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Yitian placed a picture in a frame on the night table and looked around. Everything was perfect. Totally Chao's style. Yitian sighed and closed his eyes. Then he calmed a bit down and exited the room.

They were coming today, all of them. They already had moved their things in, and they were brought to their representative rooms. It was Yitian's case too.

Except that he was now holding a bag with few clothes and was getting ready to move away. Or more like ready to sleep in the guest room. He went down the stairs and went along the glass wall, dividing the living room and dining room.

He walked into the guest house and took the bottom room because Lei was living in the upper one. Not living, but sleeping only. He was going on and off this week. Being the only one in here with Yitian, who was staying in there to finish the touches and prepare everything.

Well, he was the head architect and designer that Lei hired, and he never wanted money for it, but gosh, the money that came to his account was wow. And every time he sent them back, he received them again the next day. And even got almost yelled at by Lei not to occupy his employees with this petty task every day. So, over the night, he became quite wealthy.

Yitian threw the bag on the bed and just let his body fall down too. The only reason he was this messed up was Chao. The awkwardness between them hasn't improved at all. And Yitian was soon to lose his mind.

He started to shiver again; he tried to breathe deeply, but it was no use. The tears started to fall from his closed eyes, leaving a wet trickle on the side of his face.

Yitian knew that soon others would come and see their new homes, but he was too tired. He was so tired of doing everything he could; he was so tired of liking someone who didn't appreciate it back and someone who couldn't even bother to talk to him.

He was thankful to Yixing, Huobai, Lei, and others for keeping him above water, otherwise, he would have drowned already.

He would have run away from here, not caring about anything.

'You are a coward, you always have been. You just borrowed strength from Chao and when he left, you had no strength at all… you deserve this behavior. You are not someone who deserves to be loved.'

Yitian was falling asleep. He cried so much; he was so tired. He just wanted to sleep forever.

***

"You scumbag, you deserve to die!!!" Yixing shouted for like tenth time just in Lei's car. They decided to arrive at the house together. And since Lei picked them up, Yixing wouldn't close his mouth.

"Shut up!" he yelled back, baffling all three of them in the car. Lei and Yixing were stunned because it was almost an eternity since they heard him yell. And Huobai was startled because he never heard him yell like this before.

"Don't shut-up me, you imbecile." Yixing snapped back and Lei sighed, relieved that they were in the housing complex already.

Chao looked around, ignoring Yixing. The last time Chao was- no, no… It changed. That's it. I was finished. The big white cloth was still in the house, waiting for the big reveal.

They all get out of the car, but Yixing was determined to piss off Chao. He ran to him and grabbed his shoulder, to forcefully turned Chao around to face him.

"I'm talking to you! How can you lead a team when you are such a jerk?! Do you know how he is feeling?! Do you f**king know how much he has done?!" Yixing pushed Chao, so hard, that he felt on the ground.

"He gets paid for it! Why should I care!" Chao yelled out. But it wasn't really what he thought. He always made sure Yitian was healthy, that he wasn't overworked. Of course, he still cared for him. He cared more than he should.

The pain in his chest started again, and he grabbed his own shirt. He saw the sign of that panic attack. He was left again by someone he trusted.

Chao's panic attacks came back, even his nightmares came back. But he won't come back to Yitian. He can take care of this by himself.

But today, there was no chance for his panic attack to grow bigger, because Chao felt a sudden impact on his jaw. Yixing was holding his collar and punching him again and again… and Chao let him.

"You have no idea how bad he has it!" Yixing was yelling, and Chao grabbed his fist to stop him from more punches. They were light at the beginning, but the angriest Yixing was the heavier they got.

"You have no right to say that! How hard do you think I had it?!" Chao screamed back.

Lei looked around. He let them fight because even he could feel the bad mood in the team. But he would still stop them if a new teammate arrived. These four lived together for the past years. The new arrivals were untouched by their behavior.

Chao's mind was in chaos. How could they say that only Yitian had it hard? Does nobody think about him? Does nobody care? He kissed a guy, and it felt good? How can they say that he is a jerk that he doesn't want to meet him?

He tried, he tried to behave normally. But his mind kept popping memories of the kiss, and it felt pleasant. Chao was never attracted to a girl and now, he was feeling nice and happy after a kiss with a guy?

Should Chao just accept that he was gay? Just like that? Nobody knew how confused his mind was. It was even more confusing that he liked his best friend… How could he destroy their friendship with his disgusting mind?

Chao was still sitting on the ground, but Yixing got up after letting him go. He stood behind Huobai and leaned his Chin on Huobai's shoulder with a sigh.

"I think what you two need is talk… I think communication is the first thing to use. And the team can't function with you two like this. You were the perfect combo. But now, your performance decreased. Both of yours." Huobai explained calmly.

Chao knew he was right, he was better at explaining than Yixing. He wiped the blood from his mouth with his sleeve and got up. Right before them, he pulled out the phone from his pocket and dialed Yitian.

"He isn't picking up," Chao stated with a defeated expression.

"I'll try it," Yixing said and pulled out his phone. Yitian would always pick up his call. But not this time. He let his hand fall down and shook his head.

Every one of them, even the newcomers, that parked their cars next to theirs. Shanshan and not even Lei could reach Yitian. He was nowhere to be found. And Chao had a bad feeling about that.