18 Chapter - 18

I am sitting in the Garcia family's dining room, beside me sat Atticus, wearing a cute black tuxedo with a blue bowtie dressed like a gentleman. His beautiful brown eyes were red and dry.

It was my fault... I just yelled at him a little and that was enough for him to gush out a stream of tears. I just discovered that I can't bear to watch him cry, the moment I saw him cry I felt.... pain? was it grief? or was it... regret? I don't know, I have never felt such feelings in my life. Words are not enough to describe what I feel towards him.

What's so special in him? He is nothing more than an ordinary kid that I can find anywhere, maybe with a little depressing background, and a little timid as well. but it's still nothing special. The moment I first saw him my heart... that feeling... It was amazing! It was pure bliss, something I want to feel again and again and again.

Since that day It's so hard to sleep. I am always thinking about him in bed. I...I just crave him... his scent, his little cute body, those cute brown eyes. I just can't get enough of it! Why do I have to wait!?

If only I can just bind him and... NO! no no no no no... I have to wait... I will wait. The more I wait now the sweeter he will be later. Sweeter? He will so sweet when he is willing to be in my bed... *Sigh* I am so Childish when it comes to him. For now, I should focus on feeding him. I-If... If only I could... If only I could feed him directly from my mouth... *Hah* No! I need to control myself. The more I think about such things the harder It is for me to control myself. Calm down calm down calm down Lily.

I took a deep breath and looked down at the plate. There was a piece of the hot steak with steam gushing out of it and juices dripping from it. It was enough to make most people's mouth water. I picked up a fork and knife and cut the steak into small squares then I pierced the piece with the fork and bought that sizzling hot piece of steak close to my mouth.

I bought that piece close to my mouth and blew it, I noticed that Atticus was looking at me with impatient eyes. He must be starving right now, I shouldn't make him wait anymore.

S-should I say it? 'Atticus say ah~' should I do that? is it too childish? How would I feed him if we were a couple? ...I-I would feed him mouth to mouth if we were a couple no? No! I am getting distracted, I am getting distracted. Focus Lily!

Okay... should I go 'Honey say ah~' is it cringy? m-maybe use darling? that's the best! yes, I will go 'Darling say ah~'.

My hand went ahead, I put a smile on my face and said "Darling say ahh~"

But it happened, What I had feared the most. He kept his mouth shut and looked at me with hesitant eyes, as if uncertain about something. Was I too hasty? Did I rush it? My heart was beating like a drum *thump* *thump*. I can hear it, my heartbeat... I feel nervous, what if he hates me? does he want to go back?

He lifted his hand and took the fork away from my hand. I couldn't put up a resistance... Do you not want me to feed you? Are you gonna eat that by yourself? *Hah*

How dare you! Do you think you can do that? I was biting my lips, jaw clenched, and tightened my fist. Well... I tried the normal way, but I guess I am just too old for him to love me... I don't want to force myself upon an innocent kid but... It's his fault, maybe... maybe he will love me after that? Well, he will love me eventually if there's no one else around him for months. I didn't want to see you cry. Well, I guess now I'll-

I felt a warm touch on my lips, I came back, and... he was holding the fork to... feed me?

He gave out an innocent smile to me and said "Y-You eat first, say ah~"

[Host gained 3% affection from target 1.]

'What!? NO for fuck's sake No! change that!!'

[No.]

'Why?'

[It's not my job, and why are you even pulling off these romantic tropes if you don't want the affection?.]

'Tch, at least tell me why did it increase?'

[Well, You are pulling off these oscar level performances...]

'And she rules the fucking underworld!? Are you serious right now?'

[Yup.]

'What do I do now? I think I don't have any chance to get into the school.'

[*sigh* Just do your thing, I will help you.]

'How?'

[I will just make it so that she finds it a little easier to let you leave.]

'Can't you j-'

[Nope.]

(A/N: Happy New Year!!!

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