I REALLY LOVE YOU

hey Carl, "class is over now, we both can do study together if you want", I said to him.

" study , nope , I have nothing to do with study, you know, books are really like sleeping pills to me , I fall asleep whenever I open my books, you'll never understand Alex. "

"I think you , you never applied interesting method for study, today let's go to my house, I'll teach you".

we both started walking, "so tell me Alex, what is your goal, he asked to me".

"I want to become teacher Carl, I really love children", he gave a gentlemanly nod.

OK, you know Alex today is Sophia art exhibition, I hope she perform good today. I only want she get any position, then I will take her money, Carl said

hey Alex why are you laughing, are you laughing on me ?

no I am not , I replied casually.

OK, we reached at the home , and don't worry about Sophia. position doesn't matter , I know you are thinking about your sister, but ,she is living her dream.

so, it is your room, he asked

yes , is it beautiful ?, I asked. yes it is good.

so, you are obtaining low marks in history, then we firstly read history book.

I will not read, you will read , I only listen, you know it is very boring subject.

ok ,then we'll learn something interesting, you know one fact about frog, they can change their sex according to water.

really, then I want to become a frog, he said and start laughing.

just shut up Carl.

OK! OK! tell me more.

frog is amphibian, means they can live on water and land both, male frog can change gender and turn into female in polluted water because of atrazine chemical. this chemical can reduce the testosterone level in frog body and increase the estrogen level ,and by this hormone female reproductive organ developed into their body ,then he can lay egg like females.

oh ! it's interesting, it means women and female frog both live in dirty place, even male frog change his body and turn into female in dirty place , oh my God, we male are really neat and clean , but you females,

shut up Carl.

this is enough for today Alex, I can't handle so much knowledge, I want to sleep now.

then he lay down on my lap.

God ! his eyes are really cute , his eyelashes are so big , I really want to touch his pink lips . my crazy heart don't fall for anyone but for him only. whenever I imagine for a perfect guy, in my mind your picture come Carl because you are perfect and if anyone tell me , you have flaw, then I will accept you with your flaws , because I love your everything.

I start running my hand through his hair ,his soft hair. why he is so handsome. my love, you are just like the moon ,but if you are moon then this moon is mine, you only belong to me ,even stars have no right on you, I place my hand on his cheek, I can feel his breathing, his warmth, will he mind if I kiss him ? will he allow me ? I really want to do this. no I can't.

but I can't control myself and then I placed my Lips oh his lower lips, please God please stop this moment, why his lips is like candy, I want to eat,his lips.

Alex.....Alex.....what are you doing, did you that....kiss....that....actually I was not in the sleep.

I REALLY LOVE YOU CARL,

Carl astonished.

I don't know how I fell in love with you, I try to stop myself, but because of your sweet nature, I can't control myself, I think it is not wrong to fall in love with you. I love it, when I listen my name from your lips, why you can't throw yourself at me, why you don't feel anything, why your fragrance doesn't smell from my body, am I not attractive, my heart is sinking, please break this silence. a girl is telling her feelings in front you ,and you are silent, it's really embarrassing".

you are my friend Alex, he spat out. I am sorry Alex, I can't do these love things with my best friend. I can't love you like a woman, because I don't feel anything, we can share everything with each other, but this will not happen.

I'm sorry Alex, he said and left