I just turned 18 but nobody cares. I am used to them not caring about it either. I am different. Everyone has someone and I don't. They have what they call "friend" but I have what I call "bullies". To be honest, they are worst and every single day hurts. Nobody cares about me, even if my scars and bruises are showing nothing happens even the teachers, they said I am an 'orphan' so things don't matter anyway. I don't quite understand what's the connection but all I know is that I have nobody.

Inside the classroom while everyone was busy chatting with their friends, I just bowed my head and focused with studying. I have no one, so I poured it into studying, happily I am inside the top 5 ranking at my school, though no one still cares. My oversized pink blazer wrapped around my fingers while I am holding my pen, my hair covers my eyes so no one can see me, they find me ugly. A tall guy with a manablonde hair came over my seat together with his friends, laughing. Staring at me, he throws my notebook at sits at my desk, his friends just randomly scatters and acted like they don't care.

"Look at this girly bitch acting like a smart ass."

Leon's laugh echoed around the classroom and all I did was bow my head. He is the guy who keeps on bullying me every single day. Everyone was staring and I feel like crying, but I must not, I will be strong. If only Terry was here I could feel safe.

"THIS BITCH!"

He pulls my collar and slams me at the locker behind my chair. It hurts, I am trembling and I feel suffocated, I feel like I could hyperventilate at any moment, but I can't. I must not. Leon stares at me, annoyed. His face looks in anger and any moment he will hurt me more, I put my courage to speak up.

"W-what d-do y-you w-want?"

I ended up stuttering. I wanna push him and run, but Leon laughs at me and his friends are just lazing around the classroom, acting like nothing is going on.

"You! I heard you got money, give it to me!" Leon spoke with a threatening voice. "Just help a friend will ya?"

"NO!" I mistakenly shouted. Everyone stares and I'm doomed.

"No!? This motherfucker is testing me!"

Leon pulls his fist and I know it was my end when the bell rings. I was saved, thank God I am saved. Leon puts down his fist and whispered in my ear, it made me shudder in fear.

"I am not done with you bitch."

I immediately ran towards my seat and pick my notebook up then sat down. I know this won't end well, but that money I have is for the debt collectors. I can't just give it to him. Not today.

The teacher went inside and started discussing the lesson, I paid attention like always, forgetting that I would be in trouble after school.

My class finished at 6 pm and I bolted out of the classroom, I need to go home today or the debt collector will be mad again. My adoptive parents left me with a debt and I work part time at a fast food chain to earn some cash. I also need to work for my rent, debt collectors are scary, they shout, punch, slap, kick, and use me, it is painful. I was walking home when suddenly someone blocked me. It was one of Leon's friends, he grabs me on my collar and dragged me in an alley where there was no people.

I saw Leon smoking and smirking, his eyes staring at me playfully, like a predator who wanted to play his prey.

"Bitch the money!" He commanded in a scary tone.

"I-I n-need it today, I-I c-can g-give t-tomorrow."

"Like I trust you."

He smirks dangerously and signalled his friends with a whistle. Everyone suddenly punches me and I was grabbing my bag tightly. I do this everyday, I know it will stop. It will hurt but it will stop, I need to endure the pain. It was about an hour when it stopped, Leon got my bag and pulled out the money. I tried to grab him but there was no strength left in me, I was battered and I was a mess, my pink hoodie and my uniform was all covered in mud, dirt, and dust. Leon laughed and waved my money as he walks away with his friends. I am scared it hurts, I slowly stand up and endure the pain.

My house is near so I walked until I got inside my tiny apartment. It is only soft stuffs here, while my room is creaked, I still love it I feel safe here. I immediately ran towards my bed and hugged my small teddy bear, Terry. His the only one who understands me, hugging him made me cry.

"Terry, my birthday and only wish is that I could find someone who could understand us. Someone who will love us so that there is no more pain. I am scared Terry, me is really really scared." I cried talking to Terry, it is safe.

I keep on crying when someone shouted at the door and keep on banging. I know who it was, I know. I hide behind my blanket and hugged Terry tightly. It is the debt collector, but I don't have money and today hurts so much. I wanna sleep with Terry and no more.