Chapter 11: Please Don't Kill Me
(This chapter is dedicated to @Jolly_Roger for your powerstone on 12.11.2022)
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(Kyle's POV Continuation)
"I-I want to tell you a li-little about m-me. I ha-have been living alone for mo-more than te-ten years now. My fa-family, my home.... I-I"
These words that escaped her lips.... It's so... Terrific!
And with the help of our temporary bond, I could feel that she wasn't lying! She was struggling inside as if she was fighting by herself... with herself!
I looked at my mom who was looking at her mates. All of them looked flinty! For a moment, I thought they all came to a same conclusion in their minds...
That was to drive her out of our tribe.
And when my mother went near her, I was ready to her away from my mother when my father's warning voice echoed in the room, "Cub!"
And since he's the king, I had to obey him no matter what until I leave this tribe! I could only let out a low, frustrated growl!
So in the middle of my frustration, I have had forgotten that my mom was a fox beast and could use her hidden powers to see a person's past and future. And it only dawned upon me when I saw her lowering her head to touch my Shasha's head.
But with each passing second, I could sense her abnormality. Her facial expressions' couldn't be seen as her red hair was covering both of their faces, but she's the restlessness in her body and her tight grip on the bed sides, I felt whatever she's seeing wasn't anything good!
Then she suddenly got up, covered with sweat all over her face. She gently wiped the sweats that fell from her on my Shasha's face as she caressed her face lovingly while tears fell from her eyes.
"Lisa?" My father and stepfathers called out for her together in their softest voices as she turned towards them.
My mom shakingly gave them a little smile as she got up from the bed and gave me a gentle push to sit on her stead.
I grabbed her hand when she was about to leave. She turned around with her tear filled eyes, as she said in a low whisper, "I know what you want to ask but don't ask, cub. I can't tell you!"
I frowned but didn't ask further. I saw my fathers wrapped their arms around her in concern but she gently shook her head. They all wanted to take her for rest seeing her disheveled expression, on which she agreed easily.
I also turned towards my mate and was about to take her hand in mine, when I heard my mom's voice from behind, "She will wake up soon! But don't ask her any questions regarding her situation or about her home!"
She stopped and when I thought they had left already, I again heard her voice but it was filled with pain and hurt, "This child, she has suffered a lot since young! Always treat her well, son. She's special and a rare crystal that is hardest to find."
After she said, I felt their retreating footsteps. But her words echoed in my mind!
'This child, she has suffered a lot since young!'
'She has suffered a lot since young!'
'Suffered a lot since young!'
I grabbed her soft hands tightly as I wondered, "What have you suffered since young Shasha!? What... that made you like this? But as much as I want to know about you, I don't want you to recall those incidents to become like this again!"
I felt a soft wetnesd on either sides of my cheeks. I tried to remove them but I couldn't.
Tears fell down from my eyes fast yet slowly. I just couldn't watch her lying down like this! All pale and weak as if her life...
No! No! No!
What was I thinking?
I quickly slapped my face twice to wake up from those stupid imaginations.
I bought her hands near my lips as I planted soft kisses on her fingers, "You'll wake up soon, right?"
I asked which she didn't answer. But I was sure that she would wake up soon and become all playful just like earlier.
Even thought... still...
Watching her like this...
I felt more and more tears to ooze out of my eyes and I felt myself like those Shasha who would cry in the little of the things!
'No! I can't let her see me like this! I need to become strong, at least emotionally. If she's emotionally weak like this, at least she won't be in this kind of situation again! I've to protect her... both physically and emotionally! After all I'm her Shan... Her first Shan who will take care of her!'
As I thought about this, I got some mental courage as I softly placed her hands on the bed as I stood up to wash my face.
After washing my face, I drank some water as I felt my throat had long dried down. But just as I finished drinking the last sip....
I sensed a sudden emotion within myself that was similar to fear before I heard her fear-striken voice, screaming "No!"
I swiftly moved back on the bed side on which she was sitting and panting heavy breathes. It looked like she had have an extremely terrifying nightmare. And just like how my mom used to hug me when I had a fever and woke up due to nightmares, I hugged her.
I felt her wrapping her shaky hands on around my waist and I felt her strength on my body. She was hugging me tighter while her heart was palpitating so fast, when she whispered in her shaky breathes, "I don't want to be alone. Can you hug me for some time..... please?"
I immediately obeyed as I hugged her and patted her back to calm down. At that moment, she looked very much like a young cub who was born and needed protection fron her elders.
She appeared so frazile and weak at that moment that I didn't want to leave her...
But I needed to.
I tried to push her a little but her hands around me became tighter as she shook her head, "No.. no.. no.. Don't leave me at the moment! Please! Please! I need you! Please!"
"But-" you need to have some water first. I wanted to say that to her. But I changed my mind when I saw her shaking so badly.
Then she started to murmur somethings under her breathes and each of those sentences were more shocking than the other. And I was glad that at least my hearing was sharper or else I couldn't have ever heard it.
"Do-don't hate me, mom please. I beg you! I didn't do a-anything bad. I di-didn't choose to be born a-as a g-girl. Ple-please, dad! Please do-don't hate me! I ca-can do better jobs than any boys. Ple-please don't ki-kill me. I wa-want to live. Please! Please! Sheea is a good girl. Sheea can do anything! Please! Sheea can do be-better jobs than her brothers. Ple-please don't kill Sheea! I want to live!"
And then she said nothing as she sobbed softly. Even though I couldn't understand some of her words, one thing was for sure.
Her parents didn't want her. And worst they even tried to kill her!
How could be so ruthless when every beasts here wants nothing but a Shasha in their family!?
I could still feel her shaking and sobbing as I brushed my hands on my head.
No wonder, she turned like this when her home was mentioned. She was scared and broken!
She must have become strong like a Shan just because of this reason! To protect herself... not fron others but from her own family!
And then her words from earlier when she was pulling my ears came running in my mind.
"You fool, it's not what you think? You're my first mate, id*ot! And as for not to go touchy-touchy all day 'cause I've been living alone since my childhood here and there without anyone beside me! And I know, you beasts always touch your mates whether in public or in 'our-time' without any restraint. So I'm asking you not to do those things to me, as I'm not comfortable with it!"
She... She had been living alone since her childhood?!
And she lived here and there... meaning she didn't have a proper home?!
No wonder... No wonder!
I looked at the sleeping beauty in my arms. Her tears from earlier had removed some of the dirt from her face. Her face appeared a little milky white in some parts. She looks do much like a child at the moment.
I laid her down on the bed and was about to leave when I felt her tightening grip around me. And seriously saying, I didn't want to leave her at the current state. So I lied down beside her.
I felt her nuzzling in my arms as she fell into deep slumber and let out a breathe of relief. And soon my tiredness from earlier also came to me as I also hugged her and driffted to my sleep.