18 MOMENTARY PAIN

"Anyways you should go get ready, You're supposed to go out with kenma today" it's sort of odd, how he can change the entire aura of his in a split-second, there was a slight bleakness in his voice, but I overlooked that, as maybe he wasn't in a good mood today and maybe I'm over thinking as usual.

"Sure!" I was about to leave but a question popped in my mind.

"Does kenma prefer a certain type of color or dress?"

Taehyung seemed annoyed but suddenly his face lit up.

"Come with me"

I followed him, and following in his steps I realized that he wasn't walking towards his room. Rather was he was going to my room? Why though, that too to my room?

"Let me help you dress up!" Taehyung said with his boxy smile.

"WhaAt!?"

"I mean I'll pick out the right dress and the right color, plus the accessories that would go with the outfit and make sure you look great"

Taehyung explained what he actually meant by 'help you dress up'

"Well it's not a date anyways, so I can wear anything right? I just wanted to know a specific color that he'd like." I replied back with half the enthusiasm he had which made him feel down I guess.

"oh okay then go with BLACK" Oh, I knew it, Black is his favorite color afterall, Taehyung said and left abruptly, closing the door harshly behind him. The bang of the door made me flinch, did I say something wrong?

IT was almost like he was hurt, more like offended.

I shook my head as I must probably be overthinking, like they say 'old habits die hard'.

I wore a black shirt with black shorts and black boots and my (black) hair tied up into a neat ponytail.

There you go. All black.

I went over to TAEHYUNG's room first to ensure he's fine and also to ask if this outfit looked alright.

"Hey taehyung! How does this look?"

"TAEHYUNG?"

He wasn't in his room. "Where'd he go?" I murmured to myself and was about to leave when a notification popped up on his phone and then another and another.

Being inquisitive as I was, I decided to check it. Even when I knew I shouldn't, morally, but purpose-wise, collecting information about them is more profound.

"Hey bae! Where are you? I miss you!"

"The world is so gloomy without you"

My heart somehow shattered into a million pieces. I know we just met and that we aren't even that close but Taehyung has been my crush since the first time I saw him, and knowing that he might have a girlfriend obviously hurt.

"Hey what are you doing?"

TAEHYUNG suddenly came in and I placed the phone back from where I picked it, he didn't notice thankfully.

I ran out with no reply. Tears slowly began plummeting down my face. Even though we weren't in a relationship or something, I still felt this slight pull towards him. I brought my palms up to my face, wiping off the tears that had escaped my eyes

I most likely had feelings for him, but I would never show because it's pointless. This scenario is temporary, I'm here for a fleeting moment, I'll never know when I'll be gone, vanish suddenly from their lives, and it's better we don't get attached to each other, the closer we are the harder this will be, for me and for everyone else.

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