1 PROLOGUE

The sound of hospital equipment echoed in the girl's ears, she was crying for her mother who had not opened her eyes for a long time. At a very young age, the girl must know the pain, loneliness, alone. Yes, the little girl waits for her mother every day to wake up from her long sleep.

The sound of her crying got louder, followed by a buzzing sound from the heart rate monitor which showed waves and now turned into a straight line. The nurses came into the room, the little girl's body was carried by one of the female nurses and carried her away from her mother who she knew was dead.

When children his age play around until they don't remember the time, they play many games with their friends such as playing bekel ball, congklak, gobak sodor, engklek, snake ladder, paper dolls, yo-yo, hide and seek, or playing firecrackers from plants. Alice Grizelle, the 6-year-old girl didn't even think about it. Her life is like a queen who is confined in a luxurious palace with many bodyguards guarding her, full of wealth and never lacks but does not know the word happy.

The worst day began when Alice was fast asleep at night and accidentally woke up feeling thirsty. When she reached the kitchen, Alice heard the sound of something falling hard, making her flinch. She refused to take a drink, her curiosity was greater than her thirst.

At that moment, in the living room, Alice saw her. She saw her father slapping, grabbing and banging her mother's head against the wall. Alice screamed, trying to stop the madness of the father against her mother.

Alice's father finally stopped, both of them were surprised to see the figure of a little girl standing near the stairs with tears already in her eyes. Her father was about to approach Alice but the little girl first ran up the stairs to get upstairs to her room again. She closed the door and locked it. Alice's father's voice was heard behind Alice's door, calling her softly. But any persuasion would not be able to make Alice open the door, in fact she would rather fall asleep and hold her thirst until tomorrow morning. Alice is willing to do that instead of having to open the door and see her father's face.

Alice still clearly remembers her mother's condition at that time, the corners of Alice's lips were bleeding, her eyes were swollen and red. Since that incident, Father has left a big wound in little Alice's heart. The father who is usually his daughter's first love, this time he became Alice Grizelle's first heartbreak.

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Life at home has changed drastically.

Home for Alice is like hell, if in the past his father's return always made Alice happy, now it is an anomaly. Alice's father's return is something to be feared, because he will be angry with Alice's mother or find faults, such as not rubbing clothes too neatly, messy arrangements in the closet, food that is too salty, or her mother forgetting to rub Alice's father's work shoes that will be worn in the kitchen. morning. Violence is everyday food. Alice's father became light-hearted and did not feel that he had done anything wrong.

If Mother Alice was beaten, Alice could only hope that the Millennium Human Banner, Eclipse, the Toloy, and the various heroes that Alice often watched on TV could come to their aid.

Even Alice had thought of wanting to become an adult, so that he could help her mother to avenge her father's actions.

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The rain that afternoon was not so heavy, but the rain was painful for Alicewho had just been left away by the person she loved, cared for and had.

Now all she feels is loneliness, she is alone here. Everyone who delivered one by one had left to return to their respective homes. Gradually the people he loves will be forgotten over time. In front of her mother's grave, Alice's cry finally broke, her tears just fell down along with the rain that accompanied her falling. Little Alice wept at her mother's grave alone. His father waited in the parking lot first because Alivce didn't want to come with him.

Her small hand moved towards the wooden peg with her mother's name on it. Alice hugged him tightly, still remembering the warm hug that had created between the two of them, as if everything could not be gone this quickly. And all that's left are the memories that Mother left behind, no more time for them to be together.

"Why did Mama go alone? Why don't you take Alice, Mom?" she said so softly with a tear that fell. Alice's words are also still slurred.

That day, Alice felt her-self suffering the most in the world. It was as if she had been so mean to her. With all the wounds she had felt at such an early age, a question lingered in her mind:

If Alice is not loved, why was Alice born in the world?